A big thank you to a stranger
12/20/16: 2:30am: Listening to: Taciturn By: Stone Sour
Dear JC,
Hi, thank you very much for printing that out for me. I truly appreciate it. One thing people don't understand is that we have no real access to information, society, human contact, so that makes life a lot harder in here so when we have people that can do this for us, it is very much appreciated. I am sorry to hear about your friend. I am sorry to say she is in for a rough road but let me tell you what's going to help her, having a friend who loves her be there for her. It matters more than you can understand. So don't ever bail on her, if she needs you, be there for her. Letters, phone calls, human contact, it matters. It's what keeps a lot of us alive in here. And no one ever did this for me but if you can go online, find some of those free pen pal websites, put her on it, she will find men who will want to write to her, maybe even visit, they will send her money sometimes, she can develop friendships & connection with people in the world. It will help keep her sane, feeling loved & alive. No one would ever do that for em so I struggled but she is just starting this nightmare of a life so these are just some of the ways you can help her. If you have any questions about anything else that you might be able to or want to do for her, just ask. I'll always be straight up. If your friend has kids, prison will be rougher for her than me. I barely know my child but for women, to be ripped apart from their babies, it tears them up. Just be her friend, don't forget her. When we feel forgotten in here, that's when it gets bad.
You did more than just help me, you showed me an act of kindness & I appreciate it JC. The beginning of a life sentence is very scary. You just never know what will happen, you trust the wrong people because you want to fit in, be accepted, you don't want trouble. If you ever need to talk about your friend, feel free. I was serious about a pen pal site. Find some of the free ones (I'm sure you can google this) & put her on it. Once she develops connections, friends, maybe even a little romance after a while, she will have some happiness in her life. In here, happiness doesn't exist, so when we can have it, we grasp onto it & hold on for dear life. I've been here for 19 years almost & it gets harder but every friend I ever had in the world has bailed on me. All the so-called friends I had from when I was free, all gone.
When you are lonely, having a bad day, just getting a letter from a friend means the world to us. A few years ago I had a friend who was in a women's prison. She was in an abusive relationship & the only way she saw out of it was to go to jail. Her husband almost beat her to death many times. She committed an armed robbery, let the cops catch her & went to prison for 6 years. She wrote me, but then her letters turned into a fantasy relationship if you know what I mean. They turned physical. But we had never been like that, just friends. She said she wanted this because I was an attractive man & she needed to feel like a woman again. Years in prison & she felt ugly & unattractive but in reality she was a beauty without makeup on. So I gave her what she needed. Eventually your friend will want to be needed, loved, appreciated, not just by a friend but by a man so hook her up & she will have some happiness.
I am 100% okay with you not giving out your address. You are married & most men would be extremely jealous, & yes I definitely would if my wife were writing to men in prison even if just as a friend. But don't be no stranger on my blog. Okay (: Well it is getting late so I must go. Take care, go help your friend & you know where to find me. God Bless, Ciao. I have family in Warren Mi, near you? Can you help me locate some family? I am trying to find my great uncle's son, Anton Pizzica (yes his last name si the original spelling of my family's) also his wife is Becky Pizzica. Another is Toni Pizzica, Born 1975. We think they lived in Maryland. If you can help, great, if not, it's okay. ciao.