Edwin Jay Hutchinson (Zakee)
CDCR No. P-68859
Housing: 2-N-79L
CSP=SQ / One Main street
San Quentin, CA 94964

July 27, 2014

To: The AngelMaker

Greetings in peace.

For you, wherever you are, I offer these words to make your day brighter. Words that will last you long through any troubled days that you must endure. May my sincere words give your heart and mind the light to brighten all of the dark that falls in your way.

As I've been on this planet over half a century, every once in a while you'll find a friend who's your friend right from the start. Even more rarely, sometimes you have a friendship so strong it really warms your heart. If you're really lucky, you'll develop a friendship that lasts you through your whole lifetime. It only happens once in a while, but I hope it will happen between you and I! :)

As my journey within this fortress of fear, I hope, will soon be coming to an end, I fully realize that when my sentencing judge gave me all this time, he gave me time to think. However, God (Allah) gave me time to heal. So even if the realities that surround me today many not be to my liking, they are what they are, and I must make the best with what I have, and I must not fall into the traps or the morass of malcontent and regret. For me, today, life is so indescribably wonderful, and the simple existence of breathing air into my lungs is not overlooked nor taken for granted. I say this because so many men here whom I've known are now in their graves. So, for me, simply having life to live is a very good thing, and all else is secondary.

With that said, we should gain more by letting ourselves be seen as we are than by attempting to appear what we are not. In other words, I'm far from being perfect or Mr. Right, and I'm so accustomed to being tense in here that when I'm calm, I tend to get nervous! :) I often fell frustrated, I get angry; my tolerance for ignorant individuals is very low, and I'm very opinionated. But what I've learned about myself is that sometimes when I'm angry or frustrated with someone, I have that right to be, but that doesn't give me the right to be cruel. You know what I mean? I also realize that, no matter how good a friend is, they're going to hurt your feelings every once in a while and I must forgive them for that, as I tend to hold grudges.

So, AngelMaker, what I'm saying is this: It's taking me a long time in becoming the person that I want to be, but either I control my feelings and attitudes or they will control me. Lastly, I got a simple rule about "everybody." If you do not treat me right, then shame on you! :)

Please get in contact and leave me info as to how to connect with you personally. Until then, peace.

Zakee