Hiya Paul, I read one of Bobby's replies on the front page and recognized a fellow traveller. I think we are all raised by the Glitz and Glitter pushed out by hollywood and we want't keep this illusion going. I have been starry eyed about the USA since ever I can remember - when I discovered what was happening under the auspices of the DOC and BOP I was horrified. I had taken a step into the dark heart of America. People have no idea what is going on. When I tell them about "for profit" prisons or what really happens in ad seg etc etc they refuse to believe me. THa yanks will never do that! Yeah sure! But now that I know and I have a vested interest in that sytem from hell, I have a friend who is doing time in Texas, I do battle. Wherever and whenever I can.

I love your blogs and Bobby sounds like an angel to me. I'm glad you found each other, I'll pop in often. Good luck and richest blessings - Axel

I do believe, the time of being lost and in Limbo is a time to re visit yourself, to take the time you have been given to start to look at who you are and who you want to be, as well as who you shold be>
I have always thought that human life is no different to that of a sapling or an oak tree, we grow streight and strong, most of us, when we are old enough to make choices, so with this choice and right to choose we begin to branch off, in all sorts of directions, we are taught right from wrong and good from bad, in our heads we decide the right way or the good way is not alwys the easy way so we look for alternatives, that is when we begin to make mistakes and error's in our judgements, that is were eventually the law makes the decision on our error's and tries to find a way to " make " us see the light , the right and the wrong the good and the bad.
This becomes almost contraversial once we realise those who make the laws are the greatest crooks of all. So my friend what I am saying is you and you alone are the only one that should make your own judgement on yourself ..It is long sense believed, once the oak tree falls back to earth it is reborn and grows streighter the next time for it is that much more knowledgable ,,, an Indian quotation.
You are there to fight, to live, to believe and to learn, you are being prepared for your next adventure in life, weather it is this one or the next one, you are the new oak tree which will be reborn and will grow streighter and stronger next time,
Only you have the right to judge the true you my frined ,,, keep those words and remember them always ,,, Only you ..

I have sent Mussy an email,

Keep safe and know I am thinking of you always and know your creators are as proud of you as I am

Bobbie

Hello Paul my friend ,
I bought a Christmas tree today , when I chose it I thought about our differences , the difference between your Christmas and mine, what I found is you are behind bars and unable to go where you want , I am able to go where I want but unable to escape the prison I have made for myself , I have the choice to walk through the bars which only I can unlock
. Until I started corespondence with u I did not feel I could ever unlock the walls I have built around myself , your an inspiration to me. You give me strength and courage to look beyond the invisible walls and now move forward ,, merry Christmas my friend . I will be with you in spirit on Christmas day ,, as I am every day , for every day is special when you know your never really alone . Close your eyes and remember these words " your never alone I am with you in spirit always"
Your so special . Thank you for just being you
Your friend from down under

Bobbie Xx

What I learned from Joey is how much I squander my freedom. Now I treasure it. I try and make every day count. I'm no good at that, but I'm incredibly aware. Be brave you guys. It's worth it. Love to ya both Axel

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