Sept. 12, 2017

A Year To Go

by Allan Lummus




FROM: 23038076
TO: Clf Prison Ministry, The
SUBJECT: Year to go
DATE: 08/27/207 06:03:33 PM

mp 100 A year to go 8.28.17

I have my halfway house date: 8.16.18. This is about a year from now. Longer than I wanted but still, a hard date. I have been accepted by the halfway house I wanted in my hometown: Memphis. After some moaning about not getting longer halfway house (which would have put me in Memphis sooner), I realized I should be thankful that I did have the Memphis halfway house accept me, and that I will be in Memphis on my son's birthday. Nice serendipity there.

So how am I going to face the last year? I need to take each day as a little training period. Each day needs a little bit of all the things that makes my life good: meditation, exercise, journaling, socialization, fun, studying and learning. Weekly, I need to make sure I have writing and music to add to the normal daily mix.

I will be tempted to live in the future on 8.16.18. But I must stay on what I am today. This will be a mindfulness practice like no other.

Another regular mindfulness practice is playing chess with T. I have realized how my negative self-judgment is pushed with losing games. So playing chess and losing (for the most part) is helping me work on letting go of my harsh negative self-appraisals.

I talked with son about how I am struggling with letting go of my past actions and how every future choice is shaped and limited by the past. So instead of ignoring the fact of those limitations (due to prison and SO charge), I can acknowledge those factors and use them as motivation to act differently in the present. My past as motivation to act wisely in th enow.

I can test that theory every day.

mindful prisoner | | allan lummus #23038076 | PO Box 1010 Bastrop, TX 38602


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Cavak Posted 9 months, 1 week ago. ✓ Mailed 9 months, 1 week ago   Favorite
That's great news that you found a halfway house already. You can do this last year!

If you can, try to get in touch with Benny Lee of National Alliance for the Empowerment of the Formerly Incarcerated (NAEFI). NAEFI is a non-profit that promotes a healthy transition into society through mentoring and moral support.

Here's some contact information of his non-profit if you want to try to get some early help and support:

5820 West Chicago Ave
Chicago, IL 60651
Phone: 773-921-1990

From one stranger to another, I'm hoping for the best for you and your loved ones.

Mardee Posted 2 months, 3 weeks ago. ✓ Mailed 2 months, 2 weeks ago   Favorite
Hey, Allan. So, you're coming back to Memphis? Glad you're doing well.

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