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Love Note - Poems - Letters

1-12-15

I know that you love me. I know that you've always loved me as I have loved you. I know you will love me forever and I am willing to wait forever, if that's what it takes. But these are some lonely days and nights.

I got your message on the 7th. Mail was taking over two weeks to get over the holidays. :)

Sometimes I feel like this lost little boy standing in a driveway all alone. Other times I feel like this tired old man staring out my cell window at your face in the moon.

I have to get up at 3 AM to go to work in the kitchen at 4. I have to have at least an hour to wake up and get ready. I am old and I am slow. :) And I ain't going nowhere without my morning coffee. :) I only work four hours. I get off at 8, between 4:30 and 8 is the time I like to read and write. I'm on my feet these four hours and were out the rest of the day.

The first time I ever saw you we traded hearts and, to this day, I feel your heart in mine.

I hope to get a job change soon. I think I've got one lined up on the yard crew where I'll take care of the rec box. I can do it at the table while playing dominoes. :) Best of all I won't go to work until 8 AM. :)

I'm very happy to hear the news about Amber baby. Congratulations to Amber.

What do you think about th news that I'll be able to get out someday? That's a game changer. A few years down the road, but I'll have to think about the way I act in here. Maybe take some programs and be one of those people I talk about all the time. When you know you're never getting out, you can break all the rules. The most they can do to you is a cell move.

I need to break out of this tiring theater where the same plot plays day after day.

Happiness is made up of little parts, a kiss, a smile, a look, a word from the heart.

I just talked to Linda and Teddy last week. They're both doing alright, you know that. Ted misses you. You're his family too.

I haven't been getting a lot of painting done. Maybe one a week. I'm tired all the time. Can't nap in the afternoon and i do have other things on my mind. :)

Love is the principal means of escape from the loneliness that afflicts most of us.

I bought this '53 Oldesmobile for five dollars. Drove it over to my dad's place on Gerber Road and parked it there while my brother James and I went off to do something. When we came back later that day my dad had turned the car over and cut it up for junk. I told him that was my car I had just gotten that morning for five dollars. He said it looked like junk to him and gave me back my five dollars. :)

I miss the sounds of the rain hitting the car's tin roof while holding you in my arms.

We're off work today. Locked down for some tests that I don't want to take. :) It's not a CDC test, it's a placement test for some prison I'm too old to go to. :) It gave me time to get some writing done. I slept until after 4:30. :) You've got to relax, let it happen at times. Other move forward with it.

I hope to hear more from you soon, my love. I know our love is forever. I've never doubted your love.

Most of the things we worry about never happen.

It's a bright day today. The sun is high in my sky, forever and ever.

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a radiant light
from your heart
to my heart
weaving love's warmth
between our souls
with a smile

How can I truly
explain who you are
to me
to my life
to my heart

You are a flower
a rainbow bouquet
my culture
my music
my art
my heart

S. Burkett
1-12-14

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Colored pencil drawing of an old man standing in front of a brick building.
The door has the word "HOME" written on the top flap.

Steve Burkett
2015