How long after arriving there did you start to have these problems with the staff? I have kept up with your blog website also for quite some time, and know that you have been going through alot for along time. I hate to hear that you are stuck in such an uncomfortable place to "live" and I dont see how you manage, especially when the average cell along with many solitary years of being alone in a square by yourself and nobody else EVER has been known to drive some crazy, truly insane and mad. No matter who they were before years of the being alone and no form of anything around to focus their minds on other than four walls and a steel door or three walls and some bars. By themselves for years. Ive read too many cases where someone goes in as a normal average citizen who held down a tough, hard job that required being above average intelligence and never had issues with mental problems before and within at least a few years, they start to deteriorate and with each year they grow worse and their behavior more bizarre and unlike the person they WERE before being left in a trap like cage and forgotten by society. Some even still have the support of family and friends and yet still go insane in there. So I dont want to imagine taking the average drow cell and making it more horrible. I try to picture how you even remain comfortable. You definitely have more strength than I, and I admire you for that. Im sure you have seen this happen to people around you there as well. I read about some truly sad cases out of Texas DRow where a man removed both his eyes. Using his HAND. I cannot fathom..... I feel grateful to even read your words that you choose to share with the world here and on your blogsite as well, because once again, you have strength and endurance beyond most people I have ever seen. Dont lose that either! Its rare enough as is! -CC :) (smile)