"reply ID" bvcj
Thank you for your help in getting my blog on the blogsite. It matters to me any time I can possibly reach or talk about my sons. I just hope one day my sons can see my blog and read it themselves. All my sons I feel the same way about. I have tried to be the best dad I can be for a knuckle head. I have made some major setbacks in my life. Along the way, I somehow found time to have some of the greatest kids ever. I still remember when I was the first to hold them after they were born and how happy I was then. Even now when I think of them I feel that same feeling. I do not think it ever changes. Most of my wisdom has come through hard times I have passed through. I just hope to be able to pass it along one day to my sons. I just mainly, like you said, want them to know I am here for them always. That there is nothing they cannot ask me. I will be honest. They deserve that. I just want the best for them and I know they are doing good. They are my boys...
One of the best things I can do for them is keep myself moving forward without thinking of negative things. They need me and one day when they show up, I want to have the love only a father can give them, whether we are all grown or not. I strive to do the best I can for them. I write them all the time. I don't know if they get the letters but that is not my part. I don't need unnecessary mental problems. I got their address and I write to it. I do not hear back but I don't think that is on them. I know that today I have the strength to write anyway. The letters never come back so someone is getting them. Smile. I am sure that it is hard being the parent out there.
I am divorced from my wife going on 14 years or 15. My kids were all babies then. I just got locked up this time in 2008. So I know that this time I did a major crime. So it had to be hard for them once they heard what I did and no telling what all they heard as I was on the run from the law. I don't know if they knew but I am sure they did.
I had them all the summer of 2008. We had so much fun and I did all kinds of stuff with them. I guess now my ex who is remarried feels it may be best if I don't write on or nothing. Of course she has never said this, I just get it from I never get answers to my mail. I have to understand that too if she feels that way, I do not have to like it. I can accept it as part of my consequences. I just hope when they get older they remember old dad. Maybe they will see the blog and see I have not forgot about them. Of course I will keep writing to them also. What can it hurt? Anyway, I am glad you saw something in what I wrote. There is not a day goes by I don't think of them. I miss them and love them very much. I regret pulling that trigger more and more. That is all in the past as I have left that to past. I will continue to learn and try to be a better man and a dad. Thanks again for the time.
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