Date: 6/11/2020 3:13:43 PM
Subject: Reply ID:6ypq

"ewswanson"

Thanks 4 being a volunteer n taking time outta ur life moments 2 transcribe my post!

As I grow in my own service 2 others I can truly better appreciate those who serve me n public servants in general especially teachers n those in prison ministry.

Gods blessings 2 U
May He bless u with someone 2 sacrificially serve U.
Amen.

I am ever grateful 4 ur expressed hope that I get out this year! Believe God that this is it 1t Kings 9:10 Genesis 41:32 2 Chronicles 8:1
As a friend reminded me what a year 2 b release ! 2020! The world on lock down n I'm released from lockdown. Poetic Justice. I think anyway.
Because of this I'm doing the best I can 2 prepare 4 home,from my schedules 2 my sleep cycle 2 my routine 2 my words thoughts n mannerisms. N just being real with myself bout my temptations n the unpredictable things I might face. Well as the fact people gone have realistic n unrealistic expectations of me. As much as I think about romantic relationship maybe that's not 4 me! Maybe I won't be able 2 give "her" the love time attention affection support she deserves. Maybe I'll b 2 busy playing catch up with life n getting 2 know my daughter ,been gone all 23yrs of her life so being there 4 her is my 1st priority. Then how do u live life presently when u been gone 4 over 2 decades? Lord knows all my dreams involve a computer in some fashion, so I gotta learn that just 2 publish books,write,design clothes/shoes... Smart phone a whole another thing!
Maybe its 4 me 2 reside archaically off the grid in a mountain somewhere!
I don't know...

Even so I am bout 2 mail a letter 2 the Public Defenders office seeking they help 2 see if I have any grounds 4 a sentence modifications. God willing of course.
Keep u posted, if u like

Fact that u have said a prayer 4 me n my family means a whole lot!
Pray I don't leave God in prison n 2 protect me from myself as it relates 2 the player lifestyle as that's my biggest temptation. Pray I'll write the books He want me 2 write n live my words. Amen

Thank U
Here's a poem

May 17,2020

Rubber meets da road
Homeless man in my home
Doesn't shower or clean
Inside Jesus in green
Portraits of him in a manger
How can I love a stranger
Wit morning breath
Sleep cycle akin 2 death
Life taken from Adam
Breakfast bells up n at'em
Move things out his way n into mines
Stubbed toe,God I'm starting 2 mind
We 2 different, this frustrating
God u call me Ur bride,I'd rather b dating
Love hurts,I fight threw punches
Wanna kick him out with a year of free lunches
Back 2 da row,I hand out hand outs
Wit smiley faces,shallow love shouts
From mountain tops down street corners
2 those in graves n goners
"I'm so not Jesus."