Happy Birthday Jake..Sure wish we could have spent it togather..Hopefully one day we will..I have been leaving comments here..But they are gone now..?..If I am not supposed to..Please let me know..I just feel closer to U here for some reason..Love U Sweetie..Mom..
I just read this blog after I wrote a comment to your last blog. It was so strange, it was like you heard my thoughts!
You are definitely doing the right things, and hopefully it will grow bigger and bigger so you will help an enormous amount of people feel what you are feeling.....excitement about a dream coming true little by little.
Remember the saying "Rome wasn't built in a day"! Be patient!!
You have a powerful idea to help others.....stay with it, it's working! You went from 4 people to 15 in a very short period of time. Watch it grow!!
By the way, I gave Grove the website! He is Dave's step-father (minister). He volunteers his time at prisons so I thought he'd be interested in your blogs.
I enjoy reading your blogs, but please don't get discouraged!
You said Oh "GOD" do I feel alone! If you believe "at all" that there is a "GOD" then you are never alone! Talk to him in prayer and ask him to guide you through your days, when you need it. I believe this is what got me through the death of Betty Anne.
Whether it's GOD or someone/something else that you believe in, it will get you through if you "think positive"! Never give up!!!
What you're doing is wonderful! You will see your rewards in others, as you help them! Giving of yourself is very rewarding, especially when you see results. I believe that "giving" is much better than "receiving".........it feels great!
You may not get a lot of comments on this blog, but I'll tell you why I think that is. If someone just gets on, they are reading the first person that comes up. If they don't know you, they may never see your blog.
As far as the people that do know you, trust me Daniel, everyone's so busy in their lives that it's extremely difficult to keep up with everything! I try to make the extra effort because I feel it's important, but sometimes it's difficult for me as well. There are only so many hours in the day to cram everything in so please don't take it personally!
Keep doing what you are doing........it will all pay off one day!
I understand your loneliness! You can be in a crowded room and feel alone. Maybe you could write in one of your blogs that you would enjoy having penpals to write to. Or, maybe you can write to the people that have commented in the past and ask them to be penpals.
Well, I guess I've said quite enough for now. Please don't get discouraged! You have worked hard and I'm sure it's paying off even though you have your doubts sometimes. Look back again from the time you got there until today......I think "it has paid off" tenfold!!!
Great stuff Bobby,sure does bring back memories,some good some bad..but there just the same in the back of our minds... we enjoyed our visit with you and hope to do it again soon stay strong and keep GOD close in your heart..Now I know why u asked what kind of thoughts fireworks brought to our minds.....
Bobby...Those years sound amazing! I wish i was there to experience such joy that you did with Mom and Dad. Hearing about him and how wonderful he was warms my heart. Makes me happy to know that i am part of such a good person that i never even knew. You're right, I didn't grow up with a father, but I did grow up with a great big bro, and as far as I'm concerned the closest thing to a father. Also a strong mother who, concidering all problems, did a fine job with both of us. I'm sorry he did what he did and left you. Keep remembering those happy times and stay strong. I'm glad to see you're finally talking about things, I look forward to reading much more, maybe more about the good times before the little brat came into your life :). I will see you on November 4th for sure. Maybe before that too, I might take a ride up with some of the family. I love you so much Bobby!! Keep writing, you're amazing!! Stay strong!!
Bob - I loved reading Fireworks. It brought back so many good & bad memories. We did have some great times. I am glad you have some good memories. It is too bad that your sister never got to enjoy that time in your life and to know your father. He really was a great guy. I love reading your blog. I know you are very busy :) so you do not get to write often, but, hopefully, you will post another soon. Love Ya!
Hey Alan, thanks for sharing thats an interesting blog. I can relate to what you say about feeling numb, living in head too much and been disconnected cos i been that way lot of mi life too. i agree those anti-depressants just make things worse in the long term, i used be on them and other 'legal' and 'illegal' drugs. I used feel life was very unfair on me too but now i just think lot of it is karma and/or learning experience and stuff. whatever it is getting vexed at it and feeling hard done by never seemed to make the situation better for me and im figuring your probably feeling the same kinda way. I like that poem never heard it before but then again dont know heaps of poems. I been listening to that song Numb by Linkin Park a lot again recently so i gwan throw up the lyrics for you. take care and God bless.
I'm tired of being what you want me to be Feeling so faithless, lost under the surface Don't know what you're expecting of me Put under the pressure of walking in your shoes (Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow) Every step that I take is another mistake to you (Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow)
[Chorus:] I've become so numb, I can't feel you there Become so tired, so much more aware I'm becoming this, all I want to do Is be more like me and be less like you
Can't you see that you're smothering me, Holding too tightly, afraid to lose control? 'Cause everything that you thought I would be Has fallen apart right in front of you. (Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow) Every step that I take is another mistake to you. (Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow) And every second I waste is more than I can take.
[Chorus:] I've become so numb, I can't feel you there, Become so tired, so much more aware I'm becoming this, all I want to do Is be more like me and be less like you.
And I know I may end up failing too. But I know You were just like me with someone disappointed in you.
[Chorus:] I've become so numb, I can't feel you there, Become so tired, so much more aware. I'm becoming this, all I want to do Is be more like me and be less like you.
[Chorus:] I've become so numb, I can't feel you there. (I'm tired of being what you want me to be) I've become so numb, I can't feel you there. (I'm tired of being what you want me to be)
Hiya Precious, I read your blog regularly now. despite all the really terrible things that have happened to you I think you have a truly beautiful soul.
Strength to you my sister. I wish you love light and fairy hugs. Oh, and butterfly kisses all over.
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I just read this blog after I wrote a comment to your last blog. It was so strange, it was like you heard my thoughts!
You are definitely doing the right things, and hopefully it will grow bigger and bigger so you will help an enormous amount of people feel what you are feeling.....excitement about a dream coming true little by little.
Remember the saying "Rome wasn't built in a day"! Be patient!!
You have a powerful idea to help others.....stay with it, it's working! You went from 4 people to 15 in a very short period of time. Watch it grow!!
By the way, I gave Grove the website! He is Dave's step-father (minister). He volunteers his time at prisons so I thought he'd be interested in your blogs.
Carol
I enjoy reading your blogs, but please don't get discouraged!
You said Oh "GOD" do I feel alone! If you believe "at all" that there is a "GOD" then you are never alone! Talk to him in prayer and ask him to guide you through your days, when you need it. I believe this is what got me through the death of Betty Anne.
Whether it's GOD or someone/something else that you believe in, it will get you through if you "think positive"! Never give up!!!
What you're doing is wonderful! You will see your rewards in others, as you help them! Giving of yourself is very rewarding, especially when you see results. I believe that "giving" is much better than "receiving".........it feels great!
You may not get a lot of comments on this blog, but I'll tell you why I think that is. If someone just gets on, they are reading the first person that comes up. If they don't know you, they may never see your blog.
As far as the people that do know you, trust me Daniel, everyone's so busy in their lives that it's extremely difficult to keep up with everything! I try to make the extra effort because I feel it's important, but sometimes it's difficult for me as well. There are only so many hours in the day to cram everything in so please don't take it personally!
Keep doing what you are doing........it will all pay off one day!
I understand your loneliness! You can be in a crowded room and feel alone. Maybe you could write in one of your blogs that you would enjoy having penpals to write to. Or, maybe you can write to the people that have commented in the past and ask them to be penpals.
Well, I guess I've said quite enough for now. Please don't get discouraged! You have worked hard and I'm sure it's paying off even though you have your doubts sometimes. Look back again from the time you got there until today......I think "it has paid off" tenfold!!!
Carol
You're loving sister...
Cristen
Auntie Deb
I'm tired of being what you want me to be
Feeling so faithless, lost under the surface
Don't know what you're expecting of me
Put under the pressure of walking in your shoes
(Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow)
Every step that I take is another mistake to you
(Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow)
[Chorus:]
I've become so numb, I can't feel you there
Become so tired, so much more aware
I'm becoming this, all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you
Can't you see that you're smothering me,
Holding too tightly, afraid to lose control?
'Cause everything that you thought I would be
Has fallen apart right in front of you.
(Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow)
Every step that I take is another mistake to you.
(Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow)
And every second I waste is more than I can take.
[Chorus:]
I've become so numb, I can't feel you there,
Become so tired, so much more aware
I'm becoming this, all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you.
And I know
I may end up failing too.
But I know
You were just like me with someone disappointed in you.
[Chorus:]
I've become so numb, I can't feel you there,
Become so tired, so much more aware.
I'm becoming this, all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you.
[Chorus:]
I've become so numb, I can't feel you there.
(I'm tired of being what you want me to be)
I've become so numb, I can't feel you there.
(I'm tired of being what you want me to be)
Strength to you my sister. I wish you love light and fairy hugs. Oh, and butterfly kisses all over.
Axel