11.1.18

Destiny,

Wisdom is understanding indeed! Trip on what the word Homo sapiens means: [fr. L. wise, intelligent - more at SAPIENT]. Sapient: [L. be wise]. Okay then, so let's see what Wise means: 1. [Gk. to see] 2. [OE. to know] more at Wit: [OHG. to know, L. to see] 2. [OHG. knowledge]: 1a: MIND, MEMORY b: reasoning, power: INTELLIGENCE. Of course, Intelligence means Intelligent: [L. to understand].

Yea, we live and learn, don't we? Learning from Experience leaves a lot of people crippled in so many ways! Just look around at all the slaves of conformity out there! But then on the other hand, look at and consider why the adjective form of Wise, means: 4. INSOLENT, and you'll see - Daughter of mine, why you're not a slave. What does the word MIND mean? : [OHG. memory, Gk. spirit]. Nurturing that Nature is often traumatic, freeing yourself from conformity's chains, as you are well aware - I'm sure.

That's why I reminded you that YOU determine every step on the path you're on, sweetheart. Our free WILL makes up its MIND to have it our way, and come hell or high water - the desires of your heart do manifest. Didn't you know? Will: 1. [L. to wish] 2. [OE. desire]! So you see, if given a choice in life; Will I AM - not a Slave! And you, Will's daughter, make up your own MIND - or change your own MIND, however YOU wish and whenever YOU desire. The Desires of your heart - according to your WILL-power... get it? Learning from Experience hasn't crippled you! Wit 2., being; Knowledge - and Knowledge is given to those who would look... Look! Whenever you wish that I was there to help you... Look over your situation and consider how everything fits YOUR goals/YOUR purpose, according to YOUR WILL.

If I had one chance in hell to help you from here, I'd help you to help yourself by helping you understand this basic principle in life: LIFE is understanding; and to understand all would be to live at the highest level of potential action and ability. Because life is understanding it attempts to understand, when it faces the incomprehensible, it feels balked and baffled.

So let me ask you, are you balked and baffled about why you're not quite living at the highest level of potential action and ability? Do you see the ball and chain? Regret and Remorse are their names - and they're terrible Teachers. Knowledge is the Key!

We can count the seeds in an apple, but who can count the apples in one seed? It's not impossible for me to see the immeasurable, unlimited possibilities in one fertile idea then, is it? THOUGHT is BOSS! Right? When we were children, we thought as children, but there are times when we need rise above childish thoughts, you see? WILL Power and REASONing Power make a great marriage from time to time. Reason, by the way, means: [L. computation. Goth. account, explanation]. So with that said, how do you account for the situation(s) where I'd be of help?

All my hard work is worth it right now, right? A light in the dark is mostly lonely as hell... but there are times I can rekindle the flickering embers in my zone of influence - and those are the times I live for.

Yes, we just need to keep in contact, as you said. Imagine how wonderful it was/is for me to see your Thoughts expressing love and admiration toward me while I'm in this hell surrounded by hate, fear and ignorance, I've made a sport to provoke. Believe you me D., I need you here with me. I need to see your Thoughts expressing your new found Understandings about Life and your ability to live it more and more at your potential. Trust me, writing is the best way to see what you're saying you think. I desperately wish and desire to see your Think, more than you can fathom! I've died at least a million tormenting deaths because I don't know your Thoughts.

So tell me what you think of my blogs betweenthebars. How often have you spied on me there over the years? Which blog(s) had the biggest impact? Do you get anything out of my college homework essays or my Scientology courses? TPOW = The Problems of Work/ANSOL = A New Slant on Life/and the Volunteer Ministers courses? All these exercises of Logic, sharpen the ability to REASON, in any given situation. The Volunteer Ministers courses are free - online at: ScientologyVolunteerMinisters.org? (Erne - is this correct?)

So what's up with your lil D, Momma? How do you think Grandpa feels about him being beyond my reach and influence? Do you all fear my influence, or what? Ask your mom how many books and stuff was sent for you kids from Dad, before adoption slammed that door. Imagine the Light-shows you missed all those years. All the artwork. All the genuine interest in you discovering you. I miss you and yours more than you know.

Yashua took the brunt of our re-union a few years ago, and then... I don't know - maybe I blew up his mail box too many times with... I don't know? He just stopped writing back - and I figured that I musta overwhelmed him, as is my nature.

I tried sending his lil Bella a book, and introduced my Volunteer Minister friend Ernestyna (Erne) so that they can work out how best to mail it... but never a word was heard from him. The book is called ARTSY ANT, which you can have Erne send you for lil D, if you'd like. Ask Yashua for Erne's contact info and introduce yourself. Erne reads my blogs, so she'll be expecting you. Ask her to tell you what the word FLAG means to us, and I hope you'll see how my insolence, daring to raise my Ez 33 upside-down flag of distress out there, eventually led me to an actual Flag I CAN pledge allegiance to. You'll be amazed to see what it looks like to live at the highest level of potential action and ability in this world. The fact I exist in that meritocracy should be enough affirmation for me to rest in peace... but seeing you say, "You're important", makes me think there's more I can do closer to home too. I hope you know that I've got all the love in the world for your mother and our progeny. You all know where to find me.

You're free to leave Erne a comment on my blog site if Yashua doesn't have that contact info, you know. That goes for any of you, by the way.

With all my love.

Be Blessed.