Date: 1/5/2022 8:29:34 PM
Subject: 2d try; Re: Q's, Reflections, Stories, ?Ramadha
As-Salamu Alaykum Wa Rahmathllah Wa Baraktuh ahk Nabil .
May Allahu Wa Ta'ala Baraktuh be upon you and the Tayba Family.
you requested some stories , reflections and inspirings events during Ramadan.
THE FOLLOWING IS MY responses to the questions you submitted .
My answers are things that has transpired with in the last few years or , and continuums in my personal Jihad to be a better
Mu/min / Muslim. Insha' Allah , Allahu Wa Ta'ala give me victory over the Nafs created within.
1. " What is the most inspiring thing you've seen from another Muslim , or that Happened to you?
Answer: My response is more self-reflect and objective observations of the Muslim I see everyday and have to deal
with. i.e. My self. The most inspiring thing with great significance , happened when the blessing that Allahu Wa Ta'ala
had bestowed upon me in three aspects:
one : Allahu' Akbar changed the thinking of the way Wi-DOc viewed me and turned their thoughts from them keeping
me in extreme solitary confinement until I died or was released home, As if 23 years was not enough.
which is the second aspect.
Allahu Wa Ta'ala Blessed My well being and Mind that I did not go insane or lose faith
while being in torturous Solitary confinement for 23 years straightforward NON-STOP , NONSPORT.
which brings upon the third effect , not only has Allahu Wa Ta'ala changed their thinking , and this is the part that was/is
inspiring to me , The very reasons , some real , some not , some valid and some not , and some a bit of both.
the reasons they had kept me entombed like a monster , i.e . having influence , or respect amoung my peers ,
they now view as a value to them and to my peers. i.e. they now employ me as a CPS ( certified Peer Specialist) .
while they don't employ me as a tribal leader, street influencer, they now see that my advocacy was positive
even if they objected to the nomenclature it was being made in . they went from trying to kill me, to Letting me do
what I was always trying to do. of couurse , I needed , and have made some important changes along the way ,and
with in my self. but the core of who I was and where my heart was had not been altered .
During the Certification process / Training to beccome a CPS ( certified Peer Specialist) , It was both inspiring and
Alien like to see people who once were indirectly, if not directly, Alluma/ Allah , trying to kill me / or mentally
incapacitate me , Now rooting for me to pass this training and treating , viewing me as a "HUMAN BEING"
was overwhelming. that I had Nuh's ( AS )Rain coming down my face at the end of the training ceremony,
where you have all these administrative personnel there to congratulate you. and because we had to do this
vie Zoom covid style, we had Administrative people on the Zoom conference from six or I five other prisons in
rooms with their own cps's from their respective prions who was training with me. I mean, I had been in prison
for over 30 years , 23 in tortture confinement, I never had prison staff ever view me as good or want me to
succeed. (. with the exception of those guards that do their jobs with out trying to go out their way to make
your stay in DOc a hell. ) I still feel uncomfortable at times when I have to engage them as I often do , and they
treat me like a person at work, instead of a prisoner or what they did in the past , "a gang member"
in some respects , worst then beeing called a terrorist ! As , the terrorist is Viewed, by some as having legit
reasons to exist , where as , a gang member is just a punk that wants to muck up society. ( which is the majority
P>O>V on the subject).
This Change in thought has also extended to my now leading the Ummah in Salat weekly when the Imaam from
Community do not come in, and my First Ramadan in General population , I gave the khutba and Imam'ed the Salah.
what a transition of events by Allahu Wa Ta'ala in my life. ( Question #3 is applicable here. )
And Allahu' Akbar ,Allahu Wa Ta'ala Insha' Allah is not done . see the next Baraktuh.
2. "What is the most Challenging difficulty you have had to over come since your imprisonment or embracement of
Answer: As for imprisonment , Not knowing how to read ,spell when I first got locked up. I could not even read my mail
when I first got locked up , i had to ask people to read letters from my family /love ones etc.
Allahu Wa Ta'ala Baraktuh rewirded my Brain and put the Qalam in my hand and Allowed me having the understanding
of the qalam's of the world at lager, where I am now a student of the Entire Dunya.
As for the Difficulty since embracing Islam . There has been quit a few ,and they all consist of tthe same jihad issue of
other people thinking because you are now on this spiritual path , that now over night they can talk to you stupidly and
this is by design. It seems As if it only gets worst too. ;-)
As a person who has held leadership positions in the past in every prison I was in , at most the very pinnacle of com-
- pound, it is very difficult to now hear , see , and witness the way these guys talk to each other , and the way they will
with you if you let them. and so there are the events whe you have a shaytan embodiment who wants to push you as
far as they can until you have to lose all you are working for.
One may not believe it , but through out All the street Wars and other foolishness I seen or participated in on the streets
of Chicago. I never was called the "B " h word until I was in Prison and locked in a cell in seg ,and he was on his way
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