I love the analogy of the hamster wheel. It seems that in learning that you can only control your actions/reactions, and not those of others, that you have been able to achieve some inner peace. I think many people spend their entire lives pushing and raging against what they feel are injustices against them at the hands of others. Once you accept that life isn't "fair" but that you can be happy if you learn to take things in your stride than you can become a "whole" person. Thank you for sharing your experiences here, and keep up all the good work you are doing on the inside, it sounds like you are really giving back to the community you once set out to harm and damage! Best of luck to you!
Nikkie, you have known for years that not everything nor everyone is what they appear to be. Regardless of the changes you've made in your life you must realize that you can't, nor should you attempt to be all things to people you care about and who care about you. Those that expect such of you have set you up for failure in their eyes and by doing so, place on you the burden of their own deficiencies, failings and mistakes. A burden that is theirs to bear, not yours. Remember: to thine own self be true. You've first one person to answer to, yourself, and not to any individual claiming you've not lived upto their requirements or expectations of you! Your past will always be a part of you. It is that which has brought you to this point in your life giving you the courage and desire to change. Our past doesn't determine where we are in life, merely where we've been! Don't run from it! Embrace it, learn from it and move forward to a better life! No Matter What, Lord Dennis Fountain
Just thought you would like to know that someone is out there reading your words and listening to what you have to say. Keep your chin up, I can't imagine what it must be like living behind bars, but I do know what loneliness is like and I also know that it passes with time. To be able to be comfortable and be alone with yourself is a true challenge for anyone, but just remember that you are never really alone! Hope you are well, ~E.M.
David, there are definitely better days ahead for you. Just remember the times when you had marines covering your back, because that is what you have since we have located you. Many within the group are looking for advocates for soldiers with PTSD. However, I say keep your head down and become invisible. We have your family information and will be helping as much as possible. Hopefully this news will give you a feeling of hope knowing we care.
frances, this is exactly what i'm talking about. you're not being true to yourself or me. you claim to have left your past life in the past, but here you are giving shout-outs to the people of your past. how can you disconnect yourself from the past when you're staying connected to it with shoutouts? what's up waco ??? i would think that with the problems you've had there, you would want to flee that city like it was sodom and gamarrah! i've giving you all the advice i know. i don't have to tell you that i love you, because you already know that i do, but i'm letting you know that i think that it's gonna start to fade. in any event though, you'll allways own a spot in my heart. with love, james calvin miller
Your story sounds interesting and inspiring. Your retrospect is honorable as well. I'd like to see more posts from you! :) Do you care to share an address for correspondence?
Let me hear of your unfailing love to me in the morning, for I am trusting you. Show me where to walk, for I have come to you in prayer. Save me from my enemies, Lord; I run to you to hide me. Teach me to do your will, for you are my God. May your gracious spirit lead me forward on a firm footing. Psalm 143:8-10
Dear Lord, thank you for showing me your unfailing love, I ask you to give my dad the same unfailing love you give to me every morning.. And may you show him where to walk where he is needed to do your will for the day... Amen
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Psalm 143:8-10
Dear Lord, thank you for showing me your unfailing love, I ask you to give my dad the same unfailing love you give to me every morning.. And may you show him where to walk where he is needed to do your will for the day...
Amen