June 15, 2012

Picky Spider

by Chris Ortiz Luevano (author's profile)


[a hand drawn spider cobweb is between both words]

This picky spider sits and she waits
Alluring with just a glimpse, seductive,
insidious. Still I am aware of all
her familiar lies! It's a vital part
of our intimacy.

I'm sedated by her bite, and life rocks
once again, she'll always be my
closest, most loyal, and most trusted
lover and friend.

Picky spider doesn't give me a 2nd
thought nor does she even care.
I'm not naive, shit! I'm fully aware, as
long as she fulfills her purpose,
she will always be there.

You said you loved me beyond all
sense of time, reality, and reason.
You said I will never, ever leave
you. My rin, where are you now!?
Don't want to believe you would
commit this treason.

See what I mean? Picky spider is
right there, spinning her web of warmth
and comfort to catch me, should I
fall from my despair.

Thank you, picky spider. With you in
my life, if I want, I know I can be protected
from feeling this pain. You're the only
one other than music that will never
leave me neglected.

Loneliness, hatred, pain, none of
them are new. And none of them even
matter. Nothing means more to me than
you. Because in this cold world,
your warmth will always see me through.

If my life is truly fucked, I can make it
so that I can't even tell. If I let you bite
me, this whole world will be well. Shenanigans!
I don't care.

All that matters to you is me!? Picky
spider, I could never be so lucky.
Until death do us part, I'm not ready to
make that vow.

Hello, my name is Chris. I'm an addict. I've been clean almost 4 months, and I remain sober for now...

April 26, 2012


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ivettelue Posted 8 years, 2 months ago. ✓ Mailed 8 years, 1 month ago   Favorite
Ok dad these blogs are not cool. Write about your 3 beautiful kids instead.

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