"Thanks for teaching moi that I should never hold a grudge... I should act on one."—Miss Piggy
01/26/17
Dear Readers,
Howdy!
Well, so far for me, the new year hasn't been great. I've been in a terrible funk. It's like I'm mad at the whole world and don't want to be around anyone. I realize that this isn't the way to be. I've studied and read enough to know that what you put out comes right back to you. I should be putting out thoughts of love, prosperity, and success.
This week I received notice that the court has denied my appeal in a civil case I filed. I filed a suit against a woman who took a lot of my personal property from my home many years ago. It should be very simple and clean. And yet, if you're a prisoner and have no money, you don't stand a chance of receiving justice in America.
And what are my chances of that changing now? President Trump? Are you kidding me? What in the hell were all these people thinking who voted for him? I am so embarrassed to be an American right now. Four more years of this. Let's pray that four years is all we have of this idiot.
My cellie "B" broke up with her boyfriend and hooked up with the guy she was having an affair with the day after this guy got out of the Hole (segregation). I'll use a masculine pronoun for B for now on. Anyway, it's been nothing but more drama ever since. Hell, all these months living with B has been nothing but drama. B is supposed to go to the drug program in April, and I cannot wait. B is young, very feminine, and has tons of guys chasing him. But, after I've seen how he manipulates these guys, I just don't understand. I'd treat a guy like a king and no one wants me. It sucks being lonely and unloved.
Love and blessings,
Kelly
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Replies (13)
I hope that this outlet helps you vent and cope in every possible way that it can. Can't keep it bottled up. And know that I absolutely appreciate your honesty. I'll keep transcribing some of your older posts too.
Stay safe in there.
I am sure you talked about Pam in your blog message?Real sad she took advantage from you.I truly understand your big frustration,Kelly. All this time... But here are some friends,who write you.Live with them and those who are kind with you.Believe in the worthy person you are.:)Do not be defeated, my friend.Yes another year has come on us; but always everywhere there are chances and opportunities.Wed have to see them though.I hope you've a nice person as a cellie,in April,Kelly.I've this card that says:'Hope is daring things without knowing how they'll run'. Hope is in a sense something that puts us in a positive mindset.Nobody knows what tomorrow will bring.-smile.The blog says you'll receive my message on February,27th.Tell me if so.There is a lot to tell. :)Where to start?I will fly to Ill. on April,21,to Chicago.Then taking the Amtrak till Carbondale.I thought the train would go till Chester, where George is at, but alas it's not that far.I hope his dad can pick me up at Carbondale;well his chofer,John.I'll call him tonight. A taxi from C. till Chester would cost me 150 doll. and back again 150 doll.! I am not spending this money!I booked already the flight, not the Amtrak tickets. Also the hotel twice in Chicago and twice in Carbndale. Yesterday I had to take a B.Western hotel for 9 days.Only 3 days at the Hospitality House, a B&B. A group was there at my period. :( It was only 20 doll./night, while at the BW it's almost 100 doll.!I had to call them way back in time already.Did you receive my card from IND?We had a fabulous voyage!In the weekend of 18/19of February I hiked twice 20 kilometers!With my group the Sippels.Say: Siepels. I did hike with this same group when I was in my 20ies!it was tough!I had had no training anymore. We walked in a high elevated protected area.Climbing at times between the roots of trees, mud spaces, and we had roads with ice and parts of snow.But landscapes were so bright! Streams,wetlands, and only birches as trees because the soil is sour. No other flowers or trees grow there.I was very careful to not to fall (fell once), since I wouldn't like to have my sciatic back again!Did I tell you a suitcase in the train fell on my head?!I had 18 sessions of therapy for my neck.Then suddenly appeared a sciatic pain (a pinched nerve) who was felt in my right leg.It was gone after IND., but it came back after my voyage. I still had 7 sessions to go and it was almost gone.Anyway, I am so very proud I did this!After the hike I had no sour legs, but some pain at the sides of my pelvis.Stiff, so to say. The next day I was babysitting at Elke's and coming back towards my train, almost everything was fine.:)I didn't receive not any letter from George
Kelly, I wish you so much more luck.Do what you can to remain positive. As what you said. Have a big hug and xxx from Rita!
I can tell you'll get this a WEEK after the 27th of March.Well, my birthday falls on the 26th.I will be able to celebrate it on various occasions.:) With mom, with my friend Kathleen (say Kathlane),in a cuddle party (I am curious!), In a RAPKLAP, with seniors; we do short chats at tables and drink coffee/tea and eat a piece of cake),and I'm invited by Nenita, a new Filippine woman, who invited me at the coast,in Oostende; she bought a house there and they're renovating it. She divorced and lives with an Irish man.I babysitted yesterday at Lars and Lynn.She shows me letters in a text and I showed her how to write them. She considers it as a game.For her 3 yrs young!:o Like E from her mother Elke, L from Lars and Lynn, B from her dad Bart and R from Rita.I showed her on the street: TE KOOP. She noticed the dubble O. Means:For Sale.
Oh, I started a few days ago a new language! Swedish. On DUOLINGO (internet) one can learn whatever language.
I also study Italian and I practiced again my Russian.Leslie is a Russian translater. I followed 2 yrs of Russian in the past.LOVE to learn language,Kelly! George studies French. ;)He appreciated you kind words.
I am glad you finally heard from Pam!At least she took contact with you. You must have been happy to hear from her!Now she can focus on you again. I do hope she sends you some money for the chrocheted works you made.She told me one day she had first to take care of him. How old is she?She seems a nice person; I saw a photo of her.
Before going to George I've to do an annual check- up of my teeth. That's today.In May I do one of the eyes.
Have a good time with Warren8
x Rita
Yesterday My brother Johan was visiting mom,91.He noticed water on her lungs. He'll see with other doctors what can be done for her?Mom has a valve at her heart that doesn't shut; so,she has a high breathing noise and is easily tired.
My neighbor Jos, 88 was having an accident with his bike, with a car!A hole in his head, he has a clavicular fracture and one in his hip!And his wife Maria has already Parkinson.They're such an nice couple!
I'm fine, after my train accident.I must have had a good guardian angel!
Today I will send my text to the writing group, Word weavers.'Going to the top'.I wrote I am not a top type of person. I'm a vertical type of person. It's lonely there at the top too.I need things to share with friends and prefer a voyage to unknown areas than to climb a mountain. :(
take care and know that I care, Kelly! A big hug from Rita! x
For another item he spent 6 months in solitary.We still guess why that was? Maybe because he had written a letter to a high ranking man, to save money?George saw all the money that could be saved here and there.They won't admit their lies of course.
I would visit George 5 days in May; they never came!Chery from the hotel had shown me photos of the flooding near the Hospitality House where I could go only the last 3 days.I was used to go there, but the place was full because of a group that would be there in my period.Well, later I heard they never came!I payed a lot in the best Western, where I was at. I walked everyday 1 hr to visit and 1 hr back to the hotel.Once I had a lift too. It was raining so much!That 1st of may I had to see it with my own eyes.When I arrived the roads were closed and the river Mississippi had flood!I tried to ask a man in a restaurant where I ate, to go with his car? The time was alas too short. And later I heard they annulled all visits!!
George waited... only later he knew the parking lot was full of water. People working there used buses.He also heard via his dad. And he knew we didn't even had the chance to say goodbye.:(((
And we had hoped to have the 4 hrs in May again,... There is this song: 'If I hadn't bad luck, I would have no luck at all'. Real sad. You can't fight Mother Nature.I had hoped to bring another visit in October?After I visited my daughter Leslie in CA.But I have probably to pay a high amount of money for a new terrace!It's almost a MUST! We have leaks and terraces of others in our building (5 apartments) suffer from it.The bad thing is that we will probably do it in summer! And we've to stay home for that.But I promised Elke that mom and me would take care of Lynn, for about three weeks at the coast, during summer vacation!I have problems; that terrace has to be free and cleaned; but there are two big wooden containers for plants on it and a big wooden table as well.:o It will give me extra costs to remove them!My neighbor HAS to have the terrace renewed. But they do it only if the same level neighbor does it as well, and that's me!It causes me a lot of stress nowadays.
I told you he is a Buddhist, eh.Kelly, good for you being busy. But seeing Warren wasn't the friend you needed.:(I am happy you have a nice guy in your cell.Oh, forgot! A gang cellmate of George had a fight with him and knocked his tooth out! :o He showed me when I was visiting. :(( The guy is in seg xRi
George had told me to say this to Leslie: 'I will take care of your silverware and polish it'.:))As a joke. She doesn't accept George as does mom. :( Leslie likes jokes. But this time she keeps silent...In my opinion she doesn't know what to say here?Then suddenly I saw George's code!:He doesn't really realize it, but I saw this.I will take care of your silverware(something that is important to Leslie: 'me')and polish it ('brightening up my life').Well, I wrote it to him.
The story I have to told you, will knock you off your socks! That will be for another email, okay?
Always nice to hear from you, Kelly!I saw you made a nice opening page here on the blog!:))))
xxx from your friend! Big hug too!Rita