Blog Post: Dear Mama

Dear Ma,
I love you... not only today on Mother's Day, but every day of my 27 years of worthless pitiful life.
My love grows stronger as you continue to support me, even though I am not worthy of your support and have not been worthy of your love and support for many years. That's the essence of a mother, being there when you don't have to be. It would have been easy for you to throw in the towel a long time ago. I know I wasn't the best child to raise, nor was I the ideal child that mothers wish for.
I appreciate how you raised me, because you tried time after time to make me see that I didn't know anything. I want to say that I am so very sorry for not being more productive in my life. I am not the son you can be proud of. I am not the child you should be proud of. I let you down, took everything you ever told me for granted when as I see it now, everything you said turned out to be true. I thank you for taking care of me, sitting up with me when I was sick. Helping me out when I was hurt. There is no woman that I would rather have as my mother. I just wish I would have done more to accommodate you for being a wonderful mother. You deserve more than I have given you, more than I could have ever given you.
The Bible says that the best way to repay your mother for her hard work is by never causing her pain. I have caused too much pain, so I guess I failed in that department also. But yet you still love me the same way you did when you held me in your arms for the first time.
Even when I was wrong you stood by my side. I love you Ma, words can't express how I feel right now writing you. I thank the Lord every day that you had me, because all of the good times outweigh the bad times. If I could press rewind and turn back the hands of time, knowing what I know now, I would give you a different son other than myself.
Every day I am grateful for you, not just on Mother's Day. But today, I want to say thank you, for all the extra love that you gave me. I hope you like the Mother's Day card.
Ma, you will always be my Black Queen...
You are appreciated...
Happy Mother's Day