I can smile, Now

Upon my arrival inside this institution, I'd felt like my life was crushed, I had nothing and no one. I was stunned beyond belief and couldn't breathe and yes, I spent a few nights with tears in my eyes, it took practically years for them to dry. I'd thought my life was over and all I could do is reach out to others. I was at a door knocking, no one answering, sad and depressed, multiple issues piled upon each other but forced to face them, having no choice but to accept the things I could not change and recognizing the things I could. We can't change the way someone thinks of us, we can't make them love us and accept us. No matter how deep it is in your heart, we can't make them write us and tell us they miss us. All I'd wanted was a presence in my life, someone I could share this big bundle of love with and care for. I was stripped of most of my rights, not wanting to smile and having no reason. I'd occupy my mind to the point where I would not think of all these things, where I'd forget I didn't have anyone, drink water when I was hungry, and read a book to escape reality. I'd literally write hundreds of letters reaching out, searching for friends, family and someone to talk to. I can't let it go unknown that it's through this site that I've found a reason to smile, for all of you read our blogs and reach out to us, you'd never know the impact you make on a persons life by simply being there, sending a note of inspiration gives someone a reason to keep striving. It's true a lot live in the lowest points of their lives, not having reasons to live and many take the easy way out instead of holding onto hope and trying to find "their smile", accepting as bad as you may love your family, life moves on and their lives do too, (so what?) your wife leaves you, we can't change any of this, life isn't over!! But what you can change is whether we just sit back and dwell on the past or find our reason to smile. Cause it washes all of it away, writing has been my most effective tool and hearing from you gives me every reason to smile. So, I just want to thank you for helping me find my smile, it's taken me a long ways. :) I may not have everything but I have a reason to smile.