Honestly, I can't hold anything that you did in the past against you, you were young, dumb and thought you were invinsible. It wasn't easy to accept the fact you walked out on us, but everything happens for a reason. I guess I just learned some adults don't deserve to have children. I really don't know you, which sucks seeing as I would love to know my "dad",I only know of you, memories. There's no need to apologize, but I do however accept it.I'll show Cas & Mom the letters, they don't know I contacted you. Haha :) For years I've wanted to reach out to you, and just ask, why? Why did you leave us and not visit while you were still free..? Well, even after all is said and done,I still love you,Courtney.

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I do believe it is not an excuse, it's what was happening to you at the time. I forgive you, and one day, hopefully, we can have the father daughter relationship I have so desperately wanted. We did have a normal childhood, surrounded by ones we love, the whole Stoecker family.:) My fondest, and most wonderful memories are in the Cabrillo mobile home.Grandma Judy in her mumu sitting in that one specific spot,watching her shows,smoking her cigs and doing her crosswords. Grandpa Roland sipping on a beer, smoking his cigs in his specific place, by the front door..while all of us kids ran a muck around the park.:) I do feel comfortable, you're not some monster, you're my father..Your blood runs threw my veins. Misty did one hell of a good job raising us,if I do say so myself. She entilted us to always be honest, forthcoming and to speak our mind. Well, how do I begin..My favorite color is hot pink, my favorite type of books are mystery/crime; My favorite author is Stephen King..amazing books!We currently live in Arizona, and have been on and off again since 2005. I graduate from High school in October, and then going to Golden West College, in California, to become a Marine Biologist..My life long goal,seeing as I grew up on one of the most beautiful beaches in the world, and I would like to learn more about the ocean. :) I have a boyfriend,Aurto. Casey is getting his GED the first of June. Your son also has a girlfriend, he has been with her now going on three years. Oh, and Misty is 8 months pregnant with twin boys, exciting!! :) I would like to come, if possible sometime, to see you in person.
Well, that's enough babbling; hope to hear from you soon, I love you.

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I'm so sorry I have not written to you sooner, I have been so busy. With the birth of the twins, graduating high school, getting a job, saving up to go back to California! As soon as I am in California, I would love to come meet you. I cannot believe it's already been 15 years...crazy. I was 3 when the last time you saw me... a lot of things have changed since then. Well, my favorite song is April 26, 1992 by sublime. :) Chicken fingers & fries are my absolute favorite. I am a very artsy kind of girl, I love to paint. I am still and always will be a water baby. I am no longer with Aurto, but I have found love... Young, dumb, hopelessly romantic love :) I work at Subway, I actually thoroughly enjoy it. Casey has gotten his GED, I have my high school diploma that I am really proud of. I'm proud because I didn't give up like countless of my peers did. I was trying to see if there was a way to send pictures? Pictures of us growing up, of Casey & I now, would that be something you would be interested in? If so, I just need the address so you can receive them. I'm excited to see Jessie pies babygirl! Due in about two weeks, super excited about that! Well, I would love to hear from you soon.
I love you- yes it's possible to love someone you don't know.
Courtney

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