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#102 Moderating the Sean Riker Debate.

The dramatic personae: whoeveryouwantmetobe (how about Tayler from now on, as that's obviously who you are), angeleyes (cool moniker) and sweatpea (ditto, though your lingo matches angeleyes, as does the spirit of your moniker): please come out of the closet with your true name (first only is fine), no scratching, no hair pulling, no calling each other "bitch"...but mud wrestling's fine. :) Or, whatever.

I do not know the real Tayler, never met her, but I do believe - from what I read in Sean's case file (e.g. her first baby's daddy being a convicted rapist who she met online while in prison, met Sean online while he was in prison, trying to frame Sean for possessing child porn on his computers while he was in jail) + have recently been told by him (e.g. that she's now hooked up with a convict in for possessing heroin + a firearm as a felon), she is the one obsessed with 'sick men'. And she's delusional about how sick she is, posing a terrible danger of twisting her children's still-forming minds.

Readers, stick with me - this is for all you who care about children, wonder about the etiology of crime and so much more, as well as Sean's situation.

Twisted moms...consider my experience. My mom was sexually, physically and mentally abused as a child. So were other of her siblings. That's sad. But she was particularly vulnerable + sensitive to the abuse. She spent some time in mental hospitals, got some ECT + then got pregnant out of wedlock, in a delusively Catholic community. Bad enough, but then she got pregnant with me. Her parents pushed her into a marriage with an older man, a "good" Catholic. Unfortunately, after he was struck in the head by lightning, he had a tendency towards becoming religiously psychotic, falling into week-long or longer fasts, seeing demonic possession at play, practising archaic rituals, even hurting himself to gain God's pity. Then I was born. He + mom had 3 other children. Soon my older brother and I were forced into his masochistic rituals, forced to kneel on the spiked sides of hard-plastic carpet mats (+ he was always looking for ones with bigger, sharper spikes), fast for up to a week (only a slice of sour-dough bread, cup of water + vit C tablet a day), while praying archaic prayers as he tried to exorcise the devil from our mom. After several years of that, with the help of her family, my mom escaped, only to become an alcoholic, then a coke addict, then a heroin addict. After OD-ing when I was in the 3rd or 4th grade, us kids were put into foster care while she went through treatment.

The beginning of the obscenity of the state (Wisconsin!) was that they tried, right after she completed treatment, to return us kids to our mom's custody. Knowing nothing about life or addiction, or normal psychology, us kids, hearts inflamed, hugged her hard and agreed. Years of relapses + then, when she was more steadily sober, she burst open with severe depression, Multiple Personality Disorder, (now called Dissociative Identity Disorder - DID) + PTSD.

As concerns Riker, my point is that dear mother taught us kids very well never to tell the evil social worker (all idiots!) who occasionally came by, anything about what home was like. My youngest brother later manifested DID too, which gives a vague hint of how brutal all of us kids' lives were. Mom trained us to hide this from the world. Worse, my mom tried to get me and my older bro to say that her parents, our grandparents, molested us + forced us into Satanic rituals, to therapists we were sent to by mom. Those therapists were smart, started asking the right questions; mom put an end to that, promptly found us dumber therapists. My older brother revealed a ludicrous tale of our grandparents molesting him; he was more persuadable than I was. I didn't recall such, recalled 'normal' experiences with them during the times I stayed with them - the worst experience I had was them making me rub their feet, only paying me a quarter, while we watched TJ Hooker or Ripley's Believe it or Not.

Mom was pretty competent for someone who cut herself, ODed on pills + received SSI for her serious mental health problems. Apparently that's why we were again left in her custody.

Skipping a lot of exciting details, when I was arrested for murder, my aunts + uncles found out where I was. Mom'd hid us from them since we were kids, accusing them of being Satanic paedophiles. Kids believe their mom. We did. But I found out how normal they were, how sick mom was, but had pride in having some awesome relatives (+ some not). Mom told me to my face, while visiting me in jail: 'You either stop talking with my family, or I'll disown you.' Wow! I kept talking to them. She kept her word: told the DA I admitted the murder to her, gave the DA evidence in my property she was holding, testified against me in trial, persuaded my younger brother (half, technically) to cut a deal + testify against me (he was my co-defendant), paid one jail inmate $50-100 who later testified that I confessed to him, got caught sleeping with a former cellie of mine who later told the DA I confessed to him too (+ had a helicopter coming so I could escape - ha, I wish!), and on the stand said she'd kill me if she could. Keep in mind, I acted as her chief psych nurse, preventing several suicide attempts - but she wanted to kill me, because she was that afraid that I'd tell the court the things she did to us kids + dragged us through, even though there is/was no viable defence for my charges.

Points re:
1) I have no sympathy for wife beaters, nor for
2) child abusers or
3) mentally sick mothers who use their kids. But I also understand the etiology of people like Sean and myself, the dynamics of the white-trash world, amongst other things. My read on Sean's body language, which I study and have notes from multiple texts on Kinesics (body language), is that he was being truthful when he told me he was innocent of the crimes Tayler charged him with. The paperwork he showed me, some of which he's attached with post #100, confirms my conclusion that Tayler is a liar akin to my mom - Hell hath no fury like a woman scorned!

Onto the relevance or irrelevance of accusations in Tayler's comments.

1) Sean lied in his prisoninmates.com ad - what Sean said about himself is true, except his imminent release + DNA evidence (there were no fluids from which DNA could be extracted from), which express his dead. If a lie, a white one.

2) Sean wasn't a great father to his first children because he was in prison - if he simply took the time to teach his kids, through the mail, about life, he's already better than too many of today's fathers, in prison or not.

3) Pipe-bombings and NLR membership - Do you not know that I am labelled + inked as a member of the AC and have even sued about being punished for activity with AC members? Why would I care about his NLR affiliation, other than it's not AC? Pipe-bombings - of the buildings used by paedophilic Mormons! Good work Sean. :) And such does not show he's a baby raper or beat Tayler as she claimed. If anything, they show the opposite. All Aryan + white orgs in prison tend to (but sadly not always) despise paedophiles, sex-offenders of any kind + wife-beaters too. Sean knows this well + I live it.

4) He beat an ex-wife in CA. Prove it. And even if he really did (+ she didn't simply cry wold for her own reasons), it does not a paedophile make.

5) He was violent in jail, threatened the judge and DA - I'd likely have done the same, or said nothing + just got their asses. Scum like them are why innocent people get locked up. Even if Sean's a 'monster', that is not proof of any sort that he beat and raped his children or anyone else's. It's an attempt to inflame passions and obscure the relevant facts - might as well yell 'Get that nigger!'.

6) Sean was an FBI informant for a prison murder - yeah, I know about that. A guy tried to blame Sean for a murder + he turned the tables on that guy. Not pretty, but I'm not going to condemn him for snitching on a snitch. And how does that make him guilty of raping and beating his kids?

7) Sean's family is twisted - where's the proof of this + how does this prove he beat + raped his children?

The accusations can fly back + forth forever, getting further + further from the core issue. I believe my readers are smart enough to see through any BS and I encourage them to weigh in, in the future, whether they know Tayler or Sean or not, + point out such specious/illegitimate arguments.

I asked Sean to post his forensic psychiatrist reports proving that Tayler coached the kids into falsely accusing him, no physical evidence of abuse of any sort existed/exists, etc. Benj said he could do so + Sean told me he sent them off 16 Nov as part of post #100 on my blog. Love to see your 'evidence' Tayler, put up or shut up. Histrionics are entertaining but not evidence, except of your deformed personality, tendency to manipulate others etc.

As for your attempt to slur Sean as using anyone for commissary money. That's hilarious. He asks his supporters for books, stamped envelopes, paper + scented oil. The man doesn't even have a personal TV or deodorant, much like me. The whole focus of his energy is exposing his unjust conviction + yes, I expect he will 'use' whoever will let him to that end. There are slimeballs in prison trying to use people, particularly women + homosexuals.

Tayler, you are welcome to send me any documentary proof backing up your allegations; I will report here what it is, says + give my analysis - so long as it's relevant to Sean's guilt or innocence, not inflammatory bullshit.

Parents, I believe, must serve their kids, prepare them to take over living when the parents die. Parents who do so, deserve the respect of their kids + society.

Here's some contacts and suggested reading on the important topic of childhood abuse, sexual + otherwise.

A Mother's Touch: Surviving Mother/Daughter Sexual Abuse, by Julie A Brand. MS: www.caperconsulting.com/ - I studied it + highly recommend it. A great lady.

Males at Risk: The Other Side of Child Sexual Abuse, by Bolton F, Morris L + MacEachron A - haven't read yet, but Brand co-signs it + the topic has been too-long overlooked.

The Angry Heart: Overcoming Borderline + Addictive Disorders, by Joseph Santoro PHD; www.slshealth.com - I studied it and highly recommend to understand how personality disorders are created + the potential effects of childhood abuse.

The Ice Man: Confessions of a Mafia Contract Killer, by Philip Carlo www. philipcarolo.com PCcarlo1847@aol.com - I studied; an example of how abusive parents can + do make 'mistakes', and well written, creepy, true and sad.

www.preventchildabuse.org

Anyone who contacts the above sites, please let them know I referred you + really appreciate their writings + work.

w/love + respect,
Nate.