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I'm having the nurse in the ER send this for me.There is something else going on with me . My elbows, knee's, ankles and feet are swollen up . It is so bad they look deformed. I went to the Dr the Monday after the fourth. She put me potassium and furosemide ( water pills) I woke up two hours before the kids got here this morning and my left elbow hurts so much I am in tears. i have the kids with me here. Alicia hasnt been getting off work untill about 6-7:30 pm. I didnt tell you what I went through on the fourth at the ER. I'll put it this way. They gave me an IV of doladine that knocked me out. They did a CT scan, ultra sound on my left leg to make sure I didn't have a blood clot. they had me on a heart monitor for six hours. My blood pressure and heart rate was thru the roof.When I woke up they gave me a stronger dose of the pain med. My elbows hurt the worse.I felt no pain after that. They kept me there for six more hours on the heart monitor. What sucks the most is that I had to call Lane to come pick me up. I could's walk home. I was so drugged up I was out of it. I read what Dianne wrote to you. She is such a sweet heart. I'm sorry for being so mean to you. I love you Johnny.
there are so many things i want and need to tell you.. the time gap was only 8 weeks not 8 months.. my health hasnt been so well.. i have been having tumors pop up and having them removed.. 2 so far but that is enough to have me worried.. they popped up within months of each other.. both were benign thank goodness but it is still an eye opener.. the weather has been super hot and humid here so breathing has been a hard thing to do at times.. and it sucks the life right out of you.. i have been getting med adjustments from my diabetic dr and my shrink.. so my moods are in a constant state of flux.. long story.. i am going to be talking with my dr about bariatric surgery.. also see my ortho dr in a few weeks.. had to go to dr and get muscle relaxers for major spasms i been having in knees on top of severe arthritis.. it was so bad i wasnt sleeping.. so i had to go to the dr.. anyway.. mike and i are doing ok.. things are actually ok between us.. he is so sweet and knd.. he sends me poetry every day in the mail.. he wants us to get married as soon as we can next year.. he said valentines day.. but i dunno maybe summer... not that i dont love him and dont wanna get hitched.. but valentines day is a bad day for me.. i have alot of dr appts, several a week for a while... ortho, diabetes, regular, shrink, therapy, neurology.... the neurologist said the hampster died.. lol.. migraines are not caused by food or environment they just happen.. so they have me on meds for it.. my med case looks like walking pharmacy.. sickening.. aggrevating.. but if i dont take the meds i get sick.. so i am painted into corner.. now.. i will look at the stuff you sent about jpay.. dunno how i can help as i have been barely scraping by myself.. i will do what i can tho.. if im able.. i love you Shadow Bear.... keep your chin up..
Hey Johnnie, Not sure you received my previous post, it showed to have failed. Hope all is great and I am just popping in to say stay strong! Talk to you soon!
I read you blog entry about scalping tickets to a Gloria Estefan concert. I found it interesting to hear from the side of the scalper. Because my husband is in the business of working with ticketing for a rock band. Although he does try to come up with ways to thwart scalpers. So we have something in common. He does not complain about scalping very much. I think it is just a matter of supply-and-demand. Kind of like the auction site ebay. I had no idea you could go to prison for that, though. Anyway, I liked your piece. It was well written and philosophical. I used to believe in karma, as a practicing Buddhist. Now I think it is true that by our beliefs, we see them take shape in the world. So in an ironic way, we believe our beliefs are true because they come to pass. But if we didn't have that belief...we would not see it in the world. So I am all about dropping false beliefs or beliefs that make me feel bad. Because if I have an emotion around a belief, the emotion is trying to tell me it is false. But...we have been trained since birth from our culture, parents and education...that if we feel an emotion, it must be true. We're psychologically reversed. Because in fact, the emotion is trying to tell us to beware of some false belief. Not many people are aware of this reversal, though. Well, nice talking to you. Julie
Hi Johnnie - I hope this finds you doing well as can be expected. This is Diane (Sissys friend) and just want to let you know the real truth. Sissys letter that she has sent displayed some harsh words concerning you two but please believe me she did not mean a one of them and feels terrible for getting so upset. She does love you very much she is just tremendously hurt right now. There has been endless hours of crying, being in the hospital and mental issues trying to figure out what happened between the two of you. If this situation has anything to do with Layne I can guarantee you the only thing between them two is finicial support ONLY. You are the love of her life and have always been as when Sissy had happier time I would always tease her about you two little lovebirds. It was too cute - like she was 18 all over again with giddiness and love for you. I am not here to cause you any problem but could you please find a way of telling her so maybe in time she will at least have an understanding as to what happened between you two. If you would feel comfortable you are more than welcome to explain to me if that would help you in any way. Whatever I can do to help as I am not writing this to cause you any pain or grief - Merely concerned about the both of you. I hope this isn't a repeat letter as I don't know if my first letter went through so I re-wrote you. Sissy truely~truely LOVES YOU. Please let her try and find some peace is you are wanting to end this relationship. I will let you go and God Bless you Johnnie - May you find peace and happiness within yourself.
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now.. i will look at the stuff you sent about jpay.. dunno how i can help as i have been barely scraping by myself.. i will do what i can tho.. if im able..
i love you Shadow Bear.... keep your chin up..
SunnyBear
Not sure you received my previous post, it showed to have failed. Hope all is great and I am just popping in to say stay strong! Talk to you soon!
I read you blog entry about scalping tickets to a Gloria Estefan concert. I found it interesting to hear from the side of the scalper. Because my husband is in the business of working with ticketing for a rock band. Although he does try to come up with ways to thwart scalpers. So we have something in common. He does not complain about scalping very much. I think it is just a matter of supply-and-demand. Kind of like the auction site ebay. I had no idea you could go to prison for that, though. Anyway, I liked your piece. It was well written and philosophical. I used to believe in karma, as a practicing Buddhist. Now I think it is true that by our beliefs, we see them take shape in the world. So in an ironic way, we believe our beliefs are true because they come to pass. But if we didn't have that belief...we would not see it in the world. So I am all about dropping false beliefs or beliefs that make me feel bad. Because if I have an emotion around a belief, the emotion is trying to tell me it is false. But...we have been trained since birth from our culture, parents and education...that if we feel an emotion, it must be true. We're psychologically reversed. Because in fact, the emotion is trying to tell us to beware of some false belief. Not many people are aware of this reversal, though. Well, nice talking to you.
Julie
Diane (Neises) Hoheisel