How is life treating you, BtB viewers, I hope well. Well, this is my second entrance and today I'm going to talk about people's behavior, how some people develop their persona.

I'm going to talk about my persona first, but remember I have two persona, the persona got me into prison and the persona I have developed while being in here so I'm going to talk about the old me first.

People like me did not choose the hand they were dealt and we just play the hand with no question asked. Just look at it this way, you and I are like computers, whatever knowledge we were given growing up is what we know until we grow a mind of our own. We might grow a good mind or a bad mind. Sometimes it's too late for people to change 'cause they're in too deep, everybody knows there's good scientists that create good things and there's bad scientists that create bad things.

My evil scientist is my environment so I got my teaching from my society. Who was I to turn that type of knowledge when I was just a kid with a premature mind gathering what knowledge I could get to interact with the type of people I was surrounded by. The people I was surrounded by were vultures. If I could not scare them away I was good as dead. If I did not pick up bad behavior in the neck of my woods I was a goner. It would be like putting a seal in a shark tank, it would not be able to survive.

I did not create evil, I did not create guns, I did not create crimes, I did not create my environment, my environment created me and I just embraced it 'cause I thought the life I was living was the right life. See, I was taught how to steal, how to rob, how to load a gun, how to shoot a gun, how to sell drugs, how to smoke & drink. My society taught me how to be selfish & not to trust people. I was taught to idolize material things & money. My society showed me how to gain respect and that by putting fear into people's heart then I would gain street cred.

By me seeing people getting shot or killed almost every day seem normal to me. It did not seem wrong to me, there was nobody saying to me, that's wrong to shoot people or rob them 'cause everybody around me was doing it. If nobody was there to say to me that's wrong, how do I suppose to tell the difference between wrong from right when I see bad type of behavior being played out every day.

If you don't teach a baby how to walk, he or she will not learn how to walk until later on in life. In my case I learned the wrong way to live and it cost me 18 in 3 20 out later on in life I learned the right way to live.

People develop their behavior by seeing people around them doing good or bad things or by watching TV, for instance a suburban kid is not used to seeing a lot of crimes being committed. When they start misbehaving, committing crimes, how do you explain their action? Music, TV, video games, they see people like me doing things and they think it's cool to do what people in property do and that's misbehave. They do not understand people that live in property do not want to live like that, we just embrace it 'cause that's the way we have to live until we find a way out that type of life. It's not fun getting shot or shot at, it's not fun being broke or it's not fun taking drugs, if anyone say it's fun living in property is in denial.

Now you know the old me was created by my society which I did not create, the new me was created by me wanting to change 'cause I do not want to continue to live dishonest. For the people living dishonest do have a chance to change their ways, they just was have to want to change.

Today I consider myself as an autodidactic type of person. For the people who don't know what autodidactic means, it means self taught person. I taught myself how to read and write. I taught myself how to change my thinking patterns. I'm a new self improved man. I wanted to change, I was not forced to change. I knew I needed to change, so the persona I carry around today is positive energy. My mind got an upgrade for the good.

For you people reading this have to understand there was no blueprint to my life. I lived the best I could out there in the world but the fight is not over, I'm ready for round two.

Well, I'm about to park my thoughts until next time, if you have any questions or comments please feel free to express your thoughts, thank you for your time and take care.

From yours truly

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