REPLY ID: bdy3

Tues. 10-7-14 4:50 pm

Nikki,

Gracious greetings from myself & Jesus Christ. I find myself dealing with the seemingly impossible tryin 2 B like God in an environment that actively promotes the devil. Yes prison is under Satan's dominion, yes there is actually hell on earth. Right now chow has ended & there's yellin & screaming & pride & ego & lust & vulgarities as 117 men compete 4 a woman who's "married w/kids". I'll be alright. Though daily I find it hard 2 reside in a cell w/someone who's the complete opposite of me. But this is God's will so I must determine 2 accept it & thank God 4 it. I'm not there yet. Christianity - also - is a process. A process of dying to my daily selfishness in favor for God's selflessness. Sometimes I would rather write books than love my neighbor as myself. 17 years in prison has me less fond of male company or companionship. Prison breed the complete opposite f realistic morals & values. God will fix me - if I let Him. Have 2 mature enough 2 thank him 4 the things I don't like in my life. Like no mail from my daughter & still being in prison. Yikes!! That brings me 2 your question - "Do u think I'll be out soon?"

The only answer I can give is - I have no idea when I'm gettin out! Yikes! I have roughly 21 months till I see parole (ie June 2016) from there it's anybodies game. As it stands on paper, they can hold me 4 the rest of my life. I doubt I'll live 2 B 93! At this point I'm not even inclined to want to - But I pray that God will see fit 2 have an abundance of my grace & mercy to release me way earlier than any of my projected release dates. At present He has blessed me with a team of lawyers 4 FREE :). They say I have issues to get back into court, now I'm just waiting 4 them 2 contact me, while praying everyday 4 the strength & wisdom 2 get through today. Prison gets old pretty quick...

It's unfortunate about your friend. Maybe he'll go straight to a minimum work release. Hope so, it's less prisony from what I hear anyways. I pray he sees that prison definitely ain't where it's at. I pray he has an awakening & commits his life 2 God & pursues blessings rather than curses. Amen. Prison messes w/u & it messes u up...I yearn 2 leave, yearn 2 not be here all the time. It's a nut house & it's cold - very, very cold & boring & hateful & violent & greed & glutenous & envious & selfish & unloving, uncaring, etc.

Well thank u 4 looking out 4 him from the outside. He will definitely need the assistance & listening ear. Not 2 mention letters, $, visits, phone calls, pictures, cards, words of encouragement, etc. The love, the love, the love, the hopefulness. lately a lot of people in here have been losing their relationship w/wives or girlfriends. Why? Some just don't know how or can't be there 2 support the person mentally, physically, emotionally, spiritually, financially, lovingly. One guys girl told him flat out "I'm breaking up with you. Look me up when u get out & we'll go from there." Yikes. Thanx again 4 being there for your boyfriend. I pray ya'll relationship continues 2 relate 2 both parties while he's incarcerated. :) Takes a strong woman 2 stand by her man/friend in these dark & evil times.

Yes I met Bill several months ago at church. I haven't seen him since but I see his friend Pat everyday pretty much. Well I look forward 2 seeing the picture of you :) at some point. I have 2 take some more, maybe post some on the blog or least get me a Facebook page. Sure I'm the only person in America w/out 1. Mines might just be bout displayin my clothing designs & some poetry. Beyond that, nothing 2 it.

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY :)

So how was your 31st Bday? Plenty cake & ice cream I suppose. Or do u tend 2 celebrate age less at this point? Inquiring minds want 2 know:) I tend 2 write a poem or 2 of self-reflection as well as listen/wait 4 Gd 2 give m some special words of encouragement:) Amen like one time He simply told me "U were born 4 others".

So how are all the lil ones? Is life less hectic now that school has started back?

My last question is - have u made the best choice in life & accepted Jesus into your life, as your Lord and Savior? It's life changing I promise u (so does He). If u have any questions about God or religion, please do not hesitate 2 ask me. Thank u.

In other news my beloved daughter just turned 17 on Friday (10-3-14) & Joe turned 34 on Saturday (10-4-14).

Beyond that, just workin on my relationship w/God & comin 2 grips w/the spiritual realities in my life. HARD but it MUST be done!! Amen! Fatigue MUST be overcome, MUST be conquered so I can stop turnin my back on people, stop lettin my heart turn it's back on God :( . Proverbs 4:23 NEED my heart jsut 2 write from it :) Pray 4 me. Seriously. W/out my heart I'm nothing.

SUNDAY
10-19-14

Sorta just came back from church. :) Bill's friend Pat took the liberty to show me your picture. Apparently he really likes your pet. Hashtag :) "Ain't that a cool dog?" Well u don't look 31 so much, more like 23 :) It's cool.

Well though I'm a writer, at times, words escape me. Maybe I wrote 'em down all earlier. I don't know. Just ready 2 transition from one job to the next. Either goin 2 the library or this runner job (where u have 2 run around & find people). Either way a pay increase is in order. It'll be alright. Better get back to budgeting $, X-mas round the corner try 2 send Prisha somethin. Besides that have 2 discipline myself 2 write & B there 4 my fellow man. In the meantime, still getting 2 know God. Jeremiah 9:23, 24 Still designing clothes & shoes.

We gone make it.:)

It's cool.

God bless -n- have a good one :)

Psalm 3:5
Psalm 4:8

"A wise woman builds her house upon the solid foundation that is Jesus Christ. Amen. (So B it).

B wise
God bless u & urs