I have sat many days and thought about the night you ruined my life, how i didn't see the warning signs. I am so disgusted that i let you around my family, my son. I ask myself why you out of all the girlfriends you had why did you choose to eff me over? i had everything going for me and you just come in and take it all away because you wanted to be "hard". you have got to be the dumbest person i know. I don't believe for a second that your sorry. if you were you know that sorry will never be enough. you say the sanders lost a wonderful a man and that is true but sorry doesn't bring him back. Sorry doesn't take back what those little boys had to see. you are the biggest disgrace to this world. i cant believe there are people in this world that feel bad for you or want to get to know you... i know you, you are a con a fake a lie. you could have had the world instead you wanted to a gangster now look at you stuck asking people to understand your situation. you don't deserve any sort of understanding.i wish i would have never met you. i effin hate you and i just want you to know that
Dymitri, reading this entry and the description of the events you and your cellmate are having to endure was very difficult. I just wrote for 15 minutes but forgot to log in and the whole thing was lost. I'm writing a shortened version of that much more heartfelt response now. I was hoping where you've been placed, the security level, etc. that the environment would be a little less intense. I'm really disappointed to hear that the safety of inmates, and keeping a good level of order in the facility, are not rating too high. What you're witnessing your friend go through is depressing. Like you wisely point out, you can't be a super-hero, but that I give you credit for trying to be reasonable with the aggressors. You're witness to the lows of human nature, and that's hard for a good guy like your self to stand by and just be witness to. Reading this entry, really transported me to your reality, and your eloquent ability to write made it clear it's not a very pleasant place to be--which we know. Hang in there and be strong. We haven't forgotten about you. Someday they're will be reforms, and technology will stop the widespread caging of human souls. European countries are closing prison because they can't keep them full. Maybe this country will become more christian/ civilized and not throw humans away for life. Technology and understanding of the brain will cause changes. Anyways, let me send this along and print some stuff up for you. Take care buddy!
Dymitri, reading this was very difficult. Because you write so well, eloquently, it transported me to the nightmare you and your cellmate live. It paints a picture far worse than I was hoping you were living. I thought you were lucky enough that the security level you've been place would have weeded out such violence. The other part of this, I'm surprised such behavior occurs so un-captured by the authorities who are in charge with the inmates' safety and keeping some semblance of order in there. However, you know I've seen what hell looks and feels like. I'm just heartbroken you're there again. I'm sorry. You stay strong, smart, non-violent, and don't be a stupid hero--I didn't say don't be a "hero," just don't be a stupid one. Like you describe, there's little things you can do, like try to be reasonable, but I already know how far that goes. How I got through those 5 years from 1996-2001 I still don't fully understand. At my age today, it would be a lot harder and psychologically I'd brake much quicker and much more permanently. No one in this family has forgotten you. Today, that doesn't mean much, but perhaps, with reforms and new technology, housing human souls in cages won't be the default way of dealing with everything. Chris
Hey Donnie! It's Cindy! I have great news! Matt and I set a wedding date! 9/12/15. Everything has been going great for us! I'm so sorry I haven't written. Time moves too quickly when you have little kids. I remember that I need to write and then forget again because the boys distracted me or needed something and I forget again. It's definitely a vicious cycle, I'm not 40 yet and my mind is already going. Hahaha! I'm pretty sure you have your address listed on your bio, and as long as you do, I'm gonna send you one of our Christmas cards. I know it's late, but you should still have one! I'll write soon :) hope everything is going well! Love you, Cindy
Hello Allan, Thank You for your intelligent, well written paper. I have my Bachelor's of Science in Psychology and working on getting accepted to Grad School. In as well, further employment in field with offenders. My point is I have done much research and working on work (including unofficial)with offenders, particularly SO's. I enjoyed reading your paper and would like to enlighten people with your knowledge. Thank you, again. Respectfully, Anne K
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Take care buddy!
Chris
I have great news! Matt and I set a wedding date! 9/12/15.
Everything has been going great for us! I'm so sorry I haven't written. Time moves too quickly when you have little kids. I remember that I need to write and then forget again because the boys distracted me or needed something and I forget again. It's definitely a vicious cycle, I'm not 40 yet and my mind is already going. Hahaha! I'm pretty sure you have your address listed on your bio, and as long as you do, I'm gonna send you one of our Christmas cards. I know it's late, but you should still have one!
I'll write soon :) hope everything is going well! Love you,
Cindy
I read your profile and it is very touching. Thank you Daniel for sharing your growth. You write well and appreciate you sharing.
Best, Anne K
I enjoy reading how you relay yourself.
Thank you,
Anne K
Thank you for sharing.
Respectfully,
Anne K
Thank You for your intelligent, well written paper. I have my Bachelor's of Science in Psychology and working on getting accepted to Grad School. In as well, further employment in field with offenders. My point is I have done much research and working on work (including unofficial)with offenders, particularly SO's. I enjoyed reading your paper and would like to enlighten people with your knowledge.
Thank you, again.
Respectfully,
Anne K