THE HAMSTER WHEEL.
BYE: STONE.

SOME PEOPLE BELIVE THE CIRCLE IS "SYMBOLIC" OF THE HUMAN LIFE CYCLE. BIRTH TO DEATH-THE END! OR EVENTS THAT ARE REGULARLY,
REPEATED IN THE SAME ORDER OVER AND OVER AGAIN...NOW THAT WOULD RING TRUE "IF" EVER PERSON, DID NOT HAVE FREE WILL AND
STAYED ON THE HAMSTER WHEEL.

THE HAMSTERS WHEEL IS A CONTROLED ENVIRONMENT, (safe & routine) YOU KNOW HOW MANY RUNGS ARE ON THE WHEEL, YOU KNOW THE SOUND
OF YOUR WHEEL AS IT TURNS (conforting huh?), YOU KNOW THE SMELL OF YOUR WHEEL ECT...YOU BELIVE IN YOUR MINE IF YOU STEP OFF
THE WHEEL, YOU ARE NO LONGER IN CONTROL OF YOUR OWN DESTINY, LIKE A SLAVE WHO ESCAPEDS AND RUNS AWAY. ONLY TO RETURN A SHORT
TIME LATER, "ITS A LOT EASIER TO BE A SLAVE" <you know what to expect> THE HOOD IS A HAMSTER WHEEL {you wake up an go stright
to the hood to get your grind on, go on a mission or two, play with the girls & do it all again the next day}. STAYING IN A
ABRUSIVE RELATIONSHIP IS LIKE A HAMSTER WHEEL, <you concience yourself you can't do better and that being beat is a display
of love & affection>. ALLOWING A BULLY TO CONSTANTLY DEGRADE AND ABRUSE YOU IS A HAMSTERS WHEEL (you start to belive the
things they say and that yoiu are incapable of fighting back) KEEPING YOUR MIND "TRAPED" AT 12 YEARS OLD, BECAUSE YOU WAS HURT
MOLESTED, RAPED, ABANDONED IS A HAMSTERS WHEEL, {you have been broken striped of trust, made to feel guilty & ashamed, so you
block off that part of your mind and stay at 12 years old, never matureing in mind and soul}

UNTILL YOU DECIDE TO STEP OFF THE HAMSTER WHEEL (your confort zone) YOU ARE NOT TRULY LIVING OR REALY HAPPY. YOU CAN PLAY
MAKE BELIVE, BUT YOU ONLY FOOLING YOUSELF! AND THAT FANTASY IS SHORTLY LIVED AND EVEN IN THAT YOU TRY AND REPRODUCE THE PAIN
AND HURT, YOU MADE NORMAL IN YOUR MIND. YOU HAVE BECOME ACUSTOMED TO THAT PAIN AND TRUE LOVE IS FOREIGN TO YOU, CAUSE YOU
ONLY RECONIZE PAIN, HURT AND DISAPPOINTMENT AS LOVE. THE CIRCLE HAS TO BE BROKEN! TO REACH YOU FULL POTENTIAL! AND INNER PEACE!
"CONTRARY TO POPULAR BELIEF "YOU CONTROL, YOUR OWN CIRCLE OF LIFE! THAT PAIN, HURT & FEAR, ECT, HAS BECOME YOUR NORMAL:
IN YOUR MIND ITS SAFE! YOU KNOW WHAT TO EXPECT, SO WHY STEP OFF YOUR HAMSTERS WHEEL?

BECAUSE IT IS NO LONGER ALL ABOUT YOU ANY MORE! YOUR SPOUSE YOUR KIDS YOUR FAMILY, YOUR CLOSEST FRIENDS. ALSO SHARE IN YOUR
REALITY! AND THEIR GROWTH & POTENTIAL IS NOW STAGNATED. YOU SEE THEY HAVE LET GO, GOT OFF THEIR PERSONAL HAMSTER WHEELS<
HANG UPS>. AND THRU EXPERIENCE & TRIAL AND ERROR! PROVED THERE IS MORE TO THEIR EXISTENCE THAN THE HAMSTERS WHEEL. WE ARE
SHOUTING AT YOU! YOU ARE "NOT" LIVING! YOUR ARE "STUCK" IN THE SAME MUD, STILL TRYING TO FIX THE PAST, WHILE LIVING IN THE NOW!
{VIRTRULY IMPOSSIBLE}. YOU HAVE DIRTY ROSE COLORED GLASSES ON! AS THOSE WHO TRULY LOVE YOU AND CARE FOR YOU SENCERLY! ARE
TREATED LIKE THOSE WHO HURT YOU OR CAUSED YOU PAIN IN THE PAST.

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THE HAMSTERS WHEEL,
BYE: STONE
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IT'S ALWAYS ABOUT YOUR STRUGGLE, ITS AN OLD SORE AND ITS TIME TO SAY GOODBYE! YOU STILL TRYING TO PROVE AND CONVIENCE YOURSELF!
ITS NOT YOUR FAULT AND YOU MATTER. WE ARE YELLING!!!!! WE SEE YOU! I SEE YOU! AND YOU MATTER TO US, WE WANT TO HELP! YES, WE KNOW
WE CAN NOT FIGHT THOSE OLD TIERED DEMONS FOR YOU, BUT WE WANT TO BE IN YOUR CONNER WAITING, WHEN ITS DONE. THOSE TIERED OLD DEMONS
CAN ONLY HANG ON, FOR AS LONG AS YOU, ALLOW THEM TO KEEP YOU ON THAT HAMSTERS WHEEL! "TRAPED"

I KNOW ITS EASIER SAID THAN DONE, BUT THE HAMSTER WHEEL IS NOT GOING NOWHERE. YOU START TO GET TIERED AND WORN OUT AND DOWN, YO LEGS
HURT! THE DEFENSIVE WALL YOU PUT UP BEGAN TO DETERIORATE AND CLOSING IN, IS THOSE SAME OLD TIERED DEMONS, ITS ALL REAL NOW, YOU ARE
LOOKING FOR A WAY OUT! NO MATTER WHAT YOU DO <short of getting off the wheel> SEEMS TO HAVE NO EFFECT @ YOU THINK NOBODY SEE'S YOU
OR HEAR'S YOUR CRY NOR UNDERSTAND WHAT YOU ARE GOING THRU! BUT YOUR SPOUSE NEVER WENT ANYWHERE! YOUR KIDS, YOUR FAMILY, YOUR CLOSEST
FRIENDS ARE STILL YELLING! STEP OFF THE HAMSTER WHEEL FOOL! FORGIVE AND LET GO! YOU RESPOND: I DONT WANT TOO, THE PAIN! THE HURT!
THE DISAPPOINTMENT! MAKES ME FEEL ALIVE!... "WHAT ARE WE CHOPED LIVER AND BEETS???

LIVING AND FINDING TRUE INNER PEACE AND CALM, FEELING REAL LOVE. REQUIRE'S A LITTLE FAITH AND COURAGE TO STEP OFF THE HAMSTERS WHEEL
AND EXPERIENCE THE JOY OF LIVING! NO ONE SAYS IT WILL BE EASY, BUT FREEDOM TRUELY, TRUELY IS WORTH EVERY MISTAKE AND RISK
ALONG THE WAY.

THIS MESSAGE IS DEDICATED TO A DEAR FRIEND OF MINE WHO BELIVED SUICIDE WOULD SET HIM FREE, AND WHEN THAT FAILED HE WENT RIGHT
BACK TO THE SAME LIFE STYLE, REFUSING TO LET GO OF THE PAST. MY HANDS ARE TIED! ALL I CAN DO NOW IS CONTINUE TO LOVE YOU DESPITE
ALL ODD! AND ALWAYS!.

IN TRUTH AND SOLIDARITY
CALVIN CHISM, T-34897