You sound so much like me because I also feel that rather than feed me tons of lies that turn out to be cruel jokes after years of believing in them, Id much rather just be told NOTHING rather than any sorta BS. I am also one of those people who are so into reality that it causes me problems (haha no joke though, it really does, because I take things seriously that others ignore or cannot see etc) but Id rather be stuck in reality rather than lost in a dreamworld because that dreamworld that some are so lost in everyday is not going to be any sort of safety net one day when reality does strike, for sure. Maybe that is when everyone will cut me a break on being "so serious" about everything. I find nothing wrong with that due to the issues I support and the projects I help happen and other unjust happenings around our country that I constantly research/find like crazy that some (most) have never even heard of in their lives. Nor would they ever look for them, they think I only search for the negative but Im honestly searching for the truth most of the time. I have no time to waste, just as you dont, on being in a dream world that wraps me in a blanket of lies and false promises with a lot of empty, broken hopes later on down the road somewhere. At least I dont ever have to be surprised or shocked in some cruel way. Ive had enough of that, thanks, pass me up. Ill just stay right here deep in reality. (smile) As for your hunger strike, I cant say I dont agree with those who want to talk you out of it, I would too if I was a caring friend or loved one. They have saw you come too close to death already and plus, it would leave the same result which is you left to die on DRow. I hate to see you rush that and make it happen any sooner then possibly miss out on positive changes that occur later on regarding the death penalty etc....I know I know Im supposedly so realistic (smile) but remember I did say that doesnt mean NEGATIVE (smile) and plus, realistic or not Im also kind, compassionate to others around me in this cold world, and want you to look at the bright side of things too, even though Im sure Id be reacting just like you are right now in response to this. Honestly. But Im not known for making the best of decisions I will admit. Just think about things. Be good! -CC
I hated to hear that others besides you were affected by the old pen pal ad ordeal.... I happen to know of several sites where the people who started them up run everything really well for years one that used to be very popular was even up and going smooth for over a decade and then I guess they just abandon them or never update them even if they need to or should. At least most websites from long ago/outdated/not being used any longer end up disappearing from the net these days. But some still are around on google and other search sites which makes info STILL show up even though it was last posted/written in as early as 1997 and then abandoned from the looks of it since 2005. I do not know why the site continues to run, with no one to even contact to remove their ads and such.....someone still has to be paying the webmaster fee to have it up there but they just are not changing it. Rest assured this is not a site you were ever on, its just a good example of how that still happens unfortunately. And I hated to hear that so many got in trouble over website owners who post things as personal as pen pal ads and never think to update/check up with the person regarding their status. Overall though, alot of the old websites are disappearing and thank God the few that are not are dated or no telling what would happen. Although it does suck that there are people finding these ads and writing to the addresses only to find out later that the ad was 10 yrs old and the person is no longer at that institution or that address, etc. I hope your new blog is going well and that everything for you regarding your hope for a truce and otherwise is well also. Sending the best of wishes and also, thanks for including a entry about Milo Rose on your original blog site, Ive found his case very interesting and have replied to him via this website also. (BTB) Take care Ronnie, please! -CC 9-6-2012
Hi Ronnie, I hope all is well with you and wanted to let you know I have been reading your blog(s)....before this one (and your new one) I read the old one you had at blogspot I believe? Before recently moving to wordpress? If Im wrong, my apologies but I have been a reader for awhile. I just want to wish you well with whatever ends up happening through this ordeal, by now hopefully you have gotten some sort of an answer. Thats why I wanted to send my best of wishes your direction. I would miss reading your thoughts on your blog, etc but if you had to stop writing totally no matter what its focused on, then I know its in your best interest due to the conditions and especially your Mother. I support you no matter what happens and hope that things will get much better soon. I may contact you through snail mail, I have thought about it before but was afraid it would not reach you because of the mail issues. Has that now changed and gotten better? Hopefully. Please take care. -CC
I hope you are doing well lately with the depression, as well as you can be anyway due to the circumstances. I would be upset too. I am even upset at your situation with/for you. As people should be upset at such! I once had issues with major depressive disorder where bouts of depression can come over you for maybe a few days or even a year entirely and you dont want to do anything but go numb or get upset because you feel so out of control of everything. Then it passes. since it was an actual diagnosis, Im sure Im just going thru a time when its passed on and not hanging over my head but God forbid it return I at least hope it moves on quickly. I have read major depression is worse than the well known bipolar disorder where one is happy one second upset the next etc. Please do all you can do to stay positive, although I know its hard. I truly do know. More than you would imagine even though I was just born the same year you went to court. I just want you to know you do have readers on your side and who think of you and wish you the best. Ive added a few new readers for you, thankfully. I hope they will send you their comments/thoughts. Please take care of yourself, although its hard for me to send best wishes as I know Id feel the same as you in the situation you are in. We sound alot alike. I understand and however will admit, I dont want to know what my depression/upsetting feelings would be like if I had lived with injustice for so long. I admire your strength, please never forget this and know that. Much Love, CC
Milo, you mentioned you had been attacked also that same day? I know you said you would go into that in a future blog but I was wanting to ask more about it, anyway. (smile, sorry if I am nosy but I am interested in whats happened in this case and wish I had heard about it sooner) Your injuries sounded severe such as a blow to the back of the head which can cause some serious damage....did you ever get that looked into or were you denied the right to medical care that was decent?? I hope you were not hurt in a way that has continued to affect you badly. I suffered a head injury and have suffered from tonic-clonic seizures ever since. Yet before my head injury was brought up, it took forever for the neurologist to rule out epilepsy which was ruled out 100 percent yet the EEG (brain scan) showed what appeared to be "scar tissue" as they said at the front of the skull.....Ive not had another EEG since due to insurance reasons (which isnt surprising!) but hopefully it IS scar tissue and not something that has grown, something worse. But luckily I think I am fine, as it has been years since that first scan. Also, when you mentioned the broken nose and blow to the back of the head- I know my cousin once received a blow to the back of the head so severe it broke her nose and blacked both her eyes from the hit to the BACK of her head!! She never had to be struck in the front at all, due to the severity of the blow to the back which caused what they call a HINGE FRACTURE. She too has problems until this day with vision, depression, personality change since the attack, etc. Sounds as if you are lucky to be alive especially coming from someone who has firsthand experienced a head injury and also helped nurse a relative (cousin with hinge fracture) who ended up in the CCU (critical care unit, worse than the intensive care unit) and wasnt even expected to live!! Thank God she has, but she has totally changed personality wise like a total different person. No kidding. I still love her, and am there for her though always. You said in this entry you have no one to call anyway, what happened to any family you have? Are they out of the US or have you lost contact with them? Wishing you the best and my apologies if my long winded reply and questions are annoying! Take care! -CC
Dear Milo, Did you know that in one persons case studies online regarding innocence and wrongful convictions etc he found that out of ten innocent people, in their cases, EIGHT of them were convicted based on testimony of a person or people who were truly testifying because either 1) they were protecting who they knew really did it and/or 2) they were involved themselves and had then just quickly went to the police to place blame elsewhere on someone they knew enough about to make the lie sound right....and also to quickly get the eyes off of them plus to set the lies going in motion and in the right direction for THEM yet in the wrong direction for the wrongly accused. This sounds so similar, dont you think?? I would be livid to sit on DR for any amount of time much less YEARS not only being innocent but also knowing most likely who really did the crime....even if I didnt know for sure, knowing who helped the state convict me wrongfully by giving false testimony that the jury believed and took seriously is bad enough as is. I hope they are happy, for I could never bring myself no matter what to put an innocent person behind bars PLUS take their life as well. I would sit in jail myself before being talked into or paid in any way shape or form to do so. But as we both know, the majority of human beings are not so concerned unless its about their own selves. Truly wishing you the best everyday, dont forget that, CC
Dear Milo, I would shout it out as well during my trial, and I am glad you did. Are you being represented now by someone you trust that is unlike your representatives before?? I hope so. Also, if I can get you in contact with anyone whose primary cause is proving innocence through evidence not considered, things not brought up, stuff not shared in court fairly etc- can you provide the necessary documents for them or are they ALL correct on the public record? I hope that the information about the racketeering comes to light asap and that its looked into also. I cant stop thinking about that. I also cant stop thinking about someone not proving your innocence IN TIME, which is a scary thought as it truly saddens me when people are exonerated posthumously, its too late! -CC
Keep writing, Milo, please. Ive passed this blog site (yours) on to several other sites and several through e-mail who handle cases like this....so it will be read along with those of us reading at this moment already. I am not done passing this webpage on, but want to make sure it gets to the correct, best people it possibly can. I hope you hear from someone, even if they are involved in another case right now, they can at least look into yours and read what you have to say and maybe they know someone higher up that I do not. I do not know if these people will write me back or if they will just start reading up on your case, but I am doing my best to get their interest on you where it belongs. -CC
I expect I'm the last person you ever thought you'd hear from. It's Jason, Mel and Fran's nephew/Jim's son.
I read about what happened to you. Whatever happened, prison's no cake walk. You'll be out in a few more years though, yes? Do you have plans for when you get out?
Do you have any contact from Sean? Or Janis' kids, Matthew or Debbie? If so, would you be willing or able to put me in touch with them? It's a long shot I suppose, but worth the try. And thank you either way.
I live in Oregon now, since moving from New Mexico in 2002. I love it up here.
And listen, I realize things weren't particularly great when we knew each other, but that was decades ago, and we're different people. At least I must suppose we are. I was a kid after all. *wry grin*
Anyway, take care of yourself and try to keep your chin up. Things will turn out okay.
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I expect I'm the last person you ever thought you'd hear from. It's Jason, Mel and Fran's nephew/Jim's son.
I read about what happened to you. Whatever happened, prison's no cake walk. You'll be out in a few more years though, yes? Do you have plans for when you get out?
Do you have any contact from Sean? Or Janis' kids, Matthew or Debbie? If so, would you be willing or able to put me in touch with them? It's a long shot I suppose, but worth the try. And thank you either way.
I live in Oregon now, since moving from New Mexico in 2002. I love it up here.
And listen, I realize things weren't particularly great when we knew each other, but that was decades ago, and we're different people. At least I must suppose we are. I was a kid after all. *wry grin*
Anyway, take care of yourself and try to keep your chin up. Things will turn out okay.