Nov. 8, 2021

What They Don't Know

From The Sound Mind by Floyd Smith (author's profile)


What They Don't Know

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One day, I'm in the cell on the 1st tier in Donner Section at San Quentin State Prison. 1st and 2nd tier had condemned captives, 3rd, 4th, and 5th tiers was all Reception Center Mainline General Population captives.

I'm watching CMC The California Music Channel, and a video by Rapper LOGIC comes on, cool ass beat, and I noticed the visuals of the video was based on the Journey of a teen, a Young Black Brotha, and it began to be the video story that I had wanted to be exposed for my lifetime due to the denial in our Black Community.

I'm that kid in the video, and I know others like Him, and then, it happened, the kid who turns out to be a Black Gay Teen, being Bullied at school, isolated in peer groups, busted in a same-sex situation that was also interracial (The only difference from My experience), and abandoned by Parents, homeless runaway, and hungry, doing what it do, to eat, and back to the moment where the kid puts a Gun to His head.

Now, by this time, I'm emotional, and I hear in the distance the voice of another Condemned Black captive, a crip, yell out:


So in my head I was thinking:
(now I know this nigga Just didn't Just go diabolical)

It was at that point where I understood all of the past venom coming from dude was based on homophobia, and that He was in need of a sound mind because He campaigned against Gay Homies on a level and degree of mental unsoundness.

So later that day, a young homie upstairs yelled down to the Condemned dude:

"What was y'all watching on TV earlier when you started yelling, DO WHAT?"

The condemned dude said:

"Gay ass pussy nigga put a Thang to his head in a music video, so I was yellin' at Cuz to do it"

then about 6 people started laughing, and I went nuclear on everybody.

The condemned dude and his minions stayed on that "waiting for a Black gay kid to commit suicide" shit, and I remember my last words being;

"That's why we don't see y'all at protest against police killing Black people. Y'all work with the police to bring drugs and guns in our community, so then they stopped killing y'all, and started killing unarmed Blacks and poor people, and started working with y'all and not calling it snitchin, or not selling dope but "Making Money", y'all turned on the entire Black Race, y'all chose to be what you are, and chose to do what you do, and chose to stand down, and it's noticeable, and by the way, it's on video. That's not y'all burning shit up and running up in stores because y'all don't wear skinny jeans, that's not y'all trying to get laws changed, look into the crowd, y'all ain't there, all y'all ain't in jail, where y'all at when Racist are showing up with weapons? and fighting college kids? Gays? and people that ain't built for that? Oh I know where you are, Yeah we all see you, over there with MR. ASHKER, enjoy your high dumbass." While the police is helping you be at the stand down weakness, y'all are being exposed as the worst thing that the Black Community has produced on Earth."

I wonder if the rest of them now Know the irony here is, it was Mr. "DO IT" that committed suicide on Condemned Row, and nobody is laughing about that, not even me, you know why? Because that shit ain't funny. Yeah, He Killed Himself.

I'm not laughing because Condemned dude is also human, you're not laughing because he wasn't a gay black boy with a gun to his head in a music video, but in real time, now nobody is laughing.

Still a cool song, powerful video, but let's be clear, my message to Gay Black Youth is there are diabolical people in our own Black Race, Family, and Community that wants all of you to, DO it.

In Church, in Prison, and even on Death Row, and in this so-called new accepting society, and Prison Reform, Rehabilitation, Reparation, Black Lives Matter, Unity, WOKE Era, some of our own people want you to commit suicide because of your sexual identity.

I do this work because at some point, people in the Black Community will wake up and see that the Gun is being replaced with Fentanyl, yes, the "DO IT" people in the Black Community are working with corrupt cops to floor poor communities, and prisons, with the most recent method of suicide, O.D. by Fentanyl. Google where that this is coming from, do that.

This is not a gay thing, and this shit ain't funny.

There is a difference between snitching and exposing injustice, we saw it before with crack in the 90's, here we go again with Fentanyl, so while the slaves are obeying their masters, when you stop laughing, you will be able to hear the opressors of humanity laughing at inner city youth for helping commit genocide of our own people. Y'all didn't know that?

Suicide ain't funny. Y'all on the wrong side.


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tcalikyan Posted 1 year, 6 months ago. ✓ Mailed 1 year, 6 months ago   Favorite
Thank you for sharing your story with us!

crispycream200 Posted 1 year, 6 months ago. ✓ Mailed 1 year, 6 months ago   Favorite
Thanks for this powerful post. The topic covered in your post is so important and I appreciate your words.

ellss13 Posted 1 year, 6 months ago. ✓ Mailed 1 year, 6 months ago   Favorite
Thanks for writing, this was really moving. I finished the transcription for your post.

Floyd Smith Posted 1 year, 5 months ago.   Favorite
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