Date: 11/30/2019 12:17:32 PM
Subject: reply id:pgya

afternoon mrs tenzintenzin

just got ur letter yesterday nov 29
the fact that u in the UK shocked n wowed me at the same time. who knew my voice would carry me across the 7 seas! pray 1 day i will b graced 2 travel 2 other countries in person . still looking into that part... if n when im cleared hello africa! maybe i can take a pic ridin a lion or next 2 1 or least walkin 2 of em. speakin of lions weeks ago I was watching nature n 4 whatever reason god pointed out 2 me how they world the oposite of ours ie the males have long hair n the females have short hair. somehow i know the insight has deep spiritual connotations. jesus is the lion of the tribe of judah!

thanks 4 bein chipper despite bein in a hospital bed. r u better now. jesus can fix it, he is the great physician
trust me nething u feel comfortable sharin wont bore me, no matter how small the details . rather hear bout the details of life than the things i have 2 here in here like the n-word,b-word,threats of violence.people rappin bout killin people, arguments bout what inner city is the hardest/has the most murders/most likely 2 get u killed
course boys from chi-raq think they all that ouch!

this will have more parts

smile it will get better

Date: 12/1/2019 6:37:30 AM

im back
in spite of a prison headache
more of an introvert n behind bars more extraverted
nuff said

can i ask what was the surgery 4?
never had surgery in my life less u count goin 2 the dentist!
truth b told scared of it.
y?
childhood dreams of bein operated on n wakin up on the table

put a smile on my face 2 hear my letter made u feel immediately better.

thanks 4 the warnin bout the word "bollocks" i get it now

prison is the bollocks
but
soon my life will b the dogs bollocks
:)
thanks 4 teachin me irish
only other irish i came cross is "murphy"
:)
according 2 a book i ran across "murphy" means "sea warrior"
wrote it down somewhere (just in case i get it wrong)

so u irish n?

well i havent been privy 2 hear kanyes new religious album. suspect i wont till my miraculous release which i literally just got done prayin 4... i agree that he's a genius
love his early music like when it all falls down, jesus walks with me,buy me a spaceship... can tell he was gifted with a unique perspective well as verbal word play n the ability 2 rap bout ne subject. prayin that he gets there. will say that i did wonder if his jesus was a publicity stunt... mind u we don't have the media stuff 2 get the full story..

more soon

Date: 12/1/2019 3:23:36 PM

:)

happy sunshine

it's football day in this enviroment so the green bay packers on every tv...cept mines. like football but i prefer 2 watch the dallas cowboys though they not playin that well as of late..

well i understand ur perspective on kris bein the matriarch of the kardashian family n the outrageousness regarding her purse prices. i feel the same though i wasnt always of this mentality, the change is truly gods fault :)
so heres y i used 2 worship $ n possessions...
grew up believing that $ n stuff defined u as well as who u dated. that being the case i penned me an american dream that included buyin my moms a house. 2 do so i planned 2 ba dr, but over time this dream was corroded in favor of fast $. meanwhile i found myself by buyin designer brands i could barely aford. lord knows i'd spend my whole kfc check $220-ish on a $145 pair of nikes,matchin shoes strings ,socks,t-shirt, pants,etc... this got kids 2 pick on me less in got me new 'friends" n the attention of girls (what boy in high school doesnt want that) so it is 2day the american dream makes us live nighmares n have mis-priorities even i jail, men in here with kids spend more money on food than they kids...

more 2 come..

Date: 12/1/2019 5:07:32 PM

so as i was sayin...

people follow the kardashians etc n buy what they buy /wear/create so as 2 feel a part of some thing. by wearin what they wear etc it allows u 2 feel a parta somethin. allows u 2 identify as 1 of them. same as with sports teams. people use the verbage"WE lost ...WE won... WE sould trade/get ...WE goin 2 the big game... some will even fight u attack u or worse 4 makin fun/talkin baad bout their team, some r even like this overseas with soccer.

4 me $ is better spent on people. my perspective is that $ dies. as such i plan 2 use its perishableness 2 impact lives 4 eternity. like feedin n clothin the needy. n usin $ 2 self publish books n stuff that tell people bout jesus. only got 4 outfits in here (4 the last 23yrs) so i know now that life aint bout havin the most clothes, though i am a clothin designer, in the end geting $ 2 design clothes will help me reach those in my commmunity. its a robin hood theory of sorts. i can sell design 3 big brand comps then use the $ 2 bless the poor who could never afford 2 wear gucci, prada,jordan, hermes,etc. god will bless me 2 bless others. amen.

thanks 4 the history lesson on slavery n prison labor. knew it was a connection but 4got exactly what it was. yet we see how slavery got legislated where exons r the new slaves, specially in the south

more 2 com

Date: 12/2/2019 8:07:32 AM

feel u on datin. i been through the rigoamoro plenty of 1-sided relationships. or it was lop sided 1 way or the other, where one of us had feelings that weren't mutual. se now that i had been lookin 4 the wrong thing in relationship not necessarily character but a pretty face/body not necessary beauty on the inside. sorry i was a child once.

now i understand /agree with arranged marriages of sorts. not forced shotgun wedings, but more hy this person is spiritually compatible with me. i believe now in "ebb n flow"/chemistry special in person
congrats on over 20yrs of marriage i been married 2 prison that long :(

hey check out a book the 5 love Languages

respectfully
antoine

Date: 12/2/2019 8:11:32 AM

well the generational curse thats on american blacks is still alive n well, we still regarded as fun.entertainin,n low down.
believe the violent dangerous volatile narrative came into play after slavery was eradicated mind u according to boks/movies at some point masters pitted slaves against each other 4 sport. yet they weren't considered violent when they were hurtin each other at the behest of their owners, eventually things got flipped 2 kinda say "heres y we need slavery" we also know there were laws designed 2 keep blacks from freedom/still in slavery. this correlations is still ingrained into the psyche of prison. prison emasculates u/makes u dependent on others which helps foster recidivism as some men fel more comfortable knowin their needs r met. yikes, some come back cause they caught in the notion that life is about $.sexxx,n material things even at the risk of they fredom. i aint gone b able 2 do it. god showed me 2 work on bein independent /depend on him, amen. so i plan 2 have my own business n work from home. u dont have 2 hire me - i'll make my own job. amen, already gettin prepared. seen a show called "start up" that show cased a home based cross stitching business that makes $300,000 a year doin family portraits n sellin books

sounds like a plan

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