Date: 9/12/2020 12:07:34 PM
Subject: Anniversary!!!

2day is
September 11
N while the
United States
Mourns
The tragedy
Known as
9-11
N the
Countless
Lives lost
I have
I am
Mourning
The loss of
My personal
N private
N internal
N external
Loss of freedom!
9-11
'97
My last day of
Life
I loss
My life
My unborn child
(Daughter)
Girlfriend
(Rose)
Appetite
Self
Fashionability
Mind
Sense of security
Alone time
Me
Choices
Warmth
Celebrations
Birthdays
Hugs
Kisses
Fun
Smiling
Restful nights sleep
Sanctuary
Home cooked meals
Love
"Love"
Colors
(Red especially)
My future
My 20's
N 30's
Friends
Family
What could of been!!!
Whole bunch of
Other people places n things
Like BFF
(Alissa)
Lake front walks
Dairy Queen
McDonald's
...

N I just don't know
Don't know how 2 feel or what 2 feel
How 2 do or what 2 do
After 23 years of the same ole same ole
What do u do 2 begin year number
24?

Dream of going home
Maybe
In December
(Parole)
Maybe the 27
Maybe b4 x-mas?
Either way
No worry's
Freedoms freedom no matter the day its granted me
Amen.

Maybe this year
Its 4 me 2 work on
Compassion
Patience
Love
Joy
Obedience
Giving my whole heart 2 God
Not just 49.9%
( I fluctuate)
Sometimes
I b mad at him that I'm still in prison
Sometimes
I b upset with him that
My daughter need me n has 2 do another day! Year! Without me
This hurts me more than my own incarceration
Tru story
Sometimes I b angry at god
Cause He didn't bring what I wanted 2 pass
Not always easy 2 accept his will 4 my life with open arms
Honestly

Maybe I need 2 determine 2
Minister 2 others,compassionately
Stead of judging em?
Maybe I'm spose 2 b
Bunkering down n
Determining 2 b
A MAN
Maybe I need 2 focus
More on allowing God
2 b the love of my life
Stead of stretching his ears
2 the street of
My crys 4 a wifey.
Can't love her like Jesus
If I don't love Jesus!?!
Maybe I need 2 focus on
Finishing...
School
Memoir
ME!

Just as well need 2 focus on
Life
Living life
After all I'm
Still living
Just life's located in
PDCI
Feel me?
So in regards 2 living life
The show must go on!

Figure out a business plan home based bakery...arts n crafts/clothing
...how 2 do a podcast
...perhaps YouTube channel
...what celebs 2 contact!!!
...how 2 sell song lyrics

Just growing as a man
N a Father
N as a person
Friend
Leader
Writer
Thinker
Designer
Son
Guess year 24 bout
Being
Human
N growing in humanity

So b it

Take my mind n heart off of prison
N put it solely on destiny
So b it

Minds me of that 50 cent song
"I'm just trying 2 b
Who I'm destined 2 b..."