Crying Out! 10-29-13

Mercy on me, can't anyone see? Beyond
the bars that hold me! for what's inside no one
would know unless they took the time to find
out. It's hard for a person in my possession of
doubt to open up to others and ask for help.
and expose whats deep inside: Pain, loneliness,
rejection, I've had plenty of time to contemplate and
take inventory of my wrongs and I have found they
are what weight me down. I can't heal inside without
the help of another. as much as I've tried asking
for forgiveness as any believe would and as much faith
as I can muster I can ask forgiveness of others
all I want but unless we are told at some point
we are forgiven our spirit is restless there is
no soothing of the soul. I've reached out to others
for feed back your simple replys
for I'm about to expose whats deep inside.
I've lived 40 years of a life with nothing to show
for it but a criminal record, years behind bars and
many regrets that I had not lived a meaningful life.
I lost most of my family over the years and what is
left I have no way to contact them or search for
them and my loneliness for family in my life weighs
tons. Even to have someone to be there to talk to
and share my hopes, dreams, experiences and a smile or
two yet, we are in a time when some cant see
passed by what he is or wears in my case hypothetically
stripes and chains. I could be so torn up inside
and crying out for help that others would shy away for
fear or some scam portrayed from "prisoners".
I've been here for 5 years and wrote out to
hundreds reaching out for help some one to take the
initive to reply give encouragement, a tip or two
feed back on self help to set the motion of reformation
I've put the first foot forward through this blog
seeking mentors someone to communicate with on
a positive and influential way. I'm asking any readers
to look passed the chains and help me set the
chairs aside. I'm ready for a better life then
prison, drugs, a life of crime.
Its through you I seek my recovery
your simple replys could change a persons life.
Please write to: Teddy Drake #1599339 Daniel Unit
936 FM 1673 Snyder, TX. 79549

*Between the bars. I would like to submit
an address change. Its been awhile since I have
heard anything or written If possible I would
like a copy of what my blog site looks like
with any responses or comments.