"The haughty do but build castle walls behind which they seek to hide their doubts and fears." - Bene Gesserit axiom (from "Dune, House Atreides" by Brian Herbert and Kevin C. Anderson

09-09-13

Dear Readers,

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Howdy! Again after a long absence I don't know where to begin + may repeat myself.

Well, my new job is going OK. I hate the early hour (at 7:30a) as I am definitely a night owl, but it's a lot less hours than at Rec. I may have an opportunity to get another job as an "ICP" or inmate companion, which would involve pushing a guy around in a wheelchair + cleaning his cell, doing his laundry, etc. This guy is very demanding + has been thru several ICPs, plus, he has to go to pill line at 6:00am + again at 7:30pm, so the hours are even earlier + my evening is cut up too. We shall see.

Things in my cell are well. I had it painted 'cause it was filthy. Unfortunately, they all have to be painted the same colors, so I couldn't be creative. Also, my other best friend, Paul - who used to be in this cell with someone else - got out of the Hole (with his former cellie) + I invited him to move in. He's probably the best person I could get for a cellie as he's intelligent + "normal", so we can have a conversation + I can be myself + comfortable. Unfortunately, because we're cellies + also hang out together a lot, most people are assuming we're "married" or at least screwing. We're not. He's straight + not "experimental", + he's really not my type even if he felt otherwise. Fortunately he's real easy to get along with.

I'm having problems with my pierced nipples! Damn it! They keep getting infected no matter how much anti-bacterial ointment I put on. I also can't find anyone to make something plastic to put in + I can't keep the metal forever. I may have to give up on that.

Right now I'm the main Queen on the compound since "Dawn" is in the Hole + 2 other "girls" cried rape (or that they couldn't be around someone who previously "raped" him) + so they checked into the Hole. Now: neither of those 2 actually were raped. They're both mental + trying to get attention or special privileges + are only causing problems. It really gives us gays a bad name + I hope they both get transferred elsewhere. I guess that leaves only 2 other open gays on the compound that I can think of, neither of whom are very social.

They are putting in large metal doors with bars across the wings in this unit (there are 3 "wings" with cells + the one with cubicles). They are to replace, I assume, the sliding doors with windows. It's another absurd + ridiculous expense that is completely needless. I also heard that they plan to put bars on all the windows & cameras in the units. All for a compound where NOTHING happens + is one of the quietest in the U.S. What a waste of money to justify someone's job.

Love + Blessings,

Kelly