Daily Thoughts

Today is December 27, 2011 and I'm just trying to figure out what to do to pass this day. I'll workout later on. Write a few letter's. They just began pulling the other guy's for recreation. I haven't been able to go out since Sept. 1, I also just found out that I have a 9am mental health callout, to get my Prozac renewed. I got to do that every 3 months.

I hope to get some mail tonight. Mail call is really all I have to look forward to at this time. Other than canteen. Just wish more people would write. Most people are into email and not this snail mail. Good thing is we're supposed to be getting e-mail services here in 2012. I just hope it's affordable, and that once we get it, people will send me emails. It's nice to hear from the outside world. Especially when it's from a woman. This is a very lonely place, and a loneliness that most of you will never experience. Thank goodness.

I really home 2012 is a better year... this year was a total mess. I'm still concerned about receiving more lying bogus Fraudulent Disciplinary Reports (DR's) I know these people are still pissed at me for standing up and speaking out against the corruption and abuse that's taking place in here. And with me filing this lawsuit. I'm expecting more retaliatory actions to be taken against me. I have to stand up for what I believe in and suffer the consequences for it.

We had a suicide 3 weeks ago in here, and that's been weighing heaveily on my heart. I just keep looking at what I could have done to prevented it. See they wrote, or was threatening to write this prisoner a DR. He had some very serious mental problem's, in fact he was on Disciplinary Confinement known as (DC) back in June. On June 18,2011 he cut the artery in his leg in a suicide attempt. On December 5, 2011 he succeeded and took his life. Word that I got was staff was threatening to place him in a strip cell and a new cell that was just constructed #4102 Which is a closed in deprivation chamber. Our mental health staff has even called a torture chamber. And for the past several month's it had been said that this chamber was being constructed for me. Personally I'd rather it be me than someone else. I can endure more than most. I'd have immediately launched into a hunger strike. If I'm going to suffer, I might as well lay it on the line and go all out. Their going to cause more suicides and kill people with that cell. Cause this place is no joke in the summertime, and that's going to be a heat box. I'm sure I'll be blogging about that over this next summer.

I'm hoping to get me some more art supplies so I can get back into doing some cards. That help's pass the time. And bring's about a little change in my daily routine.

I'll write one or two blogs a week. Wish I was able to write freely, without any censorship. Maybe at some point I'll have the real platform that I want but until then I must accept the way things are. When I'm able to comes out, and speak freely... it's going to be so sweet. Only then will I be able to bring the change, that's so badly needed. Until then I'll do what I can.

Well February 7, will make 22 year's that I've been incarcerated. February 22, will make 21 years on death row. It's been a very long and difficult journey. Who knows how much longer it'll last, and what the future will hold.

I doodled a couple of little flowers to share. I may continues to draw on my blog entries. For not I'm out of here. I wish all of you a Happy New Year. In peace and love Ronnie.

Ronald W. Clark Jr #812974
Union Correctional Institution
7819 N.W. 228TH Street
Railford, Flordia. 32026-4440 USA