August 20, 2020
Hi everyone,
I was waiting to post in hopes of some good news with my sentence modification. I had the hearing yesterday and it didn't go my way at all. Such a waste of my time and limited resources. So, the post about the DOC will have to wait a bit longer. Sorry about that.
Right now I'm in a serious depression. Just feeling like giving up. Some part of me wants to keep fighting but most of me wants to say fuck it, I'm done. I thought I was doing so well too. I haven't felt this bad in months.
For those, if you that don't know, I suffer from persistent depressive disorder. I take a couple meds for it but they barely scratch the surface when things get real. Things just got real around here.
I didn't realize how invested I was in the hope of leaving this year but it's still only 11 months until my release. I'm trying not to be too down about it as I still have work to do.
-------August 21, 2020----------
I just found out today that I lost the IWOC Steering Committee representative spot by two votes but was elected to the backup/alternate representative spot. I accepted so thanks to all who voted for me! I note that I polled at 49%(rounded from 48.8%) which is better than Trump. Not saying much but a victory nonetheless. I'll still stand for election as OSCI's delegate. It sounds interesting and gives me a way to help even more.
It does make me feel better knowing how many people support me and trust me to represent them. Very cool. Thank you all again!
As always, stay safe and sane!
Tony
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Replies (2)
I can imagine what it feels like to not have things go your way, especially something as important. I have heard of persistent depressive disorder and from what I hear, it's a terrible affliction. I am empathetic to your cause.
But..on the plus side, congratulations on the backup representative spot. I'm sure you will do everyone proud and be of even more assistance than you already are.
To conclude,
stay safe and healthy, my guy.