7) As a result of that new effort (only 2-3 months since as I write this letter to you) something very special has began to evolve from these young men, who can't stop talking about Kathy and their new found fellowship with those people among your congregation. And so it didn't take long for this "message" from these new souls to come together to extend our appreciation. I told sistr Kathy that we need to call the visiting room expansion "feast and fellowship" with new souls.
8) Byron, Marcus, Waymon, Thomas, Tyrone, and Rayon; are these new souls who've been touched in a positive way by you. It may be obvious that we are not a part of the usual crowd of "Bible dudes" around here, who don't engage our generation at all, let alone any new souls being brought to the Lord by those that have been here since before many of us left moddle school. In fact, the vast population of death row prisoners confined here at San Quentin, most of us don't know eachother. Whether it be fences and walls, or barriers of the mind, it's a cliché all too common here to find our generation more at odds with whatever people morph into while "playing" christian.
9) If it wasn't for those here like RU-AL, and Westley, setting an example of God's grace towards us as we come here as young and wild lost souls, there would be little to no evidence of God's mercy here in real time. If not for Kathy and those of you who baked, wrote letters, came to visit, without prejudice or judgement. These testimonials are a confirmation that through you, God is getting our attention.
1) My name is Floyd Smith, CDCR#K-72700. PAPYRUS COLLECTIVE project coordinator, lead writer and contributing editor for the WODZ (WRITE OR DIE zine) series. With this MESSAGE TO THE CHURCH to sister Kathy and the congregation. This is my testimonial.
2) One morning, while pacing the small space of an outside holding cage, a man in the cage next to mine named Westley, noticed my low spirit and spoke to me. He said that he wanted me to meet a lady named Kathy that he knew, because the church where she worshiped was putting on a bake sale to raise funds for prisoners in need during the Christmas Holiday. He told me that he already has support, and wanted to offer his blessing from the church bake sale to me.
3) What Westley didn't know is that I was in a very dark place that morning. Upset with God, because my 16 year old daughter was in a high speed chase through Los Angeles in a stolen vehicle, which turned into a foot chase that ended in the officer drawing his gun on my baby. Especially since I was told that my daughter was pregnant. All of that hit me so hard that I had decided to commit suicide that day.
4) My daughter, pregnant with my first grandchild inside a juvenile facility somewhere, and would be born incarcerated (Three generations incarcerated). Both my daughter and grandchild could've been shot and killed that day. To think about it, some cop had to go home and tell his wife that he almost shot someone's 16 year old daughter. In this climate in America where hostility and tragedy between the police and inner city youth is all too often the result of such encounters. It all really pushed me to the edge that particular day.
5) Meeting sister Kathy, and her introducing me to Robain, who I came to know during our visits, both, make me look back at that moment as a direct movement of God into my life. Because neither Westley, Kathy nor Robain knew that I was in trouble until after I engaged them. And although Robain can't visit me anymore, he made a great impression on my life from the times he did. (Robain is the Real Deal).
6) That act of kindness that Westley extended 4 years ago through his bake sale blessing sustained me, and my hope to one day hear from my daughter and meet my grandchild. Today, I share the bake sale blessing with others, as well as sister Kathy's prison ministry which brings those from your congregation (like Robain) into the visiting rooms. This last holiday I was able to share this combined blessing from both "bakers" and ministers with some "new souls" among an new generation of the death row population here at San Quentin, thanx to sister Kathy expanding the efforts and resources to me, from the congregation of the Holy Spirit church.
Alright Sniper, I send minez. Aye good lookin out on tha S.P.O hookup. I needed a new hotpot like a motha( ). I was just about to order a S.P.O. now i don't have ta. I can shoot tha bread to my daughter now. So i appreciate that playboy on tha real. So i filled out tha form. I think i did it right. ( ) I also included the (?) in tha total price. So everthing should be str8. I filled out tha inmatepart... As for that heat. "Like they use to". Yeah man thatz all real ( ). When you out there havin it ya way every body down wit you. But when you cant spread that $$ around no more they shake on you. It aint nothin tho. I learned that time will show you that truth about motha( ).
1 To our beloved sister Kathy, and bakers of blessings; from Floyd, and Marcus, the youngest of the new souls here with us.
2 When I first met Marcus, he had engaged our WODz project with a lyrical composition (or "rap") written about his life, titled, "Like they used to", that was full of the raw, direct, explicit language, and street vanacular reflecting his San Diego, California, roots. A life of drugs, gangs, violence, betrayal, and love lost. The last chapters of an early life. I found his poetic narrative to be a familiar theme of the street life, yet, a pivotal introspective guiding one into a new chapter of life.
3 I asked Marcus last year if he was interested in receiving a gifted blessing from a church congregation that just had a bake sale to raise funds for those of us in need of a package during the coming Christmas holiday. Something as small as a new hot pot heat up cold meals, for Marcus, was an expense that would've been more complicated, and inconvenient on his young daughter, had that blessing not been received.
4 The following words came to me in a (*) kite I received from Marcus the days following his receiving the S.P.O. ("Special purchase order") package from Kathy that december 2016:
(NOTE: THE ORIGINAL HANDWRITTEN KITE WAS REDACTED AND TRANSCRIBED IN CONSIDERATION OF LANGUAGE ONE MAY FIND OFFENSIVE.)
6 I wanted to share this kite with the congregation and our Bakers of Blessings, for you to see how your love has fond a young daughter in the hood without her father at home, and the heart of this young father who's on his way to discovering a new chapter in his life among God's real people in society. You just introduced Marcus to a reason to use the word "appreciate". That's right, playboy!... "on tha real". :) This is great work for us. A window to a new soul is open for the Lord because the Holy Spirt Church Congregation is doing the work.
7 We pray for someone from the congregation to join the prison ministry to visit and fellowship with Marcus next. This new soul is y testimonial - one of many New Generation condemned here. My name is Floyd (aka: "Sniper" aka: "Xzyzst"), and I used to be Marcus. Before I met Sister Kathy.
(*) KITE - A WRITTEN COMMUNICATION OR MESSAGE BETWEEN PRISONERS.
1 In August 2014 we created our own distribution co-op of WODz (WRITEORDIE zine) as a way to meet the growing number of requests from our contributors and other California Death Row Inmates here @ San Quentin prison, as well as those friends and family outside who follow the annual release of WODz series. Working together with our lead contributors we were able to combine our limited resources and man-power, and increase annual painting and distribution numbers of WOD enough to meet the demand.
2 In 2017 we published our first catalog of ALL WODz issues. Over a dozen upcoming, current and backissues, compilations and featured-author editions, all have been resurrected in the pages of this catalog. With a brief editorial summary of each WODz issue spanning its 6 year long history, exhibits the consistancy and commitment of Papyrus Collective contributing writers, artists, coordinators, and the new distro co-op. Continuing to kep WODz in the hands of those here @ San Quentin prison who want it.
South Chicago ABC Zine Distro
3 South Chicago ABC zine distro is our publishing primary, and has a distrribution network throughout institutions nationwide. If you have a WODz catalog (whether you'reon the row at San Quentin or a prison other than here) and you don't know who to get at for a WODz issue, or you're looking for a catalog, you can write to the ABC zine distro address to request WODz by title. It cost you nothing if nothing is all you have. If you're able, please cover your own postage or SASE (self adressed stamped envelope).
4 WODz is free to all prisoners, copyleft and free to dubplicate and distribute. So do your part to keep this thing going.
5 If you're interested in seeing our WODz catalog, I've posted it on my blog @ BTB (betweenthebars.org). I'm also offering to fill a limited number or request for single issues of WODz - that's one per request. Free. While supplies last. See my blog for more information. You can also get at me via snailmail at the address below.
See my blog for more information. You can also get at me via snailmail at the address below.
Byron P. Wilson Jr. #P76622, CSP-SQ San Quentin, Ca 94974
He seems dressed in all the rings Of past fatalaties So fragile yet so devious He continues to see it Climatic hands that press His temples and my chest Enter the night that he came home
Forever...
I hope to hear from you soon,
Sasha.
PS: I know this is an old Post but is beautiful. Hope you like this little piece,is for you. PS2: yesterday I sent my reply to your letter :)
Hi David! Im really glad you replied. I really liked the picture you drew. You are extremely talented. Once again your writing will help me in the future with classes. I cant believe the way prisons act toward masturbation. Im glad you flick the "release valve" like me sometimes;) haha. To your questions: How would I help relieve your tension? Well... I would do all sorts of things. haha. I would start with your hair and run my fingers through it. Then my hands would work their way to your chest and then work them to your stomach until I slip my hands down into your pants and fun area... hahaha. I would then grip something and make it get like a rock. I would then slide my hand up and down making you squirm... I would be dripping wanting you to slide in me. Hopefully this doesnt get you in trouble reading that ;)
What is the thing I would most like to begin? A meaningful project
What single word describes me most? Caring
What is the strongest craving you get? Same as you ;) and chocolate haha
Where is your favorite place to be touched? My inner thigh
Do I like or dislike sleeping in the nude? Like
What is the best place to be kissed? Neck
5 minutes alone with you what would happen? Read above. lol
Favorite Music? A little bit of everything. I have been listening to country music lately though.
Favorite perfume? Daisy by Marc Jacobs
Panties, Thongs, boy shorts? Thongs.
Here are some more questions I found. What is the most erotic scent you have ever smelled? What is the longest you have gone without having sex? What is the most comforting thing you have in prison? What habit would you most like to give up? When did you have the most fun in your life? What is the best thing about being a man?
Hello Donald! Thank you so much for your response to my questions. I really loved your responses :). Just to let you know I asked these questions for a psychology class that I was taking in college. I was doing research on human interactions and how a lack of intimate contact can change a persons personality and outlook on life. I specifically was looking at correction systems. I am glad I stumbled upon this blog website. This is going to give me a first hand perspective into the system through people like you. Your responses were very thorough and will help me immensely in future papers. One thing you said and other people have said is that people seem to block out women from their lives if they can. People also talked about being reserved when they get out of prison and also scared of women. Another thing men and women both talk about is they masturbate in prison to cope with the lack of intimacy. These are just a few things I wanted to share that I have found so far and I appreciate you helping add to this data. If you can think of anything else that might help with my research I would really appreciate it. I really like your blog posts and I hope you continue to write. I guess I have a few more questions to ask if you dont mind answering if not, no big deal. Does your state offer conjugal visits? if so do you see any difference in mens behavior who get them? if not do you think it would help or not? Do you have access to regular pornography magazines? Can you have fully nude magazines? Does any contraband of this sort happen to get into prison if so? Do prisons discourage masturbation or allow it openly? A lot of men who I have blogged with on here in prison say they get punished if they were to be caught masturbating and I think that is wrong. Is that the same with you? This is part of human nature and is healthy thing to do to remove stress. I know I have to do it occasionally too to not be stressed ;) Does any contraband of this sort happen to get into prison if so? Do you think some men abstain from masturbation and show other forms of emotions to overcome these frustrations (like anger, depression)? Do men who have a significant others on the outside act any differently than men who dont have a significant other on the outside from your observations? That is all I can think of for now. If you dont feel like answering these questions dont feel obligated. I want you to be as comfortable as possible. I really appreciate anything you can answer. If you can think of anything else that might help let me know. I really love your writing. Just so you know i'm super blunt and i'm not afraid to talk about taboo topics. Haha. If you have a picture I would love if you would send it so I could see you ;) Thank you again Alyssa :)
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this letter to you) something very special has began to evolve from
these young men, who can't stop talking about Kathy and their new
found fellowship with those people among your congregation. And so
it didn't take long for this "message" from these new souls to come
together to extend our appreciation. I told sistr Kathy that we need
to call the visiting room expansion "feast and fellowship" with new souls.
8) Byron, Marcus, Waymon, Thomas, Tyrone, and Rayon; are these new
souls who've been touched in a positive way by you. It may be obvious
that we are not a part of the usual crowd of "Bible dudes" around here,
who don't engage our generation at all, let alone any new souls being
brought to the Lord by those that have been here since before many of us
left moddle school. In fact, the vast population of death row prisoners
confined here at San Quentin, most of us don't know eachother. Whether
it be fences and walls, or barriers of the mind, it's a cliché all too
common here to find our generation more at odds with whatever people
morph into while "playing" christian.
9) If it wasn't for those here like RU-AL, and Westley, setting an
example of God's grace towards us as we come here as young and wild
lost souls, there would be little to no evidence of God's mercy here
in real time. If not for Kathy and those of you who baked, wrote
letters, came to visit, without prejudice or judgement. These
testimonials are a confirmation that through you, God is getting
our attention.
1) My name is Floyd Smith, CDCR#K-72700. PAPYRUS COLLECTIVE project coordinator,
lead writer and contributing editor for the WODZ (WRITE OR DIE zine) series.
With this MESSAGE TO THE CHURCH to sister Kathy and the congregation. This is
my testimonial.
2) One morning, while pacing the small space of an outside holding cage, a man
in the cage next to mine named Westley, noticed my low spirit and spoke to me.
He said that he wanted me to meet a lady named Kathy that he knew, because the
church where she worshiped was putting on a bake sale to raise funds for
prisoners in need during the Christmas Holiday. He told me that he already
has support, and wanted to offer his blessing from the church bake sale to me.
3) What Westley didn't know is that I was in a very dark place that morning.
Upset with God, because my 16 year old daughter was in a high speed chase
through Los Angeles in a stolen vehicle, which turned into a foot chase that
ended in the officer drawing his gun on my baby. Especially since I was told
that my daughter was pregnant. All of that hit me so hard that I had decided
to commit suicide that day.
4) My daughter, pregnant with my first grandchild inside a juvenile facility
somewhere, and would be born incarcerated (Three generations incarcerated).
Both my daughter and grandchild could've been shot and killed that day. To think
about it, some cop had to go home and tell his wife that he almost shot someone's
16 year old daughter. In this climate in America where hostility and tragedy
between the police and inner city youth is all too often the result of such
encounters. It all really pushed me to the edge that particular day.
5) Meeting sister Kathy, and her introducing me to Robain, who I came
to know during our visits, both, make me look back at that moment as
a direct movement of God into my life. Because neither Westley, Kathy
nor Robain knew that I was in trouble until after I engaged them. And
although Robain can't visit me anymore, he made a great impression on
my life from the times he did. (Robain is the Real Deal).
6) That act of kindness that Westley extended 4 years ago through his
bake sale blessing sustained me, and my hope to one day hear from my
daughter and meet my grandchild. Today, I share the bake sale blessing
with others, as well as sister Kathy's prison ministry which brings
those from your congregation (like Robain) into the visiting rooms.
This last holiday I was able to share this combined blessing from
both "bakers" and ministers with some "new souls" among an new
generation of the death row population here at San Quentin, thanx
to sister Kathy expanding the efforts and resources to me, from the
congregation of the Holy Spirit church.
I send minez. Aye good lookin out on tha S.P.O hookup. I needed a new hotpot like a motha( ). I
was just about to order a S.P.O. now i don't have ta. I can shoot tha bread to my daughter now.
So i appreciate that playboy on tha real. So i filled out tha form. I think i did it right. ( )
I also included the (?) in tha total price. So everthing should be str8. I filled out tha
inmatepart... As for that heat. "Like they use to". Yeah man thatz all real ( ). When you out
there havin it ya way every body down wit you. But when you cant spread that $$ around no more
they shake on you. It aint nothin tho. I learned that time will show you that truth about motha( ).
1 To our beloved sister Kathy, and bakers of blessings; from Floyd, and Marcus, the youngest
of the new souls here with us.
2 When I first met Marcus, he had engaged our WODz project with a lyrical composition (or "rap")
written about his life, titled, "Like they used to", that was full of the raw, direct, explicit
language, and street vanacular reflecting his San Diego, California, roots. A life of drugs,
gangs, violence, betrayal, and love lost. The last chapters of an early life. I found his poetic
narrative to be a familiar theme of the street life, yet, a pivotal introspective guiding one
into a new chapter of life.
3 I asked Marcus last year if he was interested in receiving a gifted blessing from a church
congregation that just had a bake sale to raise funds for those of us in need of a package
during the coming Christmas holiday. Something as small as a new hot pot heat up cold meals,
for Marcus, was an expense that would've been more complicated, and inconvenient on his
young daughter, had that blessing not been received.
4 The following words came to me in a (*) kite I received from Marcus the days following his
receiving the S.P.O. ("Special purchase order") package from Kathy that december 2016:
(NOTE: THE ORIGINAL HANDWRITTEN KITE WAS REDACTED AND TRANSCRIBED IN CONSIDERATION OF
LANGUAGE ONE MAY FIND OFFENSIVE.)
6 I wanted to share this kite with the congregation and our Bakers of Blessings, for you
to see how your love has fond a young daughter in the hood without her father at home, and
the heart of this young father who's on his way to discovering a new chapter in his life
among God's real people in society. You just introduced Marcus to a reason to use the word
"appreciate". That's right, playboy!... "on tha real". :) This is great work for us. A window
to a new soul is open for the Lord because the Holy Spirt Church Congregation is doing the
work.
7 We pray for someone from the congregation to join the prison ministry to visit and fellowship
with Marcus next. This new soul is y testimonial - one of many New Generation condemned here.
My name is Floyd (aka: "Sniper" aka: "Xzyzst"), and I used to be Marcus. Before I met Sister
Kathy.
(*) KITE - A WRITTEN COMMUNICATION OR MESSAGE BETWEEN PRISONERS.
greetings! I changed your website links in working ones. Assuming you wouldn't mind :)
x Ju
1 In August 2014 we created our own distribution co-op of WODz (WRITEORDIE zine) as a way
to meet the growing number of requests from our contributors and other California Death
Row Inmates here @ San Quentin prison, as well as those friends and family outside who
follow the annual release of WODz series. Working together with our lead contributors we were
able to combine our limited resources and man-power, and increase annual painting and
distribution numbers of WOD enough to meet the demand.
2 In 2017 we published our first catalog of ALL WODz issues. Over a dozen upcoming, current
and backissues, compilations and featured-author editions, all have been resurrected in the
pages of this catalog. With a brief editorial summary of each WODz issue spanning its 6 year
long history, exhibits the consistancy and commitment of Papyrus Collective contributing
writers, artists, coordinators, and the new distro co-op. Continuing to kep WODz in the
hands of those here @ San Quentin prison who want it.
South Chicago ABC Zine Distro
3 South Chicago ABC zine distro is our publishing primary, and has a distrribution network
throughout institutions nationwide. If you have a WODz catalog (whether you'reon the row at
San Quentin or a prison other than here) and you don't know who to get at for a WODz issue,
or you're looking for a catalog, you can write to the ABC zine distro address to request
WODz by title. It cost you nothing if nothing is all you have. If you're able, please cover
your own postage or SASE (self adressed stamped envelope).
4 WODz is free to all prisoners, copyleft and free to dubplicate and distribute. So do your
part to keep this thing going.
5 If you're interested in seeing our WODz catalog, I've posted it on my blog @ BTB
(betweenthebars.org). I'm also offering to fill a limited number or request for single issues
of WODz - that's one per request. Free. While supplies last. See my blog for more information.
You can also get at me via snailmail at the address below.
See my blog for more information. You can also get at me via snailmail at the address below.
Byron P. Wilson Jr.
#P76622, CSP-SQ
San Quentin, Ca 94974
https://betweenthebars.org/blogs/1916/byron-wilson
https://betweenthebars.org/group/papco/
Of past fatalaties
So fragile yet so devious
He continues to see it
Climatic hands that press
His temples and my chest
Enter the night that he came home
Forever...
I hope to hear from you soon,
Sasha.
PS: I know this is an old Post but is beautiful. Hope you like this little piece,is for you.
PS2: yesterday I sent my reply to your letter :)
What is the thing I would most like to begin?
A meaningful project
What single word describes me most?
Caring
What is the strongest craving you get?
Same as you ;) and chocolate haha
Where is your favorite place to be touched?
My inner thigh
Do I like or dislike sleeping in the nude?
Like
What is the best place to be kissed?
Neck
5 minutes alone with you what would happen?
Read above. lol
Favorite Music?
A little bit of everything. I have been listening to country music lately though.
Favorite perfume?
Daisy by Marc Jacobs
Panties, Thongs, boy shorts?
Thongs.
Here are some more questions I found.
What is the most erotic scent you have ever smelled?
What is the longest you have gone without having sex?
What is the most comforting thing you have in prison?
What habit would you most like to give up?
When did you have the most fun in your life?
What is the best thing about being a man?
Alyssa :)