8/10/13

"IThinkB4UAct1981!

Hello Jessica, I as well need to apologize to you for taking so damn long to get back to you. I live in a cage the size of bathroom in a 1 man apartment so I really don't have anything to do but write. Mostly I have been going through some real stressful bullshit lately. That's why I haven't answered my blog. These ass clown guards have surely been pissing me off lately. I'll explain all that to you in this post. But first I'll answer you. Look, it's quite OK that it took you a long time to get back to me. This is the way I see it, I'm doing life in prison so I'm lucky anyone takes time out of their lives to write me. I have life and you're living yours so I understand, so there is no need to apologize for the delay but thank you, it was very sweet of you. Thanks for getting at me, thinking of me while you're at work, but don't get into trouble with your boss or anything over me, I would hate to see that. Jessica, it does suck having to watch your back 24-7 but it keeps you on your toes so that's the positive of that. That's the best way to look at it, I guess. Is it scary, I used to think so but after 20 years of it, well, not anymore, it's just a way of life, right? The reason you keep your eyes open and mouth shut is the basics. It's standard procedure, Jessica. The less you say, the less drama you can cause yourself or anyone. Watch/listen/learn. Not so much talking :). Yea, most people don't realize how good they have it out there. Citizens take life 4 granted, "I don't". Is life easy out there? Of course not but it's like night and day compared to my life. It sucks that you have been in a bad mood due to your boss. They can be assholes but they do sign the paychecks, or else we wouldn't put up with their shit. Especially if the boss is paying you good, you seem to just put up with it. If you're not making good $ then screw 'em. Are your issues anything like mine, no, but it don't mean that yours don't blow sometimes still. Mine are just different. More stressful, I'm sure.

Check out this stress that these pussy ass guards have been putting me through this last few days. First of all, let me remind you that prison guards are not law enforcement, they are rule enforcement. They are not police/cops. They think they are but really what they are is this. Civil servants, "snivel servants". Jessica, ya know on Christmas when Santa is standing in front of Macy's or K-Mart or JC Penney's ringing his bell and people give him money? Well, these prison guards are like the guard who makes sure no one takes Santa's money. They make all this blood $ working in CA prisons. All they are are turnkeys. They sit in nice soft chairs playing on a computer screen all day and yelling at inmates with total disrespect. Believe me, they all paying us out 24-7. Look, I got a few write ups by staff. They put me in my cage. I'm not allowed out on the weekends or holidays. No phone calls, no visits. Mon-Fri I'm only allowed outside till 1pm. It's been like this for me now for 250 days. I'm on what the guards called C/C status. It's basically like being inside a jail in a jail. It's basically solitary confinement. The staff took away all my privileges. The property officer took my flat screen TV, extension cord, Walkman, antenna, ear buds. Some clothes, personal, and when I was told I had to either send the property to the streets somewhere at my cost or donate it to the prison or they will just dispose of it. Well, I had wrote a appeal fighting to keep my property held in storage pending appeal and if worst came to worst I would pay to ship it to the streets - well, I just found out a few days ago the guard gave my property to some inmate. It's a few hundred $ of my property. So yea, I got punked. These pussy ass guards threw my shit away, basically. How cold is that? They are bullies/cowards. They push us around because they can. They treat us like we're sex offenders or a rat. I'm a convict, not a inmate. I'm in prison for real crimes, not petty theft. There's a difference, Jessica. Anyway, I pride myself on being a convict. Not a inmate. But the guards treat us all like we're weirdos when all of us ain't. They have had me in a cell with no power 4 6 months. I can't even heat up water to eat a soup or drink coffee. So I wrote a appeal on this issue. They came to my cell and disrespected the fuck out of it. Threw what things me and my cellie have out of our cell and onto the dirty floor on the tier.

They had 5 guards in my cell tearing it up for 3 hours. My cell was empty when they were done. They spilled my cup of Kool Aid all on the cell desk onto my cell mate's cards he just drew. He is a brilliant artist, check blogs/1347/, he is my cell mate. Ruined the cards, "fucking assholes". Sorry about the language. So it takes us half the night to get our cell half ass back in living order. The very next morning at AM chow, 6.35, they - staff makes the whole tier stay in the chow hall till 11.30am while they search/disrespect almost every inmate cell. My cell was tore up so bad that a day later mine and my celly's shit is still in boxes. I'm not done, Jessica. Check this out. The day after the 2 days they tore up my cell, then my counselor tells me that although I've done 250 days on C/C status, which is too long by rule, they said they will take me off because I've done the C/C status but they will take me off for 1 day then put me right back on for six more months. Are you fucken kidding me! I haven't been allowed to call my family for 250 days and now they want or will not allow me to call home for another 180 days. How's that 4 my life? Does yours seem a little better now? Your worst day ever out there is most likely better than my best day ever in here, sucks, huh? Ain't it kind of sad? But I'm not going to let it get to me. I'm tired of allowing these pussy ass prison babysitters make me miserable 24-7. I'm gonna be happy/smile/laugh every day no matter how much drama they put me through. The stripping me naked, bend over, cough, all that. It's all about trying to shame us, mind fuck really. The abuse, the disrespect. The robbery of our property etc. All this is being done to me by guards, men and women who I'm positive when they were kids used to be bullied, bicycles taken, shit like that, now it's get back time, ya see. Recently a guard searched a cell, found a cell phone, then took it, gave it to another inmate, who got his ass beat, took the phone back. These are criminals, Jessica, they do whatever they want. They have the power of the state behind them. The inmate abuse is funny to these wannabe cops. Jessica, I need to get this out to you, OK. Sorry about all the complaints but this is what I've been going through, that's why I haven't posted anything lately.

Hope to hear from you soon

Your comments cheer me up, thanks.

Donnie