7/31/12
The Worst of Sinners
You know, it's crazy because I used to think I could atone for some of the bad I did, but a part of me knows that's impossible. There's parts of me that's human, still with emotions and feelings. But then there's the other part that's numb and cold. So cold it makes the coldest winters feel like the hottest summers. I try to motivate myself to do something by writing or accomplishing something, but it doesn't help matters. When I look in the mirror, I still see all my mistakes. I still see all my scars. Some are visible on the outside and some run so deep only I can see them. Only I can feel them.
I thought by doing what I've done—a life for a life—I could atone for my greatest mistake. But the guilt's still there. Even Paul found forgiveness in the eyes of God. But not me. The worst of all sinners can never be forgiven. "It's not like you killed..."
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Sincerely
Melissa
Albany, Oregon