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Blog 2-20-13

Grief finds me
in the transcendent
deep
Yet reach in
4 the stars
life beyond
manilla brick walls
my souls not luke
warm
brightly brilliantly
torn
passionately real
seasonal. life can be
at times
don't we all
perish in the fall
oranges
browns
rustic
aromas. buried
in winter
even twins
like snow flakes
meltin as they land
conjoined
occupyin hearts
of loved ones
how is
what's done, is done
?
we would
unsung
undone
un-b come
& then some
watch
water. DIE
H2O
H to O
H2?
Oh
!

resurrected from Jacob's well
well pregnant with God
raise God
inherit God

Congrats to Mach on the twins :)
I pray all is well w/them

Dear Blogfest,

Morning, afternoon, & all that. I'm ok - just indecisive. NE way here I am rehashing thoughts on paper...Was bout 2 read my Bible but I decided to meditate on God's goodness, cause sometimes in my selfishness - when I don't get what I want - I close my eyes & heart to God's great goodness (sorry): Guess I'm STILL human. I deal with stress & anxiety bout hearin from my daughter, not to mention the daily desire to be FREER already. I just want 2 b ME already. Married w/kids (foreign and domestic) successful as a teacher/author/father & as a man, who no longer fears walking in LOVE. The Bible says 'the desire of a man is his kindness' yet we teach men 2 B hardcore... :( NE who working out 2xs this week has every one of my being tired. IF I can make it to 10pm I'll be alright. Amen. Always feel like I 1/2 2 say something deep & philosophical. I blame Peg. :) & thank her for calling me 'the Philosopher King'. I almost titled a book that. Pride & ego still linger like mouthwash...

God will fix me...provided I cooperate Amen.

Well w/out further ado here's why God is good on TODAY

1) He gave me the heads up that it was Pat's b-day
2) He blessed me wit time 2 write him a poem
3) He blessed me wit the uninterrupted moments 2 make Pat some nobake brownies w/peanut butter dough on top sprinkled with chocolate covered peanuts and drizzled in chocolate syrup.
4) I trust God will make a way 4 me 2 GIVE the treat 2 Pay who I just met at approx 2:10pm.
5) God gave me the courage 2 introduce myself 2 Pat, cause I'm definitely not real big on introducing myself 2 dudes.
6) God allowed me 2 bump into Nate who like Jay-Z 'Hey I know u, we was in Portage together. What up Mr F.'
7. A Yo encouraged me 2:)
8) I have the ability 2 read & write
9) I'm almost this close 2 saving 2 send my daughter :) God helps by answering my prayers, 'God how much do I spend at canteen?' 'God help me save, I miss sending my daughter $$.' One quarter at a time...one quarter at a time.
10) I'm ok
11) My celly Scott let's me listen 2 his radio, course it's on K-Love (Christian) seein we both accepted Christ as Lord and Saviour. I 1/2 a radio but it don't get nothing but country!
12) I have resources 2 give away & use 4 the advancement of the Kingdom.
13) Through a conversation with Joe, I got some insights into John chapter 4. God's amazing like that.
14) I find myself less lustful & more attracted 2 a woman's spirit as opposed 2 her body.
15) I'm still in the process of becoming
16) Llamas r on the loose!!:) Everybody enjoys freedom. :)
17) God is blessin me wit an opp 2 write Alan about the internal/invisible/unwritten workings of DOC. I pray it'll make a difference
18) I'm learning about humanistic psychology
19) I'm learnin more about poetry & how 2 put words together. I need 2 learn more words.
20) God reminded me that there IS a finisher inside of me (1st Kings 10:25) & that I NEED jesus just 2 overcome my diagnoses of 'Impulse Control Disorder' so I can be 'grossly intact' :) Thanks Psy dept. Jesus will leave me 'clothed & in my right mind'. Amen.
21) 3:51pm Pat was shocked by the foottub full of brownies" 'Gee thanks. This all 4 me. I cna't eat all this!' heck at God.
22) By the grace of God the book is move'n right along. Tonight I will gather/write more poems, so that tomorrow & possibly Sunday they can go on the editin block.
23) God is good cause He is my publisher. :) He LITERALLY brings them 2 me. Amen.
24) I 1/2 the most beautiful daughter.
25) I haven't been 2 seg - on purpose - in 10 yrs (Jun 3rd 2005)
26) He's constantly behind the scenes positioning things 4 my good.
27) He's teachin me how 2 minister & live on people which will free me from this 'antisocial personality disorder' Amen.
28) I'm good at designin clothes and shoes though I 1/2 no formal training/schoolin.
29) God is my teacher.
30) God cares 4 my soul.
31) God gave me a team of laywers.
32) I feel taller
33) I can still walk, run, jump, move my fingers/toes
34) I'm FREE
35) My typewriter, TV, fan, radio, clock & lamp still goin & goin though some are a decade old or older.
36) I can get by w/less than 3 meals a day.
37) I'm employable
38) I get to go to the library :) at 5.30pm
39) I have a job that I feel pays me 2 much :)
40) Todd stopped me & said, 'Hey u really made that guy's day. He was telling everybody u made him a cake... I told him 'there are nice guys in prison''. I - by the grace of God - responded 'I'm just tryin 2 let Jesus live through me. Jesus saved.' By love they shall no u r my disciples (John 13.34,35)
41) God gave me the recipe for the no-bake brownies.
42) Scott blessed me w/a burrito
43) I got mail from 'somebody'.
44) The soup 4 dinner had real chunks of beef in it & was quite delicious.
45) He set a guard over my tongue as Phil complained bout not wanting certain people 2 sit next to him.
46) Scott reminded me that 'women behind bars' came on 20/20 tonight.
47) He gave me the idea 2 sit down & type up some of the book I penned 4 Priska. The retelling of the Gospel of Matthew.
48) I'm excited about sending my daughter a poem 'I will be a Happy Girl' by a 17yr old girl who wants 2 b a psychologist. My daughter wants to be a psychiatrist.
49) I'm enjoying myself.
50) We had Bible study this morning.
51) I NEED GOD so as 2 stop being divided against myself (Romans 7) Yes, w/out God I'm unable 2 care about myself. W/out God I keep doin the things I said I'll never do.
52) God is good cause he created colors and is the best colorer. :)
53) Because even though I don't hear from family & friends I knew I can get through 'this' IF I just have enough courage 2 pray and read my Bible.
54) Saddened by circumstances God just showed me (7.33pm) that I have NEED of the (spiritual) endurance that accompanies faith in Christ Jesus (Revlations 14:12)
55) He revealed 2 me that I'm ina fight for my life. The devil [?] trying 2 kill me but I MUST run 2 God and His victorious power in the spiritual realm 2 conquer/overcome Staan and his demonic cohorts. (Revelation 12)
56) He inspired me to open the book with Revelation 12:14 as its intro page. Fitting cause the book is [?] women. :)
57 He blessed me w/time & space 2 read my Bible.
58) I got my copies from Psychological Services
59) After watchin 'women behind bars' I'm even more motivated 2 write an finish 'this book. That's dedicated 2 women.
60) I'm reminded that SATAN did 'this' 2 us. I wasn't created 2 live 4ever in a 6x9. Ain't no prisons in the Garden of Eden or in Heaven. Amen. Praise God.
61) He's motivating me 2 H8 the Devil.