Nov. 30, 2012

My Hell

by Ronald W. Clark, Jr (author's profile)

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Ronald W. Clark, Jr Page 1 of 1
November 8, 2012

"My Hell"

9X7...63 square Foot OF HELL. Welcome to my stinking Friggin world! A world I have to deal with day in and day out, for over two decades. For almost a quarter of a century..yes 9X7...63 square FOOT OF existance and this my friend - is hell! A hell like you've never experienced. An existance like nothing you could ever imagine. And the thing about it is- I can never explain it, to make you full comprehend my existance in this hell hole.

Loneliness, sadness, despair, those are only few words to describe this 9X7...63 square FOOT cage that I wake up in every morning, and go to sleep in every night. And not day passes that the thought of suicide doesn't cross my mind. Cheking out- dying....that's where I find hope. And that says it all. Or you can find moments of happiness, or I should say tolerance, at mail call, canteen, recreation or visits. But those moments are few and far between.

Every day that I wake up...I remember that my Childhood friend and codefendant is walking the street as I sit here in this cage for a murder that he commited, oh- I'm by so mean's innocent.
But he pulled the trigger, stole the gun, set up the location ectect making him far more culpable that I. Yet he walks free. While I suffer the daily wrath of this stinking ass cage!

This is my world-my existance-my hell!

Regret fully,
Ronald W. Clark, Jr
November 8, 2012

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Bogdanetz Posted 11 years, 11 months ago. ✓ Mailed 11 years, 11 months ago   Favorite
Thanks for writing! I finished the transcription for your post.

I have really put myself in your situation and I can deeply feel you. If I say I'm very sorry, I now it doesn't mean anything to you. But after I read your letter I had a self-realisation feeling lucky and gratefulness towards God. Thank you very much! Puting myself in your shoes totally makes me very grateful that I'm not behind bars.

Find yourself within. Try and meditate. You can be happy just by sitting in one spot. Try to empty you mind, feel at peace.

Wish you the best! Bogdan

Ronald W. Clark, Jr Posted 11 years, 11 months ago.   Favorite
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