Hey! I hope you're doing well. I have something different to share with you today.
Have you ever wondered what people talk about on death row? As you can imagine the conversations can get depressing to hear when the next execution is scheduled, who might be next, who's afraid of going next and who wants to be next because they're tired of these conditions. But then there are normal conversations too. What's on TV, who's coming to visit who this weekend or month, sports. But here and there you'll find a conversation that'll make one wish I could have a YouTube channel specifically for death row comedy.
I'm going to share a short back and forth with you between two fellas in their seventies or eighties and a third in his sixties. The names I will change, out of respect for privacy.
John and James are reminiscing about their sexual escapades as young men.
John say, "Man, I wish I could have an all night congegual visit with my lady! I'm telling you, I'd put down alll niiight long!"
James responds, "The only ting your broken down old ass would be puttin' down is your blood pressure. As soon as your little pecker got hard, you'd have a stroke."
"Like hell I would. But if I did, at least the damn thing worked again before I died. Now that's something to smile about. You can put on my headstone 'Killed by his pecker instead of a needle!' Ha! But what the hell are you talkin' about? You're older than me! The only thing you'd shoot out of yours is a puff of smoke!"
The third man, Jason, chimes in. "Yeah, and one of those little flags on a stick will pop out the end of it and how 'POW' written on it!"
I hope that made you laugh! It did me when I head it happen. Almost the whole hallway got a nice chuckle out of it.
I hope you're enjoying the holidays!
A volunteer group came by this past Friday and passed out some snacks and soda. They talked with us and caroled. It was nice. They do it every year. They used to be able to bring snacks and cookies from the outside world. Lots of it too. But the prison stopped them from being that generous to us on the row. Now we can only have snacks if they buy it from the prison canteen. And to keep from being sued, I think they did it to the whole state.
In short, good people who want to be generous to us during the holidays have to pay the prison in order to give us those tread. This has only been done this way this and last year. Maybe someone of peace, right?
I've tried to acquire this level of peace before but was unsuccessful. I wasn't as level minded back then. I tried to practice patanjails eight limbs of yoea. It felt a difference, mentally and physically, but I drifted away from it. Got lazy. I still have the book as I still practice the stretches and sometimes pranayama, but I haven't gone past that in some time.
It's called Total Yoga by Tara Frasier. I like it and may dive into it again. It's come up a few times in this last month or so.
I take it you're Buddhist? And from how well you articulate your knowledge and wisdom, I'm guessing you've been practicing a long time? Am I right or wrong? If I'm wrong, please share with me your practice.
It has become somewhat difficult for me to articulate my feelings and thoughts via verbal communication. And writing as well I'm now noticing. I don't socialize much. Being in solitary confinement for so long has had that effect on me. I explain this because I didn't properly explain my answer on peace. Instead, you had to comprehend what I was trying to say. Which I'm thankful for. I just want you to know why. And that I may continue to have difficulty with this.
But now I'm aware of it, which will make will have a change of heart next year. Probably not. :! Greed and prejudice runs this system. At least they haven't stopped them from coming up here and spreading some humanity around. For that moment, I feel more humanity rising inside of me than I do the entire year combined. Someone who looks at me as a human deserving of that instead of a danger or an answer. Not just death row but the world needs more of that.
Until next time.
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