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Bobby...Those years sound amazing! I wish i was there to experience such joy that you did with Mom and Dad. Hearing about him and how wonderful he was warms my heart. Makes me happy to know that i am part of such a good person that i never even knew. You're right, I didn't grow up with a father, but I did grow up with a great big bro, and as far as I'm concerned the closest thing to a father. Also a strong mother who, concidering all problems, did a fine job with both of us. I'm sorry he did what he did and left you. Keep remembering those happy times and stay strong. I'm glad to see you're finally talking about things, I look forward to reading much more, maybe more about the good times before the little brat came into your life :). I will see you on November 4th for sure. Maybe before that too, I might take a ride up with some of the family. I love you so much Bobby!! Keep writing, you're amazing!! Stay strong!!

You're loving sister...
Cristen

Bob - I loved reading Fireworks. It brought back so many good & bad memories. We did have some great times. I am glad you have some good memories. It is too bad that your sister never got to enjoy that time in your life and to know your father. He really was a great guy. I love reading your blog. I know you are very busy :) so you do not get to write often, but, hopefully, you will post another soon. Love Ya!

Auntie Deb

Hey Alan, thanks for sharing thats an interesting blog. I can relate to what you say about feeling numb, living in head too much and been disconnected cos i been that way lot of mi life too. i agree those anti-depressants just make things worse in the long term, i used be on them and other 'legal' and 'illegal' drugs. I used feel life was very unfair on me too but now i just think lot of it is karma and/or learning experience and stuff. whatever it is getting vexed at it and feeling hard done by never seemed to make the situation better for me and im figuring your probably feeling the same kinda way. I like that poem never heard it before but then again dont know heaps of poems. I been listening to that song Numb by Linkin Park a lot again recently so i gwan throw up the lyrics for you. take care and God bless.



I'm tired of being what you want me to be
Feeling so faithless, lost under the surface
Don't know what you're expecting of me
Put under the pressure of walking in your shoes
(Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow)
Every step that I take is another mistake to you
(Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow)

[Chorus:]
I've become so numb, I can't feel you there
Become so tired, so much more aware
I'm becoming this, all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you

Can't you see that you're smothering me,
Holding too tightly, afraid to lose control?
'Cause everything that you thought I would be
Has fallen apart right in front of you.
(Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow)
Every step that I take is another mistake to you.
(Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow)
And every second I waste is more than I can take.

[Chorus:]
I've become so numb, I can't feel you there,
Become so tired, so much more aware
I'm becoming this, all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you.

And I know
I may end up failing too.
But I know
You were just like me with someone disappointed in you.

[Chorus:]
I've become so numb, I can't feel you there,
Become so tired, so much more aware.
I'm becoming this, all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you.

[Chorus:]
I've become so numb, I can't feel you there.
(I'm tired of being what you want me to be)
I've become so numb, I can't feel you there.
(I'm tired of being what you want me to be)

Hiya Precious, I read your blog regularly now. despite all the really terrible things that have happened to you I think you have a truly beautiful soul.

Strength to you my sister. I wish you love light and fairy hugs. Oh, and butterfly kisses all over.

Axel

I truly believe with every ounce of my being that if anybody accomplishes that task of accumulating all knowledge, it will be you, Kyle.

I was browsing at the library the other day. I felt a sense of dismay - I wished I were Spock. How am I going to learn everything I want to? It will take so many lifetimes.

So many people think that working together for the common good means you can harm another person if it will help the majority. But I heard that Heaven's inhabitants rejoice over the saving of one soul. I don't think any soul lost is acceptable. If all God's messengers felt the same, it would be a great world to live in. You can't influence the majority if you don't hold the message in your own heart.

WHAT UP WIT U SON THIS MP PLAYA

Hey Bobby... Teresa just sent me this link today, and i wanted to say hello. how are you doing? its been a long time.. i also saw your address on here, and i was going to write to you, if thats ok... well,have a good day, and i'll talk to you soon :-) Miss Ya...
~Holly~

Hi Bobby! I'm so happy that I can read and post you messages. This story of your friends passing is very sad, I am sorry for your loss. I find it wonderful that you have found peace surrounded by chaos! I love you and miss you! I'm sending out some mail...so keep an eye out. I read and saw a picture of you! I miss you!