Nov. 16, 2016

Random Sentences I Worte but Too Lazy to Finish

From Counterfeit Freedom by Roland F. Stoecker Jr (author's profile)


Random Sentences I Wrote But Too Lazy to Finish

Throughout life we gather
as we dance upon the crust of eternity.


Doing the dance of the criminally insane
Craving little boys of suicide
breathing in shallow life
exhaling minute portions of soul
Stealing my fate
Sealing my disease within


Will you
Can you
Save me
from her
the Ghost
that destroys
being real


Please become real
Why must you mock me
with your stolen light


It's 10:27 at night.
It's quiet and I'm lost.
I'm 41 years old
and crying.
I'm crying because I am sad.
Saddened to the point of quiet soul shaking tears.
I've lived a nothing life.
I miss my kids
who don't know me, only the pain I gave them by leaving.
I am alone, but a woman that said yes and
shares my last name
no longer accepts collect calls
or answers my letters
that I send to her house that she shares with
A man that's raising my kids who hate me.
Still I cry, and my tears
remind me that I am alive.


If Prop 57 passes I will be able to earn my way out of prison early. I've been staying out of trouble. No write ups for five years. I got to self-help groups like AA, Gavel Club, etc. I go to work and I'm taking a college course. I've been doing this for the last four years because I hated the man I was. I might have a little over four years to serve compared to the eight and a half years. I've been incarcerated now for fifteen years, and I've changed for the positive. I will be free, not only of my prison sentence, but my addictions and poor self-esteem. I can't wait to get out, get a job, and go to church, and find the woman that God has in mind for me.


Thank you everyone who transcribes the posts and to everyone that reads what we read. Thank you. Even people in hell, once they get used to the pain, are thankful for the company.



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Astoecker Posted 1 month, 2 weeks ago. ✓ Mailed 1 month, 1 week ago   Favorite
Your wife and kids love you 💕 Roland

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