Macabre, possibly out dated, cruel in many cases, but often the only choice.
Your crime was heinous. I suppose 14 years of self reflection in the environment you now reside have given you the viewpoint of "why me".
For someone affected by your actions, and seeing a friend murdered, attending the trial, seeing what you did and your behavior during the trial, one has to wonder if the death penalty should not have been applied.
Possibly you have changed in the the last decade and a half. I doubt it though. It's easy to make statements about how everyone has forgotten you, and how sad it is that you are not seeing anyone from your family.
The actions of someone who,would beat a man with a hammer and then dismember him are not the actions of a same member of society. To then steal from that man, and leave his corpse for days in a bathtub add insult to injury.
The fact that taxpayer dollars continue to fund your room and board is appalling. You do not deserve to return to society, from an opinion on the political leanings of society, consider society or be forgiven by society. When a doctor finds cancer in a human body, they actively work to kill the cancer cells. You were a cancer on society.
Not a week goes by that I do not think of what you did to Ron. The killing was one thing... Honestly, I could find it in my own heart to forgive that, as things can and do happen in a rage. Your actions afterwards and during the trial show a total disregard for the ability to function in society.
Eventually, everyone you love or knew will forget you. This is a blessing. I will never forget your actions, and to this very day feel rage when I think about what you did.
This was a great post to see how you have lived and loved in life with the lessons that come from it. And I have it on good accord that Jamie #2 was sincere and baklava is a very yummy dish only a few can actually cook properly. A dessert that takes time and hard work but worth the effort.
I found this site by accident. I get bored. I Googled you'r name with Tx inmates. Between The Bars popped up. For the most part what I read broke my heart for you. Then I read all of the rest about the one person who visited you and wrote to you. You told me about her. She was very nice to you. That made me happy for you. Why haven't you told me about this site? Why have you kept this from me? In some of these letters you have wrote to you'r family you talk different than what I am use to you being like. At first I didnt know how long ago it had been since you sent these massages. I do now. You have been lying to me. I know I tried to keep the Lane crap that I was going through from you knowing. It was eating me up to keep anything from you. I finally told you every thing. I don't want any notoriety for card's letters or money I have sent to you. You have never cared about that.As it has seemed. Am I another Sue? You have gradually stopped writing to me. The last thing I got from you was that card. You know which one. Have you been lying to me about everything? All of the plans we have made...are they B.S? There is something that we are the same on. I will walk away. I will never stop loving you. That's not possible. I'll just live with being with out you. I just don't want to. I love you too much.
I'm so sorry I have not written to you sooner, I have been so busy. With the birth of the twins, graduating high school, getting a job, saving up to go back to California! As soon as I am in California, I would love to come meet you. I cannot believe it's already been 15 years...crazy. I was 3 when the last time you saw me... a lot of things have changed since then. Well, my favorite song is April 26, 1992 by sublime. :) Chicken fingers & fries are my absolute favorite. I am a very artsy kind of girl, I love to paint. I am still and always will be a water baby. I am no longer with Aurto, but I have found love... Young, dumb, hopelessly romantic love :) I work at Subway, I actually thoroughly enjoy it. Casey has gotten his GED, I have my high school diploma that I am really proud of. I'm proud because I didn't give up like countless of my peers did. I was trying to see if there was a way to send pictures? Pictures of us growing up, of Casey & I now, would that be something you would be interested in? If so, I just need the address so you can receive them. I'm excited to see Jessie pies babygirl! Due in about two weeks, super excited about that! Well, I would love to hear from you soon. I love you- yes it's possible to love someone you don't know. Courtney
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Great poem!
Macabre, possibly out dated, cruel in many cases, but often the only choice.
Your crime was heinous. I suppose 14 years of self reflection in the environment you now reside have given you the viewpoint of "why me".
For someone affected by your actions, and seeing a friend murdered, attending the trial, seeing what you did and your behavior during the trial, one has to wonder if the death penalty should not have been applied.
Possibly you have changed in the the last decade and a half. I doubt it though. It's easy to make statements about how everyone has forgotten you, and how sad it is that you are not seeing anyone from your family.
The actions of someone who,would beat a man with a hammer and then dismember him are not the actions of a same member of society. To then steal from that man, and leave his corpse for days in a bathtub add insult to injury.
The fact that taxpayer dollars continue to fund your room and board is appalling. You do not deserve to return to society, from an opinion on the political leanings of society, consider society or be forgiven by society. When a doctor finds cancer in a human body, they actively work to kill the cancer cells. You were a cancer on society.
Not a week goes by that I do not think of what you did to Ron. The killing was one thing... Honestly, I could find it in my own heart to forgive that, as things can and do happen in a rage. Your actions afterwards and during the trial show a total disregard for the ability to function in society.
Eventually, everyone you love or knew will forget you. This is a blessing. I will never forget your actions, and to this very day feel rage when I think about what you did.
This was a great post to see how you have lived and loved in life with the lessons that come from it. And I have it on good accord that Jamie #2 was sincere and baklava is a very yummy dish only a few can actually cook properly. A dessert that takes time and hard work but worth the effort.
I love you- yes it's possible to love someone you don't know.
Courtney