Hey Alan, thanks for sharing thats an interesting blog. I can relate to what you say about feeling numb, living in head too much and been disconnected cos i been that way lot of mi life too. i agree those anti-depressants just make things worse in the long term, i used be on them and other 'legal' and 'illegal' drugs. I used feel life was very unfair on me too but now i just think lot of it is karma and/or learning experience and stuff. whatever it is getting vexed at it and feeling hard done by never seemed to make the situation better for me and im figuring your probably feeling the same kinda way. I like that poem never heard it before but then again dont know heaps of poems. I been listening to that song Numb by Linkin Park a lot again recently so i gwan throw up the lyrics for you. take care and God bless.



I'm tired of being what you want me to be
Feeling so faithless, lost under the surface
Don't know what you're expecting of me
Put under the pressure of walking in your shoes
(Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow)
Every step that I take is another mistake to you
(Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow)

[Chorus:]
I've become so numb, I can't feel you there
Become so tired, so much more aware
I'm becoming this, all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you

Can't you see that you're smothering me,
Holding too tightly, afraid to lose control?
'Cause everything that you thought I would be
Has fallen apart right in front of you.
(Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow)
Every step that I take is another mistake to you.
(Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow)
And every second I waste is more than I can take.

[Chorus:]
I've become so numb, I can't feel you there,
Become so tired, so much more aware
I'm becoming this, all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you.

And I know
I may end up failing too.
But I know
You were just like me with someone disappointed in you.

[Chorus:]
I've become so numb, I can't feel you there,
Become so tired, so much more aware.
I'm becoming this, all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you.

[Chorus:]
I've become so numb, I can't feel you there.
(I'm tired of being what you want me to be)
I've become so numb, I can't feel you there.
(I'm tired of being what you want me to be)