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If our true nature is permitted to guide our life, we grow healthy, fruitful, and happy...

cap, bitch! - Sweet.

Alright Rick, it's taken about two weeks to finally receive my print-out of your letter on my blog site, but I'm just as pleased to see your welcome words as I would be if sent at a faster snail-pace to me directly.

So "zap" has been yer high score name on games since '77? Really... there were arcade computer games back then? Let's see, maybe Astro-er, I mean Asteroids? Tetris? Oh, and those lame lil' car tracks? Gee, what would today's kids think about that antiquated technology? What do you think of video games today I wonder/ I had a bad acid-trip playing Asteroids with the control buttons upside-down in a dark room back then, and never really recovered any interest in video games since then.

Speaking about asteroids... how about that one that came out of nowhere on the 15th? (My 50th b-day, by the way). I bet Debbie really thought that a weird coincidence... such a "near-miss" on my b-day, as she somehow developed an idea that I was trying to book us all a flight on Hale-Bop with those explosives in our tree - another "near-miss!" Yea, I was trying to default my Timothy McVey programming while also trying to avoid a 3-strikes case. It's take me these last sixteen years in purgatory to come to terms with my need to get over the guilt and shame of endangering my family on that one. It helps that a couple of my kids write me on my blog-site, seemingly oblivious to that event - and the corresponding consequences. Bless their heart. Debbie on the other hand, still hasn't completely forgiven me - nor herself. She was much too forgiving before "the end..." but after the grand finale of all my past quixotic crusades she marvelled at, well; unforgiveness is the outward projection of one's inward self - loathing, I suppose. Apparently we must forgive ourselves - to the degree we truly forgive others, ya think?

So yea, nope! I didn't avoid that 3rd strike after all. I did make a strong case on appeal which was about to be argued in the Federal Court, when Deb sent the kids to CPS, and I was taken back to court to shame me for my failure yet again. Am I the only one who thinks there is a conspiracy for absolute government control? I couldn't McVey the Yuba County Courthouse a couple years earlier because I couldn't accept the collateral consequence to innocent cogs in the wheels of injustice... but when it came to a 300+lb Yuba Country Sheriff-turned Child Custody Attorney, I couldn't pass up the opportunity to avenge myself... and all the kids that liar has sacrificed to the system of subjugation! Yea, I'm still pretty passionate about conquering conquerors... only now I see brains conquer brawny bravado, everytime! Yup, our "rights" are determined by our intelligence. D'oh! as Homer Simpson says. 2 consecutive 25-to-life sentences later, I finally figure this out.

You seen the attorney thing in the paper clear down there in so. cal? How about the Oliverhurst explosion - and 500lb of explosives found? Nothing with me at Montana (Freeman), or Washington D.C. (Million and Me)? Yea bro... some people shouldn't do meth! Maybe it's the German in my blood, but one heaping helping of that woke me up to war-mode for years. Bless her heart.

So much for catching you up on my mad past. I'm in so much awe of your life bro. You and Tina raising well disciplined/responsible kids together all these years. Bravo! Even with the past years of you two in separate beds, I'm in awe! Having never really experienced so much responsible adult behaviour, I don't exactly understand it, but I'm awfully proud of you two. How 'bout writing me directly and sending some happy-snaps of the family. Then when I have yer return address, I can mail you the visitor application form you need to mail in to be approved before you drop by to visit some weekend. I'll try to obtain some info. on lodging up in this area too for you. I don't exactly know how many miles separate us, but look at a map and find Jackson - in the Sierra foothills just South-east of Sacremento... a 45min. drive from here. Ione is a stone-throw from Jackson - a lil' mountain mining town.

Driving back from Michigan was a blast, I'm sure. I've travelled around the country several times in my youth and I'm sure that you enjoyed all the wide-open scenery. Did you happen to take any pictures you can share? Oh, and did yer mom have any message for me when you told her we're writing?

So what's up with yer vintage enterprise? Do you try to market it in cyberspace? Craigslist and such? That's really your 'day job?' Awesome. Hard to believe though.

Oh, look what I've got here below, bro - how in the world have I kept this all these years I bet you're wondering. Give Tina my best. I wish you all well. Be blessed.

[Photograph of woman and baby]