Misty your poems are like you beautiful strong deep and hard to ignore we love you misty this time us not in vain GOD is using you and molding you in to a person who will help change the world we won't give up we will fight for your freedom...love slinky
Hey Michael. I read Season's Greetings and you didn't mention me in it. This is Rebecca Slisher. I sent you a letter today you should get it by next Tuesday or Wednesday.
How are you doing on this Thursday afternoon? I know that you said that you do not like change, but many times change can be a good thing! For instance, your transferring locations allows you to be treated the right way by the staff at Vacaville. I am glad that you like and are enjoying Vacaville. I really liked reading about your budding and growing relationship with your niece Cindy and her lovely family. Do not let this transfer disappoint you with regards to your relationship with Cindy. I have high hopes that you will be able to contact her very soon (if you have not already) and that she will go visit her uncle, no matter the distance. After reading about your bond with your old roommate Scott, I genuinely do hope that he will be transferred to Vacaville, and that you guys will be able to resume being the best roommates ever! I am glad that you seem to be enjoying your transfer despite these things. It's also great that you want to help others in need! That will make both you and others happy. I enjoyed reading your post, and I look forward to corresponding with you in the future!
Sincerely,
sanchezm
P.S.: Though he fall, he shall not be utterly cast down: for the Lord upholdeth him with His hand. Psalm 3: 5-6
Thanks for writing! I finished the transcription for your post.
It's been a lot of years since I left prison, but I remember struggling with a lot of the same things - not knowing my family, not knowing if I'd ever be able to amend what damage I'd caused. It's taken some time to repair things, but you're right - allowing others to express their feelings, whether good or bad, is a huge part of the process.
This is very touching to me. My husband is in prison, I take the effort to remain as close as possible in spite of his incarceration. I found a book that helps us, he answers a page of questions, removes that page from the book and sends it to me, I answer the questions then read his answers. I then send him back the questions with my responses. This is so that we can both understand what the other is experiencing and feeling during this difficult time as well as reminding us of the good times before he was incarcerated. I think we are actually stronger at this point because of this communication.
But what you bring up is something that breaks my heart every time I go to visit him. There are 3500 inmates in his prison and rarely are there more than 10 getting a visit while I am there (I go for my limit every month). My heart breaks for those guys who don't ever get visitors. Every person in there has value. They all deserve love and it doesn't matter what they've done. Prisons are full of good people who made a bad choice. Does that make them all bad people? I don't think so. Our justice system is also not fair and I know that there are many people in there who are innocent. But nobody believes in their innocence because a jury of their "peers" convicted them. I find that laughable, during jury selection at my husband's trial, those people weren't his peers. In fact, quite the opposite, including one person who was the foreman of the jury, the juror was a victim of a similar crime that he was convicted of doing.
I think family members stay away because they don't know what to say. I think some are ashamed, not just of their loved one who is locked up, but of themselves as well. It is hard to walk through those gates & subject yourself to the intimate search that all visitors have to go through, but once you are past that checkpoint, it is so worth it for the time spent with someone you care about.
Thank you for writing this, maybe it will help some of those guys who never get visits. That would make my heart happy.
As I read this post I sit and wonder. Does everyone deserve forgiveness? I believe they do. I believe you should be forgiven. In fact I forgive you. I need forgiveness also. I have done some things in my life that I am not proud of. I wasn't a good parent and drugs ruled my life. I have done some bad things because of the drugs. I have always had a good heart though. I have always loved my children, but I am hated by people because of the choices I made. Just like you said If I steal a car and you steal a candy bar are we any different? I think not. We are all looking for someone to love us, someone who cares and wont hurt us. We are looking for someone who wont abandon us. When someone hurts us we tend to hold a grudge. We tend to blame that person for the life choices that follow. The choices we have made. Even if they weren't there to influence us one way or another. Blaming someone else is so much easier than blaming ourselves. I would love to be able to blame my Mom and Dad for the bad things I have done, but I am an adult and I made those choices. If I spent my whole life hating them for what they did or didn't do then I would miss out on a lot of love. I know they love me even though one of them wasn't there. Of course I love one more than the other. The one that didn't bail, the one that wasn't scared and didn't leave, but I still love the other. I know he or she loves me too!!! The point of this post is I forgive you for your wrong doing... Will you forgive me?
RSS
How are you doing on this Thursday afternoon? I know that you said that you do not like change, but many times change can be a good thing! For instance, your transferring locations allows you to be treated the right way by the staff at Vacaville. I am glad that you like and are enjoying Vacaville. I really liked reading about your budding and growing relationship with your niece Cindy and her lovely family. Do not let this transfer disappoint you with regards to your relationship with Cindy. I have high hopes that you will be able to contact her very soon (if you have not already) and that she will go visit her uncle, no matter the distance. After reading about your bond with your old roommate Scott, I genuinely do hope that he will be transferred to Vacaville, and that you guys will be able to resume being the best roommates ever! I am glad that you seem to be enjoying your transfer despite these things. It's also great that you want to help others in need! That will make both you and others happy. I enjoyed reading your post, and I look forward to corresponding with you in the future!
Sincerely,
sanchezm
P.S.: Though he fall, he shall not be utterly cast down: for the Lord upholdeth him with His hand. Psalm 3: 5-6
The prison abolition movement is growing, and it's stories like yours that make people think about the PIC. You're not alone!
It's been a lot of years since I left prison, but I remember struggling with a lot of the same things - not knowing my family, not knowing if I'd ever be able to amend what damage I'd caused. It's taken some time to repair things, but you're right - allowing others to express their feelings, whether good or bad, is a huge part of the process.
But what you bring up is something that breaks my heart every time I go to visit him. There are 3500 inmates in his prison and rarely are there more than 10 getting a visit while I am there (I go for my limit every month). My heart breaks for those guys who don't ever get visitors. Every person in there has value. They all deserve love and it doesn't matter what they've done. Prisons are full of good people who made a bad choice. Does that make them all bad people? I don't think so. Our justice system is also not fair and I know that there are many people in there who are innocent. But nobody believes in their innocence because a jury of their "peers" convicted them. I find that laughable, during jury selection at my husband's trial, those people weren't his peers. In fact, quite the opposite, including one person who was the foreman of the jury, the juror was a victim of a similar crime that he was convicted of doing.
I think family members stay away because they don't know what to say. I think some are ashamed, not just of their loved one who is locked up, but of themselves as well. It is hard to walk through those gates & subject yourself to the intimate search that all visitors have to go through, but once you are past that checkpoint, it is so worth it for the time spent with someone you care about.
Thank you for writing this, maybe it will help some of those guys who never get visits. That would make my heart happy.
T.K.
Really interesting to read such a reflective piece.
Good luck in Vacaville,