Although I'm not a terribly religious person, I do respect the things you've had to say in this post & I really enjoyed the thoughtfulness with which it was written.
I would like to acknowledge that by 'outing' yourself and your past with your writings in this space, you continue to release that shame & are furthering the process of acceptance and healing here. I have a great deal of respect for you for doing that in such a public forum.
I'm glad you don't let one terrible act in your past define who you are.
i said on line last night to the lojs counterfeit organisaiton i not banned from there for some reason, that if not maybe i pay it and pharisse is still allowed call for donations to lojs cos heitz is taking over i cud get a new job be his typist secratary type if i play mi cards rite. i getting some of the good bits of this book of Job story got some mi old stuff drop off yesterday including printer some books about black panthers mi copy of revolutionary suicide, seize the time and other books. slowly starting to feel less isolated too but also enjoying more spend time on mi own if is not forever is help me know myself get closer to ALlah in good and bad situations i learn lot from you how you is stand strong in babylon depsite much tribuations. who is babylon sometimes mi cat says they took mary magdalene twisted it make out its her when aint quite the same at all...i hear i cud be moving to ghana early next year,hope so else us of a i wud realy like come too see you and others...opnly jah jah know...i hope mi cat oscar bageera comes wat the cointelpro cia pet division is hating on him acting like he some kind of terrorist when he all about peace and love these days tho knows self defence is no offfence if u wanna live that for real...maybe they be so glad to see the back of him they give him a few leaving presents...i gwan try write today even if only a bit try write some how u ask about mental illess. i was think of doing a shaman course actualy is a woman in us of a i like i emailed her few times a year or two ago was helpful. i hear how u say abouttry do a course . i not so good in mi head still sometimes but is good i feel like jah is show me lots of stuff but mi mind races so fast hard to comprehend or write it down if i cud pick me pen up muur it be cushty i hear its miter dan the sword...i wouldnt mind both i like two swords as well like an islamic ninja swordman phantasy ficiton maybe but not as bad as some these religous ppl at least i let them know i officially crazy these ppl try pretend they sane or else just dont realsie they crazy, bless them. that course is only cost about 80 quid i cud probably afford it if i was bit more carefull with mi money some weeks. i ordered a next copy that mind manipulator book after read letters from y i order yesterday online but think is post from uk. i wish was way i cud put phone credit for you i check that site again is not if i have enuf this week i gwn try buy some of those pre stamp enevelopes so u can more easily write your close relatives and comrades u have in us of a. if not i try mi hardest to remember wen i next get paid a week monday. if u need any other little things like notepads they do pens and stuff i dont know about art stuff i wonder if they sent u a catologue or is just an online catologue i gwan look again later try work it out i coulndt understand how it meant that last time and mi computer dont last long before messes up and i shut it down a while. Jah Bless keep da faith
Shalom brutha laron its me brihon i got your latest letter this morning to mi new place plus 4 letters i pick up yesterday from da Y is so good to hear from you sorry i is still have few issues bit weak health sometimes please keep pray for me including that i get mi head bit more sorted can write back quicker and better. i hope maybe in your new place can sort something cheaper about these phone calls how these ppl is try isolate you when allah is want you be in touch with yuour kin. i cud be your long lost not so direct kin too for all we know same as i think i got somee in Ghana is only 5 degrees of seperation i hear, maybe is like the other side of the 5 piliars or pi lairs cant mind the spelling but u know what i mean of Islam. i see all these cards here can buy to ring abroad the african countries is so expensive the most is like 38p a minute when a lot of the ppl here form those places probably dont have much money is expensive here, still racism makes hard to get a job, lot of the african homeland countries still got poverty issues a lot of that being directly connected to these temporary leaders running our countrys where we live, i hear a change is gwan come aint just a otis redding song babe. what i said on back that letter they stamped over how u ask is i say i am trying get mi printer so if you or any your comrades in the prison cells within the prison matrix is need stuff insha allah i getting more sorted can do that for you. i hear u say u heart or soul was dictate u shud write me agian is that like that charlie chaplin i know its likely good aint no great dictator like these nazi politrickians lol. mi heart is dictating i shud try use these fast typing skills the catholic skool taught me for better purposes. i was say last night on youtube that cracker has banned me from ewn after answer some mi comments try make me look crazy then scared to answer him typical cointelpro shennagigans, i said i hope that money i donated while mi comraid la ron and mi fam in ghana is going without is not really do with this nwo of slavery and facism but either to free slaves i read some interesting stuff in quran...or else this man heitz who used to comment who is saint type like you maybe me too now is gwan take over i comment before when he was seem bit down by how his comments read i felt moved to comfort him tell him some jokes bit ironic priestSnake brutha laughter the pharisee gwan get a different type of Slaughter from ALlah he dont wind his neck in...i said befgore i cud hear heitz real lion of judah roar from here, he in the us of a same as u fam,
Paul, Hi, This is Emy from Aibonito, PR. I'm sure you remember me you used to call me mm's. I'm so sorry of all this. I knew about this about for 6 years now aprox. something in my heart told me it was you, but didn't see no pictures and I just found this picture and it hurts it hurts so much to know it was you. Heyyy you still look good, you will always have a space in my heart and mind
i knw a dear friend of mine who loves you more then she loves her self .even after every thing u have put her through that girl stood by ur side hell shes still there i watched this girl cry rivers behind u and i get on here and see this how u want someone to be ur queen for life im sorry but as i told her u dnt desevre a girl like her ...but i cant change the way she feels about no matter how ard i try ...you should really think about this
RSS
I would like to acknowledge that by 'outing' yourself and your past with your writings in this space, you continue to release that shame & are furthering the process of acceptance and healing here. I have a great deal of respect for you for doing that in such a public forum.
I'm glad you don't let one terrible act in your past define who you are.
Thank you so much for sharing.
Nicki
I'm not sure I'll sleep well tonight; but thank you for sharing.
Nicki
nina
It said:-
"Never take another person's dignity, it means everything to them, and nothing to you".
I like your poem. Hopefully writing it is helping you to put this incident behind you.
Take care
Nicki