Date: 12/31/2019 9:23:32 AM
Subject: reply id;pgya

mrs tenzintenzin
happy greatness that just came 2 me:)
got ur letter 2day 12-30-19
happy new years eve,eve!

yeah i have no idea where the UK or London at! not really a geography guy. not even sure where I'm at now! somewhere between Iowa, Wisconsin, Minnesota,Africa n Afghanistan ! i could b ne where!

was shock 2 hear that ur current location isn't a great place 2 live. i asumed the UKwas the place 2 b minus the terrorist on buses n what not, but what do i know all we get is scenes of the royal palace n the freshest royal baby of harry n megan! but i dont keep track of all that.
my daughter royalty in her own right
(so run ur husband)
have seen some of England? on a show called? that takes couples house shopping. if u can google a tv channel called "dabl" n I'm sure you'll see a tidbit of the show I'm thinkin of. mayb i'll find out the name in one of the parts that will accompany this..probably 4 or 5
well, i know all bout livin in neighborhood with gangs, high crime n the like. couple of houses i lived in Racine, Wisconsin had people murdered i them/outside them/around them shortly b4 or after my family living in them. Ouch.plan 2 explore this osmosis of ecology in my memoir
bout 2 do some writing on it now
god wilin

more parts 2 come

Date: 12/31/2019 7:11:32 PM
Subject: reply id;pgya

greetings again

so as i was sayin...

1st found out the name of the show is ESCAPE 2 THE COUNTRY it comes on a tv channel "dabl"

i've found out that kids r vulnerable 2 "country line gangs" n gangs in general simply due 2 the fact of an identity crisis as well as a outlet 4 male agression, ask me how i know ! ne who joinin a gang gives the child who's lookin 2 come into himself/herself a sense of self-worth n identity. so in the culture the WHO RU QUESTION comes out as "WHAT U IS" (WHAT GANG U IN) as well as "WHERE U FROM?" (what street/hood u claim as ur reason 4 livin...) so kids say they r ms 13,folks, vice lord, blood,crip,outlaw (biker gang),klan member etc. this becomes ones chief identity the one one pledges 2 die 4. says it in tattoos n acts of violence, mind u gang members dont truly value their life reason they so anxious wilin 2 die 4 a gang street hand sign word etc...

more 2 come...

Date: 12/31/2019 7:17:32 PM
Subject: reply id;pgya

so...

i've also seen how adults manipulate kids,who lokin 4 approval /acceptance 2 do the dirty work, especially when theres a threat attached...fear is a powerful motivator just seen it in here (do it now or get a ticket!)
my heart goes out 4 those who lost their lives/familys that have lost a loved one 2 gang violence. i've almostbeen in both boats!
well in wisconsin the law says a 10yr old can get life in prison, even if an adult put them up 2 it! mind u the adult will get life 2! the rationale is the fact kids can get life is spose 2 disuade adults 4 usin kids 2 commit crimes, yet this thought process fails in the face of common sense.
if an adult cared bout the child truly,they wouldn't ask/make the child doa heinous crime in the 1st place. in racine they had 2 give an 11yr old back in the early 90's till he was 254 a murder he committed at the behest of some older vice lords (american gang)

so how much time do u get 4 a gun over there?
sure u heard of all the gun lobbying over here. at theend of the day the second amendment will keep america in its current state. doubt they will ever ban assault rifles/weapons etc. in their talks 2 eliminate those guns they never talk bout the black market -hard 2 regulate that! mind u where im from it was vietnam vets n cops sellin/tradin guns 2 gang members...

more 2 come

Date: 1/1/2020 2:47:31 AM
Subject: reply id;pgya

i'm back
;)

whats crazy is at about 4:20pm god reminded me bout a dream i had as i seen a red phone booth as i flipped through the channels, coincidently that show escape 2 the country was on... well the impression god gave me was he was givin me the heads up bout my meetin u
in the dream i was in an old neighborhood n drove past a white house (#3218) that was on the rounded corner of the end of the block,next i drove past a prison church,a red phone booth a mint green house that was an art boutique
this dream was on june 15,2019

more...

Date: 1/2/2020 11:21:38 AM
Subject: reply id:pgya

I'm back
HAPPY New Year
u shall do great things n succeed

nature is weird but we can in fact learn a lot from it. i learned alot bout coloring n colorways by lookin at books of fishes, truly god is the best colorer. if it matches in nature it matches 2 me. did lotta shoe designs just from pics of animals. don't seahorse males also give birth 2 the kids? i could b wrong but i thought some animal has it where the male births it! i could b absolutely wrong! didnt know pigeons were monogamous but i can appreciate it. if only... another thing i learned from the animal kingdom is that animals don't take more than they need. they eat only when hungry! animals tend not 2 have an obesity epidemic. cows eat grass but they don't pig out on it mind u its readily available. I love their loyalty n how they operate off of instinct. cool how all the babies look alike yet a animals mother can distinguished 1 from another. I see god. just like friday i seen a squirrel run str8 under the chain link fence. i thought who told him he could fit?
not like he gotta mirror 2 tell him how wide he is or has discernment how eide the fence is! i see more god.
reminds me of a book i read by TD JAKES - INSTINCT he teaches a lil bit bout animals n how we can apply it 2 our own lives. gone have it in my library upon release . sooner if $n opportunity allow also
want 2 read books on ecology
mind u nature is the circle of life everything leads 2 the life of something or someone else, even manure
nothin in nature has an accidental design

morre 2 come...

Date: 1/2/2020 11:23:32 AM
Subject: reply id;pgya

im back if i don't finish this time will only need 2-3 more cracks at it

i admire ur strength and courage 2 pull ur own wisdom teeth Ouch! so u had nothin 2 numb the pain! truly women havhave a higher tolerance 4 pain .hated even getn my teeth pulled thru the ole "just eat n apple n it'll fall right out" routine dont miss that part of childhood!

well i hope things go well. yet i have no choice but 2 pray 4 u 2 have a miraculous healin take place,so u can save on bills n "see god"/experience his awesome power over naturelour bodys, amen he still heals. ask me how i know. done got this blessing several times just in the last 6 months, had digestive issues...sciatic nerve issues. mind u we have 2 pay $7:50 4 medical treatment while makin sometimes as low as 5cents an hour, which totals like $2 every 2 weeks less u owe fines n fees. prayed 4 god 2 heal me cause its also legislated that nurses n drs can violate the hypocratic oath so we get the bare minimum treatment (ice n aspirin n the excuse "u just getn old")

well promise u god my medical advancement in this archaic environment. plus the bible says i can live up 2 120yrs GENESIS 6,3 PSALM 90:9-12 tells me its a blessin 2 live 2 70-80yrs n PSALM 91:14-16 says god is able 2 bless those he find pleasng with long life guess im gone have 2 take it i have yet 2 live

Date: 1/2/2020 1:13:31 PM
Subject: reply id;pgya

mornin,
its 7:55am prairie du chien time,well according to this clock neway

seems drinkin definitely runs in irish bloodlines, even when u have an adopted irish surname
alcoholism runs in my family ... moms kicked the habit round same age ur parents did. she's a wise woman who knows life aint found in drinkin... like urself i never had the taste 4 alcohol. did it 2 b cool n cause of the youthful consequences. im so done with it. realize i dont need it 2 b myself or 2 earn others acceptance.
well just got called 2 work...

Date: 1/2/2020 2:07:32 PM
Subject: reply id;pgya

12 kids i get it
in the south of the US familys have that much a "football team" they call it ... 21 on the other hand 4 1 woman whew! take she started in her teens,no other way less she had some twins, or sets of sextupulates! take it she must b filthy rich! or this close 2 it!

yeah ive vaguely heard shoes r ridiculous in price, last time i seen a magazine had some jordans 4 $200, then u got marc jacobs n other designer kicks4 like $500-1000
especially the limited edition/exclusive kicks from athletic comps. thought makin my comp like that but its 2 expensive
more later

Date: 1/3/2020 6:41:31 AM
Subject: reply id;pgya

so...
eventually everyone will no i'm the guy that did time either way. im not gone hide it,nor am i gone brag about it like its a badge of honor or courage. I will talk openly n honestly bout what i did, y i did it,n the dire consequences that followed. i will defend myself maintaining the position that i am not nor was i born inherently evil/bad. I wanted 2 ba dr growin up,wanted 2 marry tyesha, have twins, a lamborghini,big white house,n buy my moms crib,even discover a cure 4 aids! but i went astray cause of events in my life that taught me 2 harden my heart 4 survival n self-preservations sake. ouch.

my experience means something as it showed me who i am n my destiny/callin/life purpose TEACH. also bein here caused me 2 look at me n learn 2 appreciate ME no mater who doesnt. learnt bout how 2 overcome peer pressure n advers environments,n cope while runnin on 2-3 hours of sleep if that yeah i got entrepenuerial blood. so im gone do motivational speeches etc even have a life coach inside me :) so im constantly plannin how 2 make the most of ANTOINE hence the blog,the memoir thats under construction etc.
yes the programs r not all that
made my own

well se u soon
mrf
xmas was great talked 2 parents n nephew
no gifts but
did get a lamp

mrf

Date: 1/3/2020 7:47:31 AM
Subject: reply id;pgya

so research told me it takes like $100,000 2 get a run of 10,000 pairs, most expensive part is getting the last made (mold of shoe) so figure id cut my investment cost by investing in art supplys n designin shoes 4 the well known brands. nike adidas sent some stuff 2 under armour years ago but never got a response. maybe the "this letter was mailed from the wisconsin prison system " stamp scared them! maybe they thought I was tryin 2 run some kind of hustle /scam. i'm not mad at em. get at em when i get out n can establish myself professionally. learn more bout shoe construction materials,n the lingo. also gottaa get a surface pro 2 make desigin easyer. specially colorin... last i checked can sell a design 4 like $10,000 work 4 me as i'm like $100,000 in debt. whew. got portfolios on the street waitin 2 b shoped around, thanks 4 the encouragement. I shall suceed. 2day i wad blessed 3 times 2 hear bout people who started clothing lines (serena wiliams a christian lady in the salvation army magazine) sure i can work 4 1 of them,maybe both! do plan 2 do my own line though...

yeah i remember sagging its still popular in here, while bein a bit excessive know ive done it since i was like 8. h8'd the way pants fit on my hips so i always slid em down like 2 inches. there thats better! meanwhile i'm great at creatin my own style/trends

still plan 2 supplemental income by writin books

one more 2 come...

mrf

Date: 1/3/2020 10:41:32 AM
Subject: repy id;pgya

yeah crime always been a best-seller.plenty people got paid of OJ,2PAC,BIGGIE,JACK THE RIPPER,CHARLES MANSON,SON OF SAM,etc
thanks 4 calling me an ex-con its truly how i see myself :) even though still in. i'm so done with prison. retired like in 2007.
dont recall all that i wrote which provoked the question;y as an ex-con u shouldn't have ur experience mean something than something u have 2 hide?"
i will say this - america is different like that provided i was famous when i caught a felony it would b more socially acceptable. I would have been able 2 afford a high price lawyer who would've came up with a psychological n legal reason y the book shouldn't b thrown at me.jay-z blatantly stabbed a producer in a club n got probation, not 75yrs or attempted murder charges... because of how things are i have 2 hide my scarlet letter long as possible just 2 get equal opportunity from employers n neighbors alike, but that will last as long as till they hit google. its not so much a shame or a desire 2 hide my reality just i deal with it. n others cant.
understandable cause hearin somebody robbed n shot some body aint easy 2 hear, nor do people out the gate accept u, orange is the new black but blacker if u black. even in here staff have cringed readin my charges attempt homicide, robbery,possession of thc with intent 2 sell
1st response
who u try 2 kill
answer
nobody