10/15/11
Something Like Loving Blind

I was listening to Waco 100 and when they played George Straits's old song, "You Look So Good In Love", I thought, "Not me." When they played "I've Been Loving Blind" by Clint Black, I felt like, "That's me!"

You know, with Daddy owning a couple of bars as I was growing up, I got used to what I call drinking songs. I'm down with any music, but nothing does for a breaking heart than a good ol' country song. What country song best describes recent events in my life... "White Liar" and "Whiskey Girl" seems to fit best. There's a couple more, just got to get the correct names. Then I'll put them up.

I woke up this morning with the thoughts of my freedom overwhelming my mind. I wonder what my family is doing today. If I was still close to them like I used to be, I'd be going home to a smoked brisket, talking about the races coming up on Friday night, and good ol' country boys and girls. Yea, we are a simple family.

I think about the times I've missed being the daughter to my daddy that I could have been. I swear, I'll be better this time. That's a promise I'll take to my grave.

I've been trying my best not to dwell on the pain of a broken heart. Sometimes it's hard to see past my pain. I try, but it gets harder every day. One day, I know, it'll get easier. Just takes time.

I heard from my friends to keep my head up. They don't seem to get it. It's just not that easy. Everything in my life that has happened has been like a whirlwind of impossibilities. Yet it's all happening.

My friends are happy for me, and I am happy. I'm going home. Just wish I wasn't walking out of here so broken. Oh well, I'll have to suck it up! I'm trying.

When I hear the song "I've Been Loving Blind", I'll forever remember doing so on the Hobby Unit. And I'll remember that I chose to not allow my broken heart dictate my actions. Just going through the aftershock of a broken heart.

God is a good god, I won't give up on Him.