God, I'm Unsure And Lonely

Hello, everyone. I would like to talk about faith.

I have been told repeatedly that my faith is insufficient for God to bless me as much as He wants to. The brother who keeps telling me this has support from not only several people in his family, but also several pen-pals. I hardly get mail from real people out in the free world, and I haven't been able to go to commissary since 2007. God blesses me, though my Christian brothers in prison with. But a lot of guys think me a roach (bum) and look at me like I'm trash. I'm starting to feel bad about myself. Am I truly failing my God and savior?

I don't need much: some coffee, soups, and hygiene. And God has constantly provided this for me, and I'm happy the Father loves me so much to do this. I take some of what I'm given and I give to someone who is in need. I am not a good Christian; I struggle in many areas. But I know God loves me, and I give him everything I am (all my flaws) every day because I love my God.

However, I am lonely and tired of being ridiculed because (and I quote), "No one out there loves me," or "If I was a true Christian, God would greatly bless me." I believe all of this is an attack of the enemy but part of me wonders if I'm failing the Father in some way.

God, I love you and will praise you no matter my circumstance. This I swear. You have healed me of my mental illness and made my enemies feed me. You love me in my weakness and I know you will take everything the enemy means to harm me and turn it to my good. You are love and mercy, and I'm so very glad you are in my life and my heart. Nothing the devil does will ever tear me from you.

I love you all and pray that in sharing my life with you helps you. God bless you, and keep you all of your days.

Peace and love :)

Donny Welch #1375713
McConnell Unit
3001 S. Emily Dr.
Beevilee, TX 78102

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