April 4, 2011

Who the F*** Is That???

by Eric L. Bell

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Who the f*** is that????

Yeah, it's ME! First impressions are IMPORTANT (so please take a few moments to let me know the impression you get when you look into my eyes), as they will form the foundation from which people tend to judge all further information concerning the individual... Now once again, WHO AM I? The name on my birth certificate identifies the ink blot feet print on the page as one ERIC LEE BELL. This name was given to me by the most amazing woman in my LIFE (her name is LINDA which means "beautiful" in Spanish & "to guard" in Swahili - very fitting indeed). Unfortunately my name has been defiled, defamed & thus rendered dishonored by this diabolical machine known as the American (In)Justice System... Being a man of honor, please allow me to make a necessary CONFESSION to you: I AM NOT INNOCENT. (Surprised?) Now let me elaborate - "INNOCENCE" implies a purity of VIRTUE that has never been defiled (do you agree?). I HAVE stained the purity of my essence w/ reproachable actions that justified the negative repercussions that I had willingly accepted as my due (some people call this SIN). Now let me ask you - "Are YOU 'innocent'?" You may wonder why this is relevant? Well, I must make certain that we begin this journey on the proper footing & from the proper perspective. Effective communication diminishes the potential of confusion resulting from a lack of "DISCLOSURE" (sound like something out of a textbook?). This whole "blogging" thing is new to me & I feel that it is necessary to develop at least some level of TRUST from the outset (whaaat?). In my experience TRUST is established by being OPEN, HONEST & FORTHCOMING (w/ the TRUTH) (right or wrong?). So, allow me to make ANOTHER confession to you: I am NOT GUILTY of the crimes I have been CONVICTED of (oh, brother, here we go again... not another one of these!). Whether you actually believe this or not means very little when measured up to the TRUTH of my situation. Consider this - to commit a crime by statute requires INTENT. So let me ask you this - how does a man manage to RAPE his FIANCEE who goes on to marry him AFTER he is charged w/ the crime by HER? Some crazy stuff, huh? And all very TRUE. Welcome to my struggle. I only want to reach out to the people who are NOT preconditioned to believe everything as it appears on the SURFACE. My struggle for the last 7 1/2 years has been to come to terms w/ my situation while endeavoring to set the record STRAIGHT. Who I AM is a reflection of this struggle. Stick w/ me, it gets better... I admire you for your COURAGE just to be reading these words from a PRISONER. I hope that in some way the vitality of my spirit & the GENUINENESS of my character is able to reach out & touch you through this medium. (Feel me?) Fortunately this system has an APPEAL process which allows a HIGHER COURT to correct an ERRONEOUS JUDGEMENT from a LOWER COURT. I have already received a JUDGEMENT from a HIGHER COURT in my favor & it is only a matter of "judicial formality" before my case is completely overturned. Quick to take, slow to give... I promise not to bore you by beating a dead horse (what a serious waste of time). But as you will see, this experience has turned me into a FEARLESS REBEL & FURIOUS WARRIOR. A man stripped of his life & forced to carry the yoke of an INJUSTICE has NOTHING TO LOSE. But yet another side of me has become more compassionate & sympathetic for the poor & inflicted; the abandoned & lonely; the slave & oppressed from all walks of life. So please don't turn away & think you've got me all figured out. This is only the beginning... Go ahead - SAY SOMETHING!

Who are we but beautiful souls drifting through the universe seeking PEACE & UNDERSTANDING?

Who are we but animated creatures sharing the same basic instincts & searching for creative ways to express THAT WHICH CAN NOT BE EXPLAINED?

Who are you beneath the layers of vanity that you hope in vain disguises the TRUE NATURE OF YOUR BEING?

Who are you not to realize that this old EYE of mine seeks that which is GOOD & TRUE DEEP WITHIN YOU?

Who am I but a familiar stranger of old & new seeking to build upon that which we have ALREADY LAID THE FOUNDATION FOR?

Who am I but a VIBRATION that has discovered a way of projecting myself through TIME & SPACE because TIME & SPACE NEVER REALLY EXISTED. (Say what?)

A PENNY FOR YOUR THOUGHTS :D

[drawing of a one-cent coin]

As I am, me

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mz Posted 9 years, 4 months ago. ✓ Mailed 9 years, 4 months ago   Favorite
I feel like i just drank three cups of coffee after reading your post, my mind feels alive and I want to read it again and probably again. I'm the writer in my circle of friend and my ex used to say he wanted to write me letters but never had enough courage because I was pretentious and intimidating. Now I feel like the tables have turned and I am in the position of feeling like my words could not even break the surface of your writing. I'm struck by your honesty and yet it's like I still didn't learn anything about you. I respect wanting to be met with honesty and trust when you get ready to share yourself. I am currently getting over my love and I hate that I can't get rid of the nauseous feeling of being robbed. I was robbed because I shared my honesty, trust and vulnerability with someone who was dishonest and untrustworthy and he took what was ultimately never his to take.
I graduated with a B.A. in political science with an emphasis on constitutional politics and wish I was still in school today because I would have loved to bring your post to discussions at the University. You said, in the most poetic way, what so many people try to understand about human nature and our man made systems of justice. I admire that you say you are not "innocent" and I was not surprised when you said you were guilty.
1. When I first looked at your eyes and glanced at your writing you looked harsh and hard. However, when I read your writing I'm now at a loss to even begin to have a first impression.....I have no idea who you are, how you are like...
2. I am not innocent either. You call it sin, I call it karma which meets us everyday from past actions. I have never broken the law and I've never been in the wrong place at the wrong time but this by no means makes me innocent. Intent is everything and I know that even though society sees me as innocent it's intent of my actions that sooth or haunt my mind. The guilt that I have greets me through restless nights and silent conversations.
3. I also have no time for people who leave it at surface value. If you were to look at me you would not know until you asked that:
I am:
Adopted
A daughter of two white women
A sister with siblings from Africa to India
A college graduate
An active member of my community and voice for civil liberties
A triathlete
Now having read your post you do look like a fearless rebel and furious warrior, without a doubt you have the experience to back that up.
Thank you! Thank you for letting me read your post and thank you for awakening my drowsy mind.....
-Em

alliecatherine Posted 8 years, 8 months ago. ✓ Mailed 8 years, 8 months ago   Favorite
Hi Eric. I could not let this Thanksgiving Day holiday go by without sending you best wishes for the year ending.

Alliecat

alliecatherine Posted 8 years, 8 months ago. ✓ Mailed 8 years, 8 months ago   Favorite
The first message I sent got erased. I just want you to think seriously about 2012 and the possibilities you have for the future. When will you get back to your artwork? I hope you will post the turtle portrait that is one of my favorites. Hope you will write to me soon. The holidays have a way of cheering up most people and hope your situation and events will be promising for any future plans you choose.

Alliecat

OneLuv<3 Posted 7 years, 11 months ago. ✓ Mailed 7 years, 10 months ago   Favorite
wow so real! I ENJOYED READING YOUR BLOG

OneLuv<3 Posted 7 years, 11 months ago. ✓ Mailed 7 years, 10 months ago   Favorite
I enjoyed reading your blog. It was like a good book you can't put it down till your finished. Thanks for being real! By the way your very handsome!

Thanks,
nikki

Eric L. Bell Posted 7 years, 8 months ago.   Favorite
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noemi Posted 6 years, 10 months ago.   Favorite
Going through your blogs, and I think your petty handsome.. My friend sitting her beside me seems to think his isn't a mans handwriting.. I proceeded to tell her " men can have nice handwriting" anyways.,. Hope all is well! Your sexy :)

ANGELA Posted 5 years ago.   Favorite
just had to say your mad sexy :-)k chulitoooooooo muaxxxxx

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