You made my day also. I struggle with the trouble of "every little tiny thing goes wrong...yeah goes wrong" (Janis Joplin) well tonight it got to the crying point, and for me, well I'm tough...and people...like jb...how can they sleep at night, I wonder. So many ignorant people...in my life as well... so here I'm balling in my car, a ten year old Toyota Corolla (every thing i own fits iside) in the Walmart parking lot thinking how worthless I feel my life has been. And I read that I made your day. And I stop crying! I make a little attitude adjustment. I realize that the most important things in life are not things (of course) but people. And we made a connection on this crazy little website I found one day as I research all things prison...
I'm renting a two bedroom apt. tomorrow. I've met Billy three times at Holman prison. I am going to be occupied with some clandestine tactics...did I mention we know who did it? He has a dream team law firm, but Alabama doesn't take to New Yorkers telling them they are wrong.
I will write a real letter when i get settled.
Oh, I cut my own hair! Ha ha! You should see how lopsided it is.. I kind of like it...I'll send you a picture.
Tell your friend...well I don't know what to tell him. It's gotta be frustrating.
Hey Floyd, this is G, Calvin's european friend. Sorry to hear you are going through this ordeal, sounds unreasonable and truly unnecessary an aggravation. Know my thoughts are with you as i read your blog. Keep at it and try to stay positive. Ciao.
Then why did you steel his boots? You got a foot fetish? Didnt you do that to the fisherman you killed as well? I love reading your blog to be completely honest but I dont get the feeling your all that truthful. Whats the real story about your helicopter escape and the exwife? Read your blog and havent found to much about that. How about the sex charge with a minor? Well you asked for comments and questions. Lets here the answers
I hope this note finds your health well. I am writing on behalf of The Prison Birth Project. We received your solidarity letter and wanted to reach out to thank you for your support. Also, we wanted to see if you had any objections to us printing your letter in our newsletter. Sending our support.
It is really a shame that it's that hot in the quads. I cannot imagine living in the heat we have in PA without the benefit of air conditioning. The humidity plus the smell of so many people crammed together must be unbearable.
I do understand why the guards get air conditioning however. It is a pretty thankless job working as a prison guard, and I can only imagine the stress the correctional officers face on a daily basis. It would seem conditions would be much worse were they to not have a refuge from the heat, aggravation and general despondency that must come part and parcel with that job.
As to them getting their cars fixed, etc.... This does not seem like a bad thing to me. I am sure there are people in the system that appreciate the skills learned when they are finally allowed to leave, a skill would lessen the overall instances of recidivism, no?
Your appeal interests me. It is my understanding that first degree murder includes the planning of a murder, and your case would seem to be more of a crime of the moment type scenario. I suppose your actions afterwards, desecration of a corpse, grand theft auto, burglary, the list is quite long... Make the point somewhat moot however. You bemoan the waste of tax payer dollars, but wouldn't an appeal process be more of a waste of those same dollars... Which frankly could be better spent elsewhere?
My goodness, complaining about the cable not being free.... This seems to be an ongoing theme in many of your posts. When everyone on the outside is paying for cable (I know I certainly do, to the tune of about $180/month), I am at a loss as to why this should be an issue for you? No matter how you look at it, your life is at it's base level a "free ride" and has been for the large majority of your time on the planet.
I really do feel for your daughter though. I don't think the sins of the father should be visited upon their progeny, but I also do not think that a father is defined purely by supplying the genetic material to make a child. A father is able to be there for their children, and makes sacrifices in their own life to make sure that is a reality. Anything else is simply a delusional fantasy.
Well, I hope they day gets better for you. For me, I am off to the backyard to stand over a hot grill and cook dinner for the family. Ciao!
I'm one of the slackers you haven't heard from for some time but it's good to see you keep reaching out here regardless. From an Australian perspective, I don't know that American's are being seen as 'cowards'... a bunch of crazy people perhaps!
Your policies on gun control seem completely nuts when there are so many incidents of people losing their lives (our gun laws were restricted after our last mass shooting in 1996, where 35 people were gunned down & we haven't had another mass shooting since) we aren't able to license automatic weapons here at all (because why would you need an automatic weapon other than to kill a lot of people at one time) - one shot is enough to kill a kangaroo or a wild pig & they're the only legitimate reasons to have guns in this country. We don't have the attitude that we 'need a gun for protection' because no one else has one 'for protection', so why would the next guy (seems to make perfect sense outside of the US)
I'll agree respect is something that is lacking across the board (but perhaps that's just me getting older too).
Anyway, just wanted to say Hi because I haven't been around for some time. I hope all is going well. Take care James!
It's been a while since I've been here to say hi (a long while!) I've moved cities, started working, (quit that job & am busy looking for another haha). & I'll be finishing my studies for the rest of the year (I've also taken on a double diploma course) but I just wanted to say hi. (HI!) I hope you're managing to keep your spirits up. I think of you often & will continue to stay in touch.
Hi Nate, I've been hanging around the site tonight (it's been a while!) & I had to come & say Hi :)
I'm sorry to hear this happened to you, and through this site, we do realise these incidents occur more regularly than we as a society should accept.
I guess prisons around the world do have various degrees of torture that occur in the name of punishment, and a blind eye is turned. In Australia I believe our prison guards are more accountable than American guards appear to be, still, unfair treatment occurs here too (it would be ignorant of me to think otherwise).
Our prison terms are not on par with your own, which is perhaps a saving grace for our population. We do not exclude people from voting when they're released from prison and I believe we have a much higher tolerance for giving people a second chance at life(perhaps that comes from growing out of a penal colony).
I'm sure your bones have healed, but the mental scars from such treatment will remain with you and I am sorry that you have to carry that pain with you. We as a society will be judged on how we treat each other and I agree, we should be ashamed of ourselves!
After living through so much tragedy, you share such incredible beauty Jeremy! Your words burrow deep into my heart and awaken so much in me. You touch me so deeply that I feel drawn to respond to you in a more heartfelt way than I communicate with anyone else in my life. You have a way of touching me like no one else does & I thank you for that!
I learned a long time ago (through my own personal near tragedy) to not commit myself 100% to any love, any goal, any situation or person, for the sheer danger of losing myself. So it's incredibly refreshing to read your words and see such complete commitment to life and all it has to offer, regardless of the consequences. I can't decide though, whether it is you that suffers more deeply by sacrificing your freedom for such a great part of your life, or if it is me who, by never throwing all caution to the wind and living entirely in the moment with complete commitment as you have time and time again. Sadly...(as a poor reflection on our society) I suspect it is me as when we're on our death beds I'll be saying I had a good life, but took the safe options while you, although you've done it incredibly tough (unimaginably tough!!), you have truly lived and experienced a passion for all things that I can only imagine from my safety zone.
I guess that's why I'm so drawn to your words
Take care my friend. My thoughts are with you. Nicki X
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Bella
I'm renting a two bedroom apt. tomorrow. I've met Billy three times at Holman prison. I am going to be occupied with some clandestine tactics...did I mention we know who did it? He has a dream team law firm, but Alabama doesn't take to New Yorkers telling them they are wrong.
I will write a real letter when i get settled.
Oh, I cut my own hair! Ha ha! You should see how lopsided it is.. I kind of like it...I'll send you a picture.
Tell your friend...well I don't know what to tell him. It's gotta be frustrating.
Lynne
Whats the real story about your helicopter escape and the exwife? Read your blog and havent found to much about that.
How about the sex charge with a minor?
Well you asked for comments and questions. Lets here the answers
I hope this note finds your health well. I am writing on behalf of The Prison Birth Project. We received your solidarity letter and wanted to reach out to thank you for your support. Also, we wanted to see if you had any objections to us printing your letter in our newsletter. Sending our support.
Peace.
Marisa Pizii
I do understand why the guards get air conditioning however. It is a pretty thankless job working as a prison guard, and I can only imagine the stress the correctional officers face on a daily basis. It would seem conditions would be much worse were they to not have a refuge from the heat, aggravation and general despondency that must come part and parcel with that job.
As to them getting their cars fixed, etc.... This does not seem like a bad thing to me. I am sure there are people in the system that appreciate the skills learned when they are finally allowed to leave, a skill would lessen the overall instances of recidivism, no?
Your appeal interests me. It is my understanding that first degree murder includes the planning of a murder, and your case would seem to be more of a crime of the moment type scenario. I suppose your actions afterwards, desecration of a corpse, grand theft auto, burglary, the list is quite long... Make the point somewhat moot however. You bemoan the waste of tax payer dollars, but wouldn't an appeal process be more of a waste of those same dollars... Which frankly could be better spent elsewhere?
My goodness, complaining about the cable not being free.... This seems to be an ongoing theme in many of your posts. When everyone on the outside is paying for cable (I know I certainly do, to the tune of about $180/month), I am at a loss as to why this should be an issue for you? No matter how you look at it, your life is at it's base level a "free ride" and has been for the large majority of your time on the planet.
I really do feel for your daughter though. I don't think the sins of the father should be visited upon their progeny, but I also do not think that a father is defined purely by supplying the genetic material to make a child. A father is able to be there for their children, and makes sacrifices in their own life to make sure that is a reality. Anything else is simply a delusional fantasy.
Well, I hope they day gets better for you. For me, I am off to the backyard to stand over a hot grill and cook dinner for the family. Ciao!
I'm one of the slackers you haven't heard from for some time but it's good to see you keep reaching out here regardless. From an Australian perspective, I don't know that American's are being seen as 'cowards'... a bunch of crazy people perhaps!
Your policies on gun control seem completely nuts when there are so many incidents of people losing their lives (our gun laws were restricted after our last mass shooting in 1996, where 35 people were gunned down & we haven't had another mass shooting since) we aren't able to license automatic weapons here at all (because why would you need an automatic weapon other than to kill a lot of people at one time) - one shot is enough to kill a kangaroo or a wild pig & they're the only legitimate reasons to have guns in this country. We don't have the attitude that we 'need a gun for protection' because no one else has one 'for protection', so why would the next guy (seems to make perfect sense outside of the US)
I'll agree respect is something that is lacking across the board (but perhaps that's just me getting older too).
Anyway, just wanted to say Hi because I haven't been around for some time. I hope all is going well. Take care James!
Nicki
It's been a while since I've been here to say hi (a long while!) I've moved cities, started working, (quit that job & am busy looking for another haha). & I'll be finishing my studies for the rest of the year (I've also taken on a double diploma course) but I just wanted to say hi. (HI!) I hope you're managing to keep your spirits up. I think of you often & will continue to stay in touch.
Take care Daniel
Your friend Nicki X
I'm sorry to hear this happened to you, and through this site, we do realise these incidents occur more regularly than we as a society should accept.
I guess prisons around the world do have various degrees of torture that occur in the name of punishment, and a blind eye is turned. In Australia I believe our prison guards are more accountable than American guards appear to be, still, unfair treatment occurs here too (it would be ignorant of me to think otherwise).
Our prison terms are not on par with your own, which is perhaps a saving grace for our population. We do not exclude people from voting when they're released from prison and I believe we have a much higher tolerance for giving people a second chance at life(perhaps that comes from growing out of a penal colony).
I'm sure your bones have healed, but the mental scars from such treatment will remain with you and I am sorry that you have to carry that pain with you. We as a society will be judged on how we treat each other and I agree, we should be ashamed of ourselves!
Take care Nate!
Nicki
I learned a long time ago (through my own personal near tragedy) to not commit myself 100% to any love, any goal, any situation or person, for the sheer danger of losing myself. So it's incredibly refreshing to read your words and see such complete commitment to life and all it has to offer, regardless of the consequences. I can't decide though, whether it is you that suffers more deeply by sacrificing your freedom for such a great part of your life, or if it is me who, by never throwing all caution to the wind and living entirely in the moment with complete commitment as you have time and time again. Sadly...(as a poor reflection on our society) I suspect it is me as when we're on our death beds I'll be saying I had a good life, but took the safe options while you, although you've done it incredibly tough (unimaginably tough!!), you have truly lived and experienced a passion for all things that I can only imagine from my safety zone.
I guess that's why I'm so drawn to your words
Take care my friend. My thoughts are with you. Nicki X