We got off CTQ yesterday so I was able to move around - I started putting on some weight I can feel some maybe 180-185 haven't weight myself yet I try to get into the clinic today after group - I have group volunteer between 7 and 9 a.m. I'll come back and try to clean the cell later in the day while my celly is at work - these cells are not big enough for two people to move around in at the same time. One of the reasons I'm not able to get a lot done is because I need the light to work I can't paint without it for sure. If I turn the light on its right in my celly's eyes and the static electricity messed up both [illegible] his worse as it is [?] right next to the light :) I might be able to do some painting now that he has gone back to work.
11/13/2020 I went back out for a throat therapist yesterday, (Stockton) I have to start that all over again because it has been so long since I had a treatment :) that's OK at least I'm getting something. I went to the Mat group early it's between 7 & 9 am. I don't know how much it will help me but it won't hurt :) much :). Neil here is running late. A letter from my love took 17 days post mail 27 Oct. received 13 Nov, :) I've been getting messages on the blog from a lot of the caring people. The last one was dated Oct 13th and I got it on Oct 29th there was one blog on there from Honeyemperor22 that had been on there for 4 weeks, 1 day. There were 10 messages on that one. Anyway today I'm feeling good both physically and mentally so I want to write a few words I already wrote a love note I'm going to start a love letter today. I have dayroom between 9 & 12 today so this afternoon. I also understand that my plans change from one hour to the next. I have been putting on a few lbs I don't want to get fat but losing it the way I was with no reason is most something I want to start up again.
11/16/2020 I got up early today - sometime before 4:30. My neighbor in cell 119 works in the mess and he's back on the 4 A.M. wake up call. When his door pops open I pop up out of bed like it was my own door. Just one of those safety habits you pick up in prisons like stand-in in a position where no one can come up behind you. You don't have to be doing anything wrong it could be for something that went down years ago on mistaken identity. There's not much going on here on the weekend, not much going on here at all now with this covid lockdown, no visits, no in school, very few work programs. We shouldn't complain we've only had one person die here at this prison & it just happened to be in 11 building :) I did get a couple of hours of yard Sunday just none of my friends are out there to walk with. They are in another building or move on to another prison I have had a couple of friends get out but not that many - most of my old friends are what you call in trouble :) I'm trying to change myself (11/16/20) right now - just getting too old for this and everyone is leaving/dying. I did get started on a love note in the middle of writing my Jeannie a love letter. I read some poetry and watch some football. I have to start getting ready for breakfast early at 6 up from there escorted to pull-call and escorted to group. I have a lap ducat early then a ducat for my PCP night after group :)
11/19/2020 It was raining yesterday when I got up so I didn't get much done. I enjoy the rain enjoy watching it, everything in the cell is still damp even with me running the fan al night; I've got it off right it's cold enough for me to have a blanket wrapped around my shoulders. We get escorted to group between 6:30 and 7 but first, we have to all go as a group to take our meds that's when the rain really started coming down I had a ducat for 7:30 but I still had to be escorted to PIA with my group check-in and walk back to the clinic. The guard there got someone to take my temperature and let me sit in the tank - I think they might like me there :) I'm there almost every day for a couple of years now and I'm always respectful. I go by old school rule, treat others how you would like them to treat you. But I still got awaked on my way to group and didn't try our during the hour & a half I was there. I'm going to close off for now and get them in the mail. Everyone stay well and I hope to hear from you soon <3 I love all the notes everyone thank you for caring. <3 I love you old women <3